Hi EF! I cant remember if you're anywhere near the Midlands but I saw a Weekend for Bereaved family members advertised in my latest Care for the Family magazine and thought of you. Hope you dont mind? Anyway, it's for Parents & Adult Siblings, and the next one's in Daventry 26-28th September. The link is www.careforthefamily.org.uk/bpnweekend or ring (029) 2081 0800.

Grief is so hard to deal with,specially if you like to keep your self together.  Some times the loss is so much that a blubbering mass is the only way to allow grief out.  The losses that have no reason and you can find no intellectual reason for are the hardest.  I have dealt with so many of those,too young,no reason...so very sad.  You have the right to be sad.  You are sad for your loss and angry about being left behind to suffer the loss. No one can tell you how or when,specially when you are over grieving,you'll know because the tense knot releases and it is still hard but alright to go on with your life.  You'll get there because you have Miss E waiting for you to be alright again and you'll find joy again in those sweet memories of how he touched your life.

Hi Hun

I dont think you are cranky and mean. It is human nature to get a little edgy around upcoming event - good or bad - My mother passed away 11 years ago and still every year probably for 3 days before the anniversary i get a little moody, even distant. Same on mothers day and christmas.

I hope tomorrow is an ok day. Just take it 1 hour at a time.

Cass xoxox

YOU !!!!! Cranky and mean ????????? Never !!!!!!

Think you'll find that nothing brings back raw pain like an anniversary, you're just hurting and missing your brother and the dreams you all had

xxx