The week is almost over and let me start off on a good note and mention that my son has been really good. He and his dad wake up at 6am and leave for preschool at 7am. In that hour, my husband takes care of everything and when I am not feeding the twins, I go down and help out. At about 3pm we begin to get ready to pick up big brother and I breastfeed the babies and top off with formula and we leave at 4 pm. Because of the formula supplement, the babies stay asleep until 6:30 - 7pm and that's about when my husband comes home. While the girls are asleep, I get to spend time with my son and get him to eat dinner and play a little bit with him. So far so good too, he hasn't been giving me any grief.

I've also been able to work out an arrangement with the school. I call them as I am pulling in and park out front and someone gets my son and walk him out to me. This way I don't need to get the girls down.

What's been hard are the girls. It seems that my milk is pretty much gone after their morning feeding. So instead of being happy and going to sleep after each feeding, they instead lie awake for about 15 minutes and they start crying. They won't stop until I breastfeed again... and of course, since they are not getting enough quiet time is very short. I keep breastfeeding through out the morning (every 1 hr to 1 1/2 hour) until I can't take the crying anymore (or until I have to go get something to eat) and give them formula to top off. This usually gets me a couple of hours of quiet time on a good day. So as you can imagine, I am tired... no wonder my breasts never refill with milk throughout the day.

At night, I breastfeed and again top off with formula when they want to take it. Sometimes they absolutely refuse..and on those nights, I have to be up more often. I'm going crazy!!! And when I'm running on empty like this, I'm a little short on patience and short on the tender loving touches a mom naturally gives her baby. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about.

And now the weekend is here and I get to have all 3 children all day long. Yipee. Thank goodness my husband is also home and he has been very very helpful.

Fairy godmother, where are you? I need to be whisk away from my life, if only for a couple of hours in order to recharge....OK, make that 4 hours and I'll be good for another month or so.

Thank you all for your kind words on my previous posts. I'm just sorry I can't manage to comment on everyone's replies and be a bit more social like I used to. But, rest assured that I come here and read your comments. It helps a lot to see that people sympathize with me and offer kind and encouraging words. Keep them coming! Thanks again.

oh, I am also feeling a little dissapointment with myself about resorting to formula. I have nothing against it so don't anyone start defending formula feeding. I breastfed my son for 12 months without formula and I was hoping to do the same with my twins. Enter guilt. Anyway, that's another blog altogether for another day.