Leaving Q's dad was hard but i had to do it in order to give my son a better future. He could be good at times but the bad outweighs the good by far. He was controlling, manipulative, violent and constantly negative. He was dragging my life down the hill along with his and I didnt want to deal with it anymore! There were times where Q would be crying  and he would just leave him there at the same tim he would be saying to Q "F'n cry! Cry your f'n lungs out! You will never beat daddy!" and he would turn to me and say " Don't u f;n touch him!" He was just horrible and I am glad that he is out of our lives. I am hoping and constantly praying that he will not just show up at our house and hurt me and my family (I am currently living with mum and dad) like he threatened he would do if i ever left him. I hate him and i just wish he would disappear from the face of this earth. I know it's a horrible thing to say but I can't help but feel like that. Apart from my son Q, he has 3 other children from 2 other women. He is such a womanizer and is constantly getting drunk and smoking marijuana. Oh and he's jobless. He quit his job 2 weeks before Q was due to be born- his reason being, "I need to quit the weed and I can't do it while i'M working!" 2 days after he quit he was drinking and smoking all over again. My labour with Q was 18hours long and he arrived at 10:24pm. Q's dad had been partying for 2 whole days and night and was still quite drunk and high when he arrived to the hospital. I had my mother and my aunty holding my hands as i pushed Q out. Q's dad was so mad that I wasnt letting him do anything and told me right after i had given birth - "You should've told me that your mum and aunty were gonna help instead 'cause i had a mad party to go to!" What a major A**hole!!! I hate him!!!