Hi to those who read this

Some of you know that my 11yr old Jordan has a little girlfriend at school called tiffany. she is a sweet kid and of course at that age, it is more of a buddy buddy thing. Although he did accidently brush hands with her the other day when the class were watching a dvd...lol

Anyway..it appears the "relationship" is over! Last night I  found Jors talking to another girl at school while he was playing the game Runescape online. She told him that she liked him and then he told her the same! I was so surprised at this...I thought he liked tiffany!

I know that at this age its all innocent but it did rattle me a little. I was disapointed that he could so easlily discard one girlfriend to immediately get another without a second thought and it got me wondering are these the kinds of things I will have to deal with more so as he gets older. I wasn't sure how to handle the situation so I gently asked him how he would be feeling should it have been tifffany who had broken up with him for another boy. I left it at that..

This morning he had obviously been thinking about it as he was quiet but still happy to be going to school.  Who knows what will happen!

I am not ready for any of this yet. I dont want him to be having girlfriends yet as innocent as they may be...and certainly not dumping one for another...

why cant I just skip the next couple (or 20)  years? I have enough grey hair already and i am only 30 ..what hope have got?.....

Hi all

I don't know what is going on with me lately (great opener hey..)

I don't think that I am depressed, I mean I don't feel sad continually, I am not crying for no reason...u know, the classic symptoms but then I have to wonder... I wake up in the morning and think to myself, God is it morning already...no I just cant deal with the kids, house ect again today....isn't everyone like that? Mmm...

I feel so unmotivated and tired...I am full of wanting to get out there and get stuff done but I just can't seem to drag my ass along. Tomorrow tho will no doubt be a different story. I wil probably have one of those few full of energy, get it all done days. Pity they are so few and far between. I could quite easily sit on my bum all day and do nothing right now but then feel such guilt at having done nothing while Ryan is out there working. I only have to work on the weekends!

I was doing the food shopping this am and began having a very minor panic attack. I have not had one for a few years now but anyone who has had one knows how scary they are. I feel mine coming on tho and am able to kinda talk myself out of..weird hey! I get this adreniline hit out of nowhere and I feel my pulse quicken and harder and I feel like i am gonna pass out. It is bloody awful.

I get these totally irrational fears in me too. (u all probably rekon im nuts now..) It is my birthday next week and hubby wanted to take me to melbourn for a night (also so he can see the crows play a game...blah, dont think so!) Mum would have been watching the kids overnight but I kept putting it off and now it is too late. If I am honest here, it is because I am scared to fly. What if the plane crashes..what if there is a terrorist on board? I dont wanto to die in fear! What about the kids? Then i think its just not worth the risk. WHAT RISK?? I know rationally that I could be in a car accident ect but the whole flying thing...do u understand...if u dont then just humor me ok..

I worry about everything..Driving...I wont turn right across traffic infact I will go via darwin if needed to avoid it! I hate driving actually...be happy if i never had to again. Hell I wont even go onthe ferris wheel at the show..how pathetic is that?

My god...i am writing this and am actually starting to think I am not all there!! I thought i was a perfectly normal person...now im not so sure lol.

I am gonna take a breath (and maybe a vodca) and count to ten...and maybe a lay down....

breath in...breath out...relax and chill.... ooohh thats a bit better!!

Hi everyone

Last night I watched 60mins and was absolutely gob smacked! They had a story on there about circumcision and actually showed the procedure being done on a 10 week (I believe) old baby.

Let me just say right now..I dont like circumcising...my choice...u do what ever u like...your kid, your choice...

I must say tho, I never really knew what the procedure entailed apart from the foreskin being removed. I never knew exactly how..mind u i didnt really wanna know either lol. The surgeon sticks the prong/scissors under the forskin and opens them to then circle them around the head of the penis to push the skin away from the penis head. I have no idea what came next as I had my eyes shut...I couldnt look. The baby did cry but not as much as i had imagined it would. There was the ususal debate about uncut men passing on disease and even contributing to cervical cancer. I am sure there is data to back it up but I have not read it yet. I guess there are pros and cons in everything hey. People have said that it should be done to prevent all this in the future..but I am not going to get a mastectomy done just incase i get breast cancer. That theory seems silly to me.. and b4 anyone says...well what about immunisation...take a breath cos it is not even in the same boat! lol

As I have said before, we did not get my son done...never even entered our mind...it wasnt a issue UNTIL he was 8 and needed it done under a general. Although upsetting for all involved, I am still not sure what i would do if i had another son...(god forbid!!) I would certainly look into it more but to be honest, i still dont think i could do it. Not until there is a totally pain free method.

They said that only 10% of the boys are getting done at this time compared to pretty much all boys 20yrs ago. Maybe this is another one of those cycle things like baby sleeping positions..one year on their backs...another year on their sides. In another 20yrs, the boys will probably all be getting chopped once again!

Even tho I am pro choice (but leaning more to anti) regarding circumcising, I still found the story really interesting..well the parts i had my eyes open for anyhow!

Hi all

Yes its thursday so my little half angel, half monster is in childcare today...yipee!

I got up early and did what house work needed doing before I dropped jors at school and Jenaya (aka mooshie) at childcare. Then I did the food shopping...in peace!

normally, I feel like I should be accomplishing alot more being on my own but today...nup!! I am gonna be lazy! Im gonna paint my nails and relish the fact that no one will ask me to get them something and hence smudge my paint work and Im gonna sit on my butt and watch a trashy chick movie! Oooh ooh and i might even just fall asleep half way thru it without someone nudging me awake telling me "hey u r missing the good bits!"

I dont care what anyone says...childcare is a wonderful wonderful wonderful thing!!!

God i hope today goes slow.....

Enough now...im off to enjoy....cheerio!!!

Hi all

I was just looking at some other areas and i saw a photo of another member. This member was sooo not what I thought she would look like which lead me to wondering what we think other members look like! U tell me what u rekon, then i will tell u...lol...

Jo xx