E is much better, thank you everyone for thoughts and prayers.  She was so dry and hot that I reckon I could have fried an egg on her tummy!!

She had Monday off school as her temperature was still flucuating, but we spent a lovely day with my parents and she was back to school on Tuesday which meant I got them to myself for a day.  They then baby sat her while I went out in the evening which saved me paying a babysitter - yay! (for me, not the babysitter...lol)

On Monday I had an interview for a voluntary job which I started on Wednesday afternoon - there is an option to be employed there, but there are not enough hours, so I am currently looking into another job that will work around this one, but will meanif I do these two that I am not home after school each day to relax with E.  So although I am applying for both I am not sure that I will accept the second one if offered it yet.  Also need to find decent child care, but my contact at the jobcentre is good, so I dont anticipate any problems there really.  Just need to be sure I am doing the right thing for us both.

This afternoon we are heading out to see some friends, so I must rush - just wanted to get this up before I forgot again.....lol

Have a great weekend everyone.
Peace
EF.x 

The rules

1. Link to the person that tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

Are you ready? I know you just can't wait to know 6 random quirky things.

I was tagged by:  mum2four, mcm and dramamom

Six things about me:

1. I enjoy PB&J sandwiches with cheese
2. I work as a volunteer, but would love some paid work
3. I desperately need to start exercising again
4. I miss my brother and his family in America
5. I am currently seeking out delicious lentil recipes
6. I intend to try and tag 6 people that have not yet been tagged.....let's see if I am successful...

I Tag:

1. hrs2004
2. izzy
3. katiepiatt
4. Chele
5. Gypsie
6. Michellei

Peace
EF.x 

All week E has been saying she doesnt feel well, but each day she has gone to school, loved it, excelled as usual and come home to teach me all she has learnt.  On Friday she was adament that she was sick, but with nothing to show for it and knowing I would be on school premises most of the day we agreed to go and the teachers could get me within 5 mins if she needed me.  I even mentioned it to the teachers. She was fine all day and I collected her at normal time.  When we got home she was hot like the sahara.  Scorching dry body heat a soaring temperature and it hasnt stopped since.  No other symptoms of anything though.  Today we have been home all day as her head aches and getting her to eat and drink is a constant chore so that she gets remotely near what she should intake in a day, but in sips at a time.

My parents are coming to visit for a couple of days from tomorrow, so we are hoping she will be well again in time to see them - a lot can happen over night, and with continued administrations of medicine and good sleep I pray and hope that she will be better soon. 
I am heading to bed around about now, though I hope to be up again later on - still got laundry and dishes etc to do - daily housework that needs doing before it gets too late - but E wont let me leave her side while she is awake.  We have had lots of fun reading stories and playing 'Ludo' and 'noughts and crosses' through the day. 

I learn such a lot from her about how to encourage her learning and use the techniques that her teachers use. 
Wow, I cant see through my yawns - excuse me.
Peace
EF.x 

E will be 5 in March.  Her birthday is the day after my brother PJ.  This was planned as he was 21 the year she was born and because I needed a cesarian I chose to have her the next day so that we could celebrate his special day, and he could still have E as a birthday gift while still knowing that his birthday was his alone.  This was important to me for some reason.  Now I guess I know why. 

A week after E was born my brother did a parachute jump, this was his birthday gift from my parents.  E and I went to watch as it was near where we live.  This was what my brother was like though, he was brave, funny and a great  guy to know.  He got married a year later and we rarely saw him except when he was in hospital, but each visit he made E feel like a princess, she knows how much he loved her, and that he always wanted to see more of her and spend more time with her.  She would sit on his knee while I pushed his chair.  Their friendship was precious. 

Last weekend E and I started talking about what we were going to do for her birthday and I realised that PJ's would be the day before - we had already decided to buy flowers that day and we are considering sunflowers but not sure about expense.  So we started discussing what flowers to get, how many, and where we would put them in our home.  E's birthday plans have been shelved.  I have spent the week in tears every time I mention PJ's birthday or something that relates to it directly - such as the date.  At least I know I can be fine on her birthday, because any crying I do for him will be on the day before.  Her birthday in and of itself I am fine about.

I do feel so stupid though.  Even as I write this - I must have so many typo's because I cannot see what the monitor shows me - gee, I dont even know if the cursor is in the right place.  And I dont know where the keyboard is except that it is somewhere under my fingers....as I was saying, as I write this my eyes are filled with water, there are tears pouring down my cheeks, and my chest is heaving with sobs.  Why?  I feel stuck in a time warp of some sort where I cant get past him not being here to share Toblerone for our birthdays.  I feel daft because it is only his birthday, yes, there arememories, but there were also many christmas memories, why do I find his birthday so emotive?  Oh I hate this helplessness, I am sorry to bung it all out here, but I need to get it out before I bottle it up and trap it inside.  I wish I had someone here whom I could share it with and speak it out loud to.  I just want this out of my system.    Oh man, the 'grief counselling' people called the other day to let me know I was still on their waiting list and I should be seen within the next couple ofmonths.  Well, I guess I will be accepting it by then and it will all be ok.  god is kinda good like that - I have a natural aversion to counsellors after meeting a couple of weird ones not in thier role, but still trying to play the role socially when I was a child. 

Well, I got sunday service to finalise for tomorrow with my friend, so must get on I guess.  Thanks for a place to vent.  I just miss him so much always.  I know it will get easier soon - I can feel that transition happening.  But some days just still really suck.  (can I say that here???)  Have a great weekend y'all

Peace
EF.x 

Well what a week.  E had her first Pantomime this week and is now desperate to take my parents to see one as noone else could possibly have been to see one before, she is so lovely and generous.  She has also read her first 'proper' book to me.  I qualify that by being not a 'learning to read' book, but just a book you can find on the shelf.  The story was 'The Hare and the Tortoise'.  I was mostly impressed when she read (with the help of the picture) the word Tortoise.

My mind has now gone blank, so I am gonna go - well, at least I checked in i guess. 
Peace
EF.x