so the sports show was kinda dull this year. we took my younger brother matthew(10) and he had a pretty good time. he shot a paintball gun for the first time and did pretty well with hitting the targets. then we went home and jason went to his weekend job(bouncing at a bar) and i took matthew home and hung out with my family for a while with gracie. my mom kept trying to get a picture of her smiling, but every time she'd try to take a picture the red eye reduction light would go on and gracie was so mesmerized by that that she'd stop smiling and stare at the light! i think she's settling in to her night time routine really well now. she almost seems to know when it's time for pajamas, and then after i put them on her we play quietly for a little while, she eats a good meal, and then she drifts off to sleep. she didn't even move tonight when i put her in the crib. plus i'm getting better at not picking her up everytime she makes a noise, instead i hum her bedtime song and if that doesn't quiet her down, then i go check out what the fuss is. i'm so proud of her! such a good baby...now if it would just stay warm enough to go outside more!!

ha i just looked at the last time i was able to add an entry, then i read my old entries and they almost all say how i am going to write more frequently...that's funny. Well, the memorial service for jason's stepdad(cecil) went pretty well. i only cried once when i saw a picture of cecil holding gracie, and then a little bit when i went up to the coffin to say goodbye...pretty good for me. Gracie has decided that she's going to start teething now...i think...she's drooling all the time and she's found that my thumb is the best thing in the world to chew on(for hours at  a time). i've been trying to get her to use teething toys but we haven't found any that we like as much as my thumb. She's also sleeping in her crib now instead of with me, which is pretty neat. it took me a while to get up the nerve to put her in there again. the other times i tried she screamed right away, but this time she just looked at me and went right to sleep. she slept through the night in there too! Jason and i are going to an outdoor sports show this weekend and gracie will be at my mom's house for the day. i'm pretty excited about it. i love my daughter to pieces but sometimes it's nice to get away for a while. well, she's gonna wake up from her nap soon so i've gotta go back to being mom!

well, gracie's 3 months old on monday. we went through all her clothes and tried new ones on...she outgrew so much of her newborn stuff already! we kept a couple of things for memories, and the rest will go to friends or other people who need them. she can sit up all by herself for a short time now, she smiles and laughs all the time, she can grab for things and hold them more and more each day. it's just so awe inspiring to watch her grow!

she's got something wrong with her left eye though, it's got lots of runny discharge like she has something in there. we'll go to doctor sunday if it isn't better by then.

her grandpa's funeral is tomorrow. she'll be at my mom's while jason and i are at it. nothing too fancy, just a visitation and people speaking, then a party, cuz that's what he wanted.

well i'll start with the good. we went to grandma's house on saturday for a birthday party for jason and his stepdad, who share a birthday. that was really fun, gracie got to play with her cousins and aunts and uncles and she had a good time. and it was nice to get out of the house and do something as a family.  then on sunday she met her only cousin on my side who is about nine months old, that was pretty funny to watch her reaction to another baby.

and now the not so good....her grandpa passed away on monday afternoon. he had been suffering from lou gerhigs disease, which basically eats away at your muscles till there's nothing left and there isn't much you can do for it, for about a year now and we knew it was coming eventually, just didn't think it would be this sudden. he seemed fine on saturday, but that's part of life i suppose. it's really sad to me that she won't get to grow up with her grandpa as most kids do, but i know he'll be watching her from heaven.