Hi guys

As you know, Jordan is nearly 12 and has always been a good  kid..never been in trouble and actually, probably been wrapped in cotton wool a bit too much by me. Just now, his best mate Tom came around on his treddly asking if Jors wanted to go for a ride. As Jordan still cant ride his bike he asked if it was ok if he went for a walk with Tom to the park. I felt really put on the spot and didnt know what to say especially with Tom standing right there.

 The kids up here seem so much older and seem to have more freedom. The area is quite safe compared to where I used to live and it is not unusual to see kids at the park on their own. Anyway, I said yes and told him the boundaries of the streets that he must not go past and told him he has an hour. I have no doubt that he will be back within the hour and Tom appears to be a decent kid (from what I can tell). So why do I feel wary of this? I think too much, I always picture the worst ie. child abductions so when is it ok to let your kids go on their own. I always said that I would never let my kid be one of "those" kids that are roaming the streets. Have I just allowed that to happen?? I have only just adjusted to him walking to and from school with Tom and that was huge step for me.

I dont want to be the parent that never lets their kid do anything and is over protective which I feel I have been up until now. I also dont want to be played like a fool.. I have never had to deal with this before as he has never had the opportunity to be out on his own except to and from school.

Whats everyone elses gut feeling..be honest please, if u think i have made a bad decision then tell me why..

Joxx

Hey there everyone!

Well, I am back from my interstate bingo trip and am $1200 richer!

When people say Adelaide is a sleepy little town compared to melbourne..they are not wrong! Everything is so much faster (and so much dirtier) and the driving..my god, its a free for all! How we came out alive is beyond me.

We got off the plane at 9am in Mel. after  an apparent smooth plane ride..yeah right o! And left our luggage at the hotel. As we could not check in until after lunch, we headed straight over the road for bingo. Its very different there to what we are used to. Could not believe the amount of money going thru the place nor the prize money..absolutely huge! When it all started, we struggled to keep up as the numbers are called so fast..not to mention we were pissing ourselves laughing...

After that session, we went and checked into our room..I like to call it our crack hotel but apparently it is actually a hotel room!! We opened the door to our "room" and stood there with our mouths open...what a dump! Visualise the following...door handle coming off, dirty carpets, mouldy tiles in the bathroom, some strange brown substance sparayed up the back of the toilet tiles eeewww.., 1inch thick dust on the skirting rails, blinds that dont fit the windows and gape open, smelly fridge, off milk, front of the airconditioner fallen off, no fire extinguisher, beds that if u sit on them they fold in half and are lop sided, no towels and a strange neighbour that had various (and many) male visitors popping in for no more than a half hour..mmm, wonder what they were doing! All of this luxury on a 8 lane highway with trucks and traffic all night long. We headed to the shops for disinfectant and  a brush to try and clean it a bit. We even had to stand on a towel while in the shower! So, with that lovely picture in your mind, now imagine the smell...yep, certainly not the Hilton. Neddless to say, we didnt go into our room much. I know it was only 3 stars rating so I am guessing Melbourne star rating may be very different to Adelaides ratings..

Anyway, the whole weekend was a blur but fun and we even had a win..$1200 so that made it worth while. The plane ride home scared the geebees outta me. Thought I was gonna die and practically kissed the tarmac when we touched down..next time Im driving!!!

Oh yeah..did I tell ya i won $1200..lol

Nice to be home in my clean house..

And b4 anyone asks, yes we are in the process of writing a letter of complaint and we even took photos for evidence!

Hopefully I will pop some of the better photos on here soon.

Take care...Joxx

Absolutely nothing much to say..except..I have only 4 more sleeps until my holiday with the girls..that is exactly 75 hours and 3 minutes!!!  but who's counting hehe!

hey all

Thought I would offer you all some more dribble..it is Sunday after all!

Pretty well noone here would know that I have not spoken to my brother for nearly 2 years. He is 6 years older than me and up until we had the falling out, we were extremely close. Infact, he was even present at my son's birth. Ok, Ok, some of you are probably going eeww, but it wasn't like that..he was fasinated and loved every minute of it...I cant even remember him being there..

It has always been me, mum and him..we stuck together and as mum has gotten older, my bro and I had stuck together even more. It is a really long story but basically my brother turned into a right dick the last year or so of us having contact. He is a detective and his job entails working with crooks and dishonest people. He would of had to have been on his guard the whole time at work but I was finding he couldnt switch off. He was bringing his attitude home and treating people like nothing. Worse still, he treated mum like a crap and kept on reminding her of some things that happened to him as a child ( no very bad things but bad enough). Mum was a different person then..in a abusive marriage and someone who wouldnt defend herself or us in fear of being bashed. My brother would make digs at mum and blames her for the things that happen to him now and why he reacts to stuff in his day to day life. I guess I am a bit more black and white. I say hello..get it together, you cant change the past, u know why stuff happened then, its not like you were abused, unfed, unclothed etc. get past it and move forward. Be responsible for your own actions now and stop being a victim, if you so hated your child hood then make dam sure your kids dont have the same kind as you did!

Well anyway ( getting off the track) I basically told him he was a knob and that he should pull his head in and show some respect to mum. Well, that didnt go down too well lol and we have not spoken since. You could say the shit hit the fan lol!

I have sent texts here and there for xmas and birthdays and even when his dog died but never received any back. I have rung and left a message to see if he is ready to get this sorted but obviously he isnt ready. Its been so long now that it doesnt even matter anymore in a way. Thats really bad..I care but I dont care. U know what I mean?

Anyway, today is his birthday so on impulse, I sent him a text..happy birthday, have a nice day xx. Immediately, I got one back saying thanx sis. I couldnt believe it..first bit of contact ( if u wanna call it that) in 2 years!

I am not sure what to make of it..I dont know wether to make contact again or just let him come to me.

Either way, its a sign that his knickers may just be getting untwisted!