Aren't babies the cutest? Geniuses even? Such little miracles? Well I think mine is! Isn't it amazing how out of the blue they learn to do new things? Just today my son started to build things out of Leggo for the very first time. He has had the set for almost a year now and just today it finally clicked. It made my heart swell with pride. Oh and didn't he look so proud building his little Leggo towers and creating such amazing things with the little coloured blocks. And then to top it off I went and laid down in bed because I wasn't feeling to well ( I ate too much chocolate hehe *tsk tsk*) and then I hear the pitter-patter of little feet and my darling bub has come to join me. Now usually he jumps around on the bed like he's full of beans so I was ready to bring up all the food I ate. But out of the blue another new skill. He came and sat next to me, tucked himself in under the covers, then tucked me in under the covers and laid down next to me on Daddy's pillow. It was the CUTEST thing EVER!!! HE SAT STILL!!! It was a miracle. Ahhh I can't believe I'm going to say this but I'm actually going to look forward to when he crawls into bed with me now because I think he will actually sleep from now on instead of jumping on me hehe! Well I'm off to take my big-head to bed now hehe!!! Now that I've bragged about how special my little boy is!!

Ok so I just thought I would check on a myspace friend of mine who I admired greatly as she was a teen mom with a son and another child on the way. She seemed to have a great marriage, her own house and car and she had a similar life story to mine. Well she just posted a bullettin saying that her life was a lie and her husband had cheated on her numerously, emotionally and verbally abused her and on Sunday while she was 15 weeks pregnant he beat her in front of their son. I am so shocked and upset to read this. 1. Because the poor girl shouldn't have had to go through this and 2. Because she is a role model to hundreds and hundreds of girls - what will happen now? I don't know why she would bring another baby into this violent situation. I had hope in teen moms but this is just another case that makes us look bad. What is wrong with the world that people can't have a loving marriage anymore or bring up their children in a safe environment? What is going to happen to all the young girls that looked up to her for advice and inspiration? Am I the only teen mom out there who is still doing OK? Apart from Thuy of course, who we all know is an angel :oP hehe!! I am just so shocked.

Ok boy am I scared!! I finally got up the guts to book my dental operation today for the 28th November at 10am. I have to have my lower right impacted wisdom tooth removed by it being cut and drilled out. The gum on the other side also needs repairing as it currently sits over my tooth. I am that scared of the general anaesthetic that I have been crying non-stop for 3 days and nights. Usually my number one fear is nausea and vomiting but I couldn't give a crap about that right now (lol) my number one fear now is dieing during the operation from either the general anaesthetic or the procedure itself. I am just so frightened that something will go wrong and I will die therefore never being able to see my son again. I decided to book the op before Christmas to just get it over and done with and also because I am in a lot of pain but now I'm worried I'm going to end up chickening out of the operation. I know I may sound lame but I don't want to die and not be able to spend Christmas with my son or watch him reach his 2nd birthday. I have never been scared of death before so I don't know why this is happening to me now. Just the thought of never seeing my family again or the sunrise or seeing Jesse's smile light up his little face (oh here I go now I'm crying again)!!! How do I overcome this before the operation? Will I be ok? What are the chances of me dieing? Has anybody else gone through this? Why am I all of a sudden so afraid of dieing? I don't even take panadol, I never took painkillers when I broke my foot or when I gave birth so how do I know what this general anaesthetic is going to do to me? Has anybody else had their wisdom teeth removed under a general anaesthetic? Could someone please help me - I'm doing my head in here? I just don't want to die . . .