I got my youngest in full day's now on Thursdays for her last term of Kindy. She went really well, and loved it to the max. Made a few extra things while she was there, and they were lovely what she made.

I'm glad that she goes all day now on a Thursday. I'm not doing it for my sake, but for her's so she prepares herself for when she goes to school next term, and she's there 5 days a week all day instead of only 4 mornings a week.

I think she'll manage quite well in the future also on that full day at kindy. She was a little tired, but that is to be expected, and i didn't raise my voice a little when she got grumpy, because i knew she had a long day.

I'm so proud of her about yesterday, and she also made her own Nutella sandwich. She couldn't master spreading things like butter, vegemite, or anything like that, but is able to put on other things onto her sandwiches like cheese, grated carrots etc, but she spread the nutella on her sandwich all on her own.

I'm so proud of my little girl.

That's it. It's final. I will no longer have anymore children at kindy or at home all day from next term.  I enrolled my youngest at school today. I was upset. Tears are filling up my eyes right now just thinking about it. I can't believe my baby is going to school next term.

I remember all my children when they were babies, and now they're all growing up.

And my youngest has just come home from Kindy, and she bawled her eyes out this morning, and didn't want to stay there, but when i got there to pick her up she was fine, and back to her normal self.
The elder 3 will be coming home for lunch as the high school is just across the road, and my eldest girl has to stay at school for lunch as the school is a block away. But next year she'll be in high school. My eldest has gone back to school this year, and my other teen is working still and going to school.

It's so good to see my kids back to normal and not so much of an attitude today. Early mornings again is killing me LOL. I love my sleep and so do my kids. Nanna nap soon i think for me. LOL

Happy Australia Day to all Aussies out there. Hope it's been a great day for you so far. Take care and drink plenty of fluids on this hot day.

Aussie Aussie Aussie...................

I totally forgot it was my second son's birthday yesterday, and he was 16. Master 2 didn't let me forget today, and I'm making up for it on Sunday by taking him out to his fave restaurant which is Cafe Primo. He is having his girlfriend over plus a few mates and family too. So happy birthday to DJ.

This will definately cheer me up big time. THanks heaps kellzacar for doing this and tagging me. Not sure if i'm doing this right, so i'll do my best to do all these things. If i've done it wrong, please, someone let me know and i can re do it. Thankyou.

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With hubby again. Yesterday was the meeting as you all know, and was stressing for us all, and now today, because youngest child broke the door handle in the kitchen, hubby cracks it, and starts going off his head and tells me to go and live with my mum, and that i really piss him off all the time.

I've just had enough of the crap that is going on at the moment. I don't know why i bother to live sometimes. I'm always getting blamed for something and get called names by everyone. I'm not coping very well, and i find that minti is the only place i can vent without hubby taking a look, and finding out how i really feel.

I have a journal that i write in sometimes, and he even reads it, and he has a go at me about the things i've written, and says i shouldn't be saying some of the things i do in the journal, and he will let the arguement linger on for hours on end on the one thing.

When i cry, he tells me to stop being a baby, and that our kids are more mature than what i am, and tells the boys not to cry as that's a sign of weakness.

He raises his hand to me sometimes and in the past, he's thrown things at me and have ended up in bruises and has hurt me, and has hurt for a couple of days. He's thrown things like the remote controls, my kids toys, like cars that are metal, anything that will hurt me. He hasn't done it for about 6 months though, but i think he'll be starting again very soon. He gets so angry over something so small, and i'm becoming very scared of him and i don't want to  blow my own trumpet or anything, but i'm not scared of anyone buy my father, but hubby is beginning to really scare me.

You all know my family won't do anything to help as we all have issues right now, and their own families to look after, and i don't have any friends either who i can rely on, as i don't have any. Sad i know, but that's life. If  hubby found out i have written this about him, he will go bullistic, and probably be banned from using the internet.

Sorry to rave on and to vent, but i had to get this out of me, as i said earlier, i couldn't put this into my journal as he would read it, and probably will do something bad.

Go and check out your friends list. Looks totally awesome what admin have done now, and i think itll be easier to manage like it is.

Well done admin. I like the new look.

So much weight has now been lifted from my shoulders since we had the family meeting. Feels great, but i'm so much better than i have been in the past week or so. Thanks to everyone who's supported me through this short time and from what i've told you. It means a real lot to me who've left comments etc. I really appreciate it. I really do.

I still won't be on much for a few weeks as i have to wrap my head around this and sort the kids out etc, but i'll come on here when i can.

Thanks again to everyone who's supported me through this.

My mum is such pig headed. She's so domineering, and still loves to be centre of attention. She was even complaining when we got there, and my kids cracked it, and they all backed each other up, and told her what they thought. My mum looked at me, and said, aren't you going to control your children, and i said, no, because this is what they feel, and they're expressing them selves, and they don't like your attitude and your way of life, and don't like the way you treat me in person, and when you're not around us.

She's a back stabber, liar, and everything else, and they don't like that, and they're only sticking up for their mum. They told her this along with alot of other things also.

Then hubby started on her, and then i did, and my brother and sister in law was crying, because they didn't think it was so bad. My mum just has to learn to shut her big fat mouth, and think before she speaks and sit back and observe everyone around her, and don't be so judge mental.

I told her today, as my children weren't still happy with her attitude after the family meeting that they didn't want to see her anymore, and she thought she was still high and mighty, that i no longer have a mother, and she can no longer see my children, or talk to them or nothing, and that christmas birthdays, easter etc she's no longer welcome to be apart of us, and don't bother to get anyone any presents or anything like that for them, as i no longer have a mother, and the children are so upset that she hasn't changed one little bit even after the meeting.

My kids are so hurt and annoyed, that they're actually now starting to write journals / diaries on how they are feeling ( except for miss4 ) and they can share their thoughts, and hopefully this will bring them closer still.

My dad cried, and i've never seen him cry. He still wants to see us and doesn't want to lose contact with us, and i said that's fine. He can come and visit us on our own with out my mum, as we don't want to lose contact with him either.

With my brother and sister in law, we hardly saw them, but did talk sometimes on the phone, send some emails to each other, and that's not going to change, but everything has changed with my mother. I will never see her again as i know she'll never change. At the moment, i'm so angry that i don't care i won't see her again, but i am a little sad for my kids as they won't see her again, and they've got mixed emotions at the moment, so i guess i have to wait until they come and tell me how they really feel once all this has soaked in, and keep you all updated.

I think i've rambled on long enough, and hopefully my anger will go away soon, and been as i've got all that crap off my chest, hopefully i can sleep better soon.

Money is still tight, as nothing has changed there. Take care everyone  and stay safe

We are having money trouble's and family issues and we are not handling it right now. We can't handle the pressure anymore. We are giving up alot of things over the next few weeks or months, so i guess i won't be on here much contributing as i usually am. This has been going on for a couple of months now, and its come to the point where we can't take it anymore.

Im that stressed out that i can't sleep much anymore, and i'm hardly asleep at night times anymore, that it's pissing me off, as im so tired and grumpy all day, and it's not fair on my children.

I think once all this crap is sorted out with the family, we can talk about in our own family what has been going on etc, and we all hopefully can get our own lives back on track.

My mother is the domineering type and if she's not the centre of attention, she cracks it, and thinks that everyone is her friend, and expects everyone to go and visit her, and yet she couldn't be bothered to visit any of us. She lives like a 45 minute drive from where i am, and expects us to be at her place every weekend.

My mum and myself have never really got on, as she prefers the inlaws to me. But that's another story i will tell later on. We rarely chat now, but when we go for a family meeting to sort this shit out, it's going to be at a neutral place, and it's inbetween all families houses in a park which is surrounded by shops etc, but it's also private, and the park doesn't really get used that much.

If nothing is sorted out on the weekend, then i'll be saying to my mother that i don't have a mother, and my kids won't get to see her, as the children are getting annoyed and upset with her in the way she's acting.

Anyways, hoping that you all have  a great few weeks, and i'll try to stay in touch with all of you. take care and good night................

Whooo hooooo the cooler weather is finally coming. Im one of these people who thinks 22 degrees is hot. I feel the heat terribly, and i have since i was a baby.

Today in SA is 26 degrees. A bit warm for me and hubby loves the summer as he feels the cold, and today he's warm to hot, and even got shorts on as he's hot, where as he's normally got tracky dacks on and socks on and complaining all the time he's cold still.

I could have the air con on 24 / 7 in the summer and warmer months but the electricity bill will be sooooooooo high, that we wouldn't be able to afford it.

Anyways, im hoping no more high 30's and low 40's anymore until next year, as i can't take anymore of the real hot weather. I'm stressed out and tired and exhausted to the max already.

Bring on the cooler days and i can't wait for it to happen.

It's 42 degrees in SA today, and it was hot as at 8.30 this morning. I'm glad there isn't too many hot days in the 40's to go. Now it's just going to be in the low 30's for now. Can't wait for the cooler weather to get here. I think it's going to take me all winter to cool down. LOL

I'm so sick of this weather. I feel like living in the North Pole, where it snows all the time and icebergs.

Hoping that everyone else is alright, and you are all having a great day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWow42TCwzg

 It's about child abuse, and it just show's you cute photo's of an almost 3 year old who was abused by her step father. I can't handle abuse on anyone especially children. This made me cry so much.............

Please, if you know of anyone who is being abused especially a child, don't hold back and be quiet, DO SOME THING ABOUT IT AND REPORT IT.

In term 2 my youngest will be starting school. I will cry to the max i know it. I won't know what to do with myself once she's there all day from Monday to Friday. I'm looking forward to it, but i'm not.

I'm even crying about it now, but she's so looking forward in going to school. Term 3 last year she wanted to go to school, so i know miss4 is so ready to go to school.

I'm excited for her, and she's so happy about going too, so i'm happy.

We are finally talking again, and he says he won't go around there for anymore parties to our neighbours place, and he's realised how embarrassing they are.
They'll say one thing, and make fun of hubby when he spewed up and that kind of stuff when he drank there last, but new years eve, that's all they kept doing was throwing up everywhere, so basically they were condradicting themselves and it was embarrassing on my hubby's part as there was other people at the party also, and could believe how they were acting. They were also embarrassed on the way they behaved and when hubby told them what i've just said, they weren't too happy about it.

Now i just have to take his word for it for now that he'll never go around there for another party etc, and only talk to them over the fence etc. I'm just dreading when they have a party next, and will hubby be tempted to go there again.

He know's he can go out with his mates from work, family and other friends anytime he wants, and has done so, but i don't allow to him to party next door. Now he realises what i said, and he said that he would'nt go around there anymore for parties, but lets just wait and see.

My poor kids have been feeling the heat terrible for the past few weeks and so has the animals.

We had a galah under the bedroom window Monday afternoon, and it was only a baby one. The poor thing was so hot, he had his wings open, and so tired.

I went around to my neighbours house, and got him to have it. He has a galah already, and the galah is still alive thankfully. I love animals and don't like to see them suffer and neither do my children.

I didn't want to give the bird up, but i thought the next door neighbour has more experience with birds than me, and the bird will have a better chance with him, and the kids were a little disappointed, but now im seriously thinking about getting a baby galah for the children, as they would love one, or two. but it has to be both babies, as i would love to handle them, and get the children's confidence up on handling birds etc.

If anyone in SA know's of where i can purchase galah's from especially baby one's or even sulphar crests or something similar, please minti mail me.