So I am really cranky this week and I think that I am being mean and snappy and absolutely horrid to anyone and everyone.  Doesn't matter if I like them, love them or dislike them.  Is this how time heals my grief?  Or is it just part of the grief process that occurs around the sad anniversary time just like being exhilarated around birthdays and celebratory anniversaries?

There is a point at which I talk about the loss and how it has affected me, but that takes all of two minutes if I don't want to get repetitive.  So now I am blogging this in case it helps make tomorrow easier for my darling daughter and close friend who is staying with us this week  (how fortuitous)

There it is.  I am cranky and mean.  Is that a symptom of grief?  I don't know.  The way I feel right now I don't really care either.  i just wish it would stop. 

OK, so this is a little daft, but I believe that I have just gotten another stripe on my minti rank badge, and it has really lifted my spirits.  I am so tired and this week has been a real emotional rollercoaster - it is a year this weekend coming since my brother passed away, and yesterday I heard that my close friends mother has cancer, and they are overseas, so I am only on the other end of the phone for him and it is so hard. 

So that is my moan and my boast and now I am off for therapeutic snuggles with my darling girl who seems to know exactly the right things to say.

Peace
EF.x