Hi all, hope you are well.

Life has been hectic of late between school going back and Ryan's job loss (which turns out not to be so bad). I feel like my head has been spinning. I have been trying to get up to speed and read everyones blogs and have just realised that I have neglected my own!!

Yesterday was the first real time I have felt like Im losing my little boy. Yeah  he is nearly 12 but he is still my boy..u know what I mean. Anyway, he was in the shower when he yells out to me to come here. Me thinking that he just needs a clean towel goes to him for him to tellme excitedly that he has just found a couple of pubic hairs!! My god, my jaw fell to the floor, I broke out in a sweat although trying to be positive, all the while screaming NO NO!! This cant be happening, not yet, not now, not ever! My baby is not meant to get pubic hairs..other people kids are..not mine! Then he starts examining every square inch of his 11and a half year old body for any more signs of masculinity and seemed more disappointed that the chest hairs had not started yet! How the hell am I meant to be happy about this huh..someone please tell me?? All I felt like doing is crying..but he was so happy and proud.!

I am over reacting I know and I should be happy that he felt comfortable enough to show me (as awkward as I felt) but I am really not ready for this..Cant I just go back to when he was 4..yeah 4, that was a good year! lol

Enough for now..its just too sad lol

Joxx

Hi all

Well as my opener states..we may be signing up for government assistance in the near future..

My hubby found out yesterday that he will no longer have a job as of the end of march due to the closure of mitsubishi here in adelaide. Although he actually works for an out sourced company within the plant, he will still be made redundant along with 1000 other people. Anyone living in Adelaide would already know that the company's closure has been a long time coming but it is still a big shock as to how quick it will all be happening. Alot of the workers have been there most of their working life and know nothing else..

Ryan is optimistic, he is not worried at all. He is really confident that he will find work and tells me not to stress. I guess we should be thankful that I work on the weekends so at least we will have some small income coming in. Worst case senario will be that he will have to get governmnet assistance but we really dont want to do that unless we have no ther choice. I know there is nothing wrong with that but there is a certain stigma associated with living on the dole. People look down upon those needing it and think they are all bludgers which is not always the case..certainly not in our case.

Well I guess that luxury holiday I planned one day will be pushed further into the distance...

Thats my dribble for tonight..have a good one!