Originally Written 2months ago (September 2008)
"God gives us always strength enough, and sense enough, for everything He wants us to do"---John Ruskin
I've got a little superboy baby, who thinks that he doesn't need to sleep for rest because maybe he's thinking that he's GOT ALL THE ENERY he needs for play. It would be alright if he wouldn't cry later, but the problem is, he needs me to entertain him. Or atleast watch him while he plays. He hates being left alone in his room, 'cause probably he thinks that I am forcing him to take a nap......
Well, having a baby suck on my living body for 24/7 is NO FUN at all. That happened for 4 and a half months, UNTIL I got desperate. I needed a change. I needed a life. It's as simple as that. (easier said than done, obviously...and sadly.) I needed a healthy life or else my poor energetic baby might not have a mom. The ONLY thing that would calm him down, from the moment he was born, was to suckle on my very tired and functioning milk producing-breast. It's no wonder I lose 10kgs straight away after the birth of my superboy baby.
Everyday was unpredictable. Everyday was exhausting. There is NO KNOWN day or night. Everyday just seems to be the continuation of yesterday...until I really had no idea which day it was and how many days have passed.
A lot of doctors, specialist, nurses and moms say that SLEEP DEPRIVATION is one of the major cause, if not the root cause of depression. I felt all that, since not only does my body have to function all day to produce milk (as demand feeding would require) I did not have time to eat or even microwave my own food. All because my Little Precious One would cry a thousand tears in a minute and to top it all up, his cry was as if he was being suffocated.
So what shall I do? Natural Instincts...pick up my baby and comfort him. Cuddling doesn't work, rocking doesn't work, singing doesn't work, pram ride doesn't work, breastfeeding...(Aaaah..*sigh!) FINALLY something works!!! BUT I CAN'T GO ON ANOTHER DAY feeding him ALL day! My nipples are sore, my head aches, my posture is so bad, I couldn't even stand properly anymore.
1,2,3,4 months later, after I have read soooo many unbelievable suggestions on sleep routine, baby's needs, health...EVERYTHING and Anything about babies. I've come to TWO major studies & research: Attachment or sleep training. Attachement method is when you cuddle, cradle or put your baby into a sling and try to do as much at home. Just like baby is still in the womb. The main aim is to let baby sleep as much as possible. (That's my interpretation of it---summarized)
Sleep Training- this requires lots of cries, because when baby is so used to being attached to his mommy, it's only normal to feel sad when mommy is not around. In this method, baby should be well checked that he has had a good feed, has been burped, changed nappies, not feeling too hot or too cold. In short, baby should feel safe and comfy and you (mom) has to leave baby in his room in the cot and allow him to fall asleep by himself. GEEEE.....that sounds grand! (*sarcasm) LEAVE baby????
So what happens next?
The most challenging event ever.
I started to combine these two, whichever works in the day. Of course, I have given up numerous times. Just like any other mom, my BODY, bones, everything in me ACHED so badly when I hear the cry of my baby. I started this method when he was 4 moths, and now 4 and a half months later, praise be to God I am seeing much results. BUT 4 months??? Men, that was a LOOOONG time. The books said, the change might happen after 3 days or maybe even a month. I was going "LOCA" when nothing seems to be happening in a month, I read more books and online articles, I had to force myself to read while I fed him. Eventhough I felt as though my brain was shrinking into a size of a pea. I strive,...I had to, because I was DESPERATE...
Not to forget, I call to God each day. I needed HIM. I know I do. He gradually answered my prayers. I am still alive, and after losing 15kgs of my weight or even more in just 8mths (I gained 19kgs when I was pregnant) in the 1st two or 3 months of giving birth...I can now say that "God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose"- Romans 8:28
I AM ALIVE..TIRED..BUT HAPPY!!! I have learned so much in 8months. I have read 8 and a half books, in 8mths which is a breaking record for me. 'cause in a year I would average reading only 3-4books. MOre than half of those 8 and a half books of course is about Caring for your Baby.
WOW...I have achieved so much! ! !
I end this by saying: "MOTHERHOOD IS TRULY A REWARDING EXPERIENCE"