Yesterday I received a call from her School to say they had had enough of her bulling behavour and her Cutting her arms and such so she was not wanted in the school any more .Now it is trying to get her settled into a new school . I have discussed her agreeing to taking some of the drugs that mental health are offering but she refuses to do that . .She has a court case looming because she got angry and brokee a window and haddent told us about it . Is there any way we can get her to accept this medication to try and stop her totaly ruining her life . The school she is now going to have to attend has at least 1000 kids and I cant see her lasting long there The private school that she was going to only had 300 kids all up and they were wondefull with her but I guess when they cant see any improvement either they have to do something about it ..Please if you have ay constructive advice feel free to pass it on to me .I am at my wits endat the moment.

Today I spent most of the day working through the mess of my grandaughters room .Her Father came to visit and for Tea ( He had no money left for food ) and he founn our interactions too noisy and tried to tell me how I should handle the child (She has been in my care since 10 years) I realy lost it and told hiom to try and raise his daughter if he he knew it all . It is not like me to rub it in but I had enough after 10 years of Finincal struggle (Not a cent from either parent To help out Not even someting good for special days) How can I keep on going without making the situation worse . My husband has just had a 300 dollar drop in his wage and this is killing us . I think that is probably the main reasion I was so irritable .Am I wrong to voice my opinions .

Yesterday She lost it and I was beaten up as a result I have bruising over arms and chest .I wish there was just a little respect .

Have I given my friends their presents You know the ones I havent wraped yet maybe they are under my bed .This is the feeling in our house today . If only my little nudges to get thingsin order when we went shopping a week ago had stuck . Oh well only a few years and all this will be her responsibility alone . We might be able to go to the club and leave her to it .(DReam on )Maybe next year we can forget about Christmas and Fly to another Planet or something . Merry Christmas to you all in the same boat

 

To day her baseball team lost their game but she is still happy she participated . We are looking like having to keep hher home till the school hols are over as she was suspended yesterday and we have a meeting to decide if it would be the best option .I am begining to wonder why things keep going back to this behaviour. I know that she has heaps to deal with but just when we think things are getting better she goes off the rails again . Oh well we are free to go away before the school break rush .

 

This is the state of ones heart after 10 years of raising a grandaughter. A child that was sexualy and Physicaly abused up to 3 years of age . This is a broken Child with lots of damage .This is not going to make any sense to the child till she is in her 20s then she may be able to handle somr of the hurt. I raised 4 children but this one causes more hurt than all those put together .Also she gives joy and love . This generation is not easy to deal with for anyone but with the generation gap of a child and grandparents it is even more diffacult.At the age of 13 there is self injuring and a lack of self respect .Talk of own life taking and general disruption .If there is anyone else out there in this situation I would love to swap stories .Ethel