Baby's heart is beating well. I got to hear it again today.. Really good news...

Now my body has for the past week or so decided to play a game which I call sneak a pee....

Basically it is where the bladder decides to try and sneak out a pee, with out you being anywhere close to the loo or even ready to go.... 

The rules are simple, player number two (Me) is not to laugh, cough, sneeze with out being as close to a toilet as possible, and player number one (Bladder) waits for these particular moments, when it is ready to push a little out...

I must say I don't really like this game much, and it is not really fair, when the bladder has help from the inside...

Now with that being said, I am excited about going out for dinner tonight.. Yippeeeeeeee..

Did I mention the hubby has a new motor bike? He was all geared up and ready to ride today when, low and behold it started to rain... How sad... He likes his new bike but he does not love it... I am sure he'll get used to it, but you know when say for example you want a chocolate cookie, and all that is available to you is an oatmeal cookie, and you take the oatmeal cooking but you really really really wanted the chocolate one, so your not really satisfied.. Well that is how my hubby is... Poor guy...   He has the only compromise he could think of. But it ain't the GSX.

Nothing else to report, need to go pee.. :)

My hubby is on three weeks vacation.... My son is home from day care for two weeks, and Cam is here for two...

Ok there is only a few days left of Camille staying here, then Francis is back at day care, and Hubby will have a week left of his vacation...

How stupid is this... For some reason I am actually getting up set over something that would normally not bother me, as I like to stay home and busy myself...

But today for a few moments, I actually got upset... :) Why??? Because every one else is doing something and I am not.. Ok I am looking after Francis, but you can figure out what I mean...

Take last week for example....

Hubby and Camille went off to Disney, My sister and my best friend were off doing pub quizzes, and night clubs, my Sister in-law who lives next door had gone away for a week as well... (ok I had a great night at the in-laws lake house, but that is one night out of many.)

Now my SIL rang, and hubby says " My sister is asking if you can Baby sit on Saturday?" I say "Asking me where the hell are you going to be?????? NASCAR... was the reply... I said 'OH where she going?"

Her hubby is going with my hubby to Nascar and she has decided to go off to a jamboree of some kind... I said" F**K that I am going with her and the kids can fend for themselves..." Then I said to the hubby while still on the phone...

Last week you went to Disney, your sister off for week, me at home with Francis and the vacuum, this week your going to Nascar, your sisters off to some jamboree and I am stuck at home with the kids again.... " Of course all with a smile and a hidden snigger..

My sister in-law must have asked what I was saying because the hubby said "oh nothing she is talking to a brick wall." GRRRRRR

So this weekend I have to look after the kids while hubby is off to Nascar for two days... Mind you he did offer me the ticket to go one of the two days... Yeah right as if I am going to go to Nascar with my two brother in-laws... LOL

I am ok now that I have written this down. I just won't be looking forward to Saturday... What I will be looking forward to is Monday... Hubby brought a new motor bike yesterday... So Francis will go to day care, Hubby will go out on his bike and I will go and hide in a nice dark place all alone and relax some.. :)

Ok I can't be the only one who has ever left a unused tampon in their pocket and put it through the wash...   Now normally I might not say these things on here as not to embarrass my step daughter, but lucky for me she can't read English yet... :) Anyway long story short, if anyone read my blog before about blocking the toilet you'll understand...

Today I did the washing and found that my step daughter had left a pad in her back pocket and I did the washing..  Anyway took the clothes out to stick in the dryer... And low and behold there was a pad stuck to the inside of the washing machine...   Now I could have unstuck it and just popped it in the bin.. But no I had to do a you lied to me, but I am going to make this easy on you so to try not to embarrass you kind a thing.. So I took a deep breath and called her over...  (Papa was not home..)

I said "you told me you did not have your period.."

She said" Well I don't."

I said" Please if I ask you a question and the answer is yes, please just answer it because it would be less embarrassing for the both of us... "

Of course I got the what do you mean look... And I explained what I had found.. But my French was failing me so I had to show her...  I asked her why she just did not tell me the truth when I asked.. The answer was "Because... "

And she turned her back and went to continue doing what she was doing.. Poor girl I knew she was embarrassed.. But trust me if you knew her this was the only way to go about it.. Get over the embarrassing bit first then make it serious then go funny....

So I said after she took off back to rinsing a dish (which by the way she would normally never do), I said "look, I am a girl too, I am just trying to help, I have been there done that."  And she was still silent.. So I had to get even more serious...  " My dear, I have but two choices, either I talk to you about these things or your dad does.  Which would you prefer? " 

Thankfully she said me.... Anyway so we got passed all that, and then I made it funny and told her about the countless amounts of tampons I leave in my pockets forgetting they are there, and how big they get when they are full of water... :)  Thankfully she laughed, and we just passed another hurdle...

But wait... Papa said to me tonight......  "You know there is a talk that comes with the period."   I just looked at him and said "WHAT, I just got passed this talk I am not ready for the sex talk."  

He tells me he does not want mummy to do it, because well past history.  He believes mum won't have the proper  talk with her anyway...  OH GOD... I say have faith in her mother... And he says no....   So give me a little time to get my words right, and I'll give it a go... But ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ok need help...

Step daughter, non mother conversation needed, but ain't working...

Step daughter has period, uses tons of toilet paper and has a habit of blocking the toilet (AGAIN)... But insists she does not have period every time I try to talk to her.. But hey I know the evidence is there.  The frustrating thing for me is, I know she is lying to me, I don't want to embarrass her, and her father is telling me you have to talk to her.  I say " not though lack of trying, but I can't talk to some one who lies to me."

Anyway any suggestions... I know and think the best thing to do is to have to talk to her mother (which is not the easiest thing to do) but it has to be easier then having the chat with my step daughter.  I wanted to do that in the first place, as I really want to avoid hubby having the talk with her, but hubby does not have much faith in the teachings of mum.... And well I say just give it a go. I'll call her and get her to have a little chat...

Its not so much as the toilet paper is  a problem but now we have to fix the ceiling down stairs because the water from the overflown toilet leaked though to downstairs. 

I wish I could explain it better with out going into the complete history of what happened.. But anyway any advice on how to have difficult conversations with a child that is not actually yours, and although you have an amazing relationship with them there are just some subjects you think are better left up to the bio parents, even if you have a small doubt in that...

I just wish that my step daughter would understand that I to was her age once and went though what she is going through right down to the 20 rolls of toilet paper... Although I did not block any toilets, and because her dad had no idea what the problem was, when he went off her nut, probably made her feel like crap.. I explained to him later why the amount of toilet paper was used and he felt so bad, but well he can't really go and say sorry because he did not know.... AHHHHHHHHH

Anyway I'll chat with her mum later and see what can be done that way..

Sorry to ramble but it is just so frustrating when you try to have a talk and you know you are being lied to but only because the person is embarrassed and does not want to have that kind of conversation with you...

One thing I did get out of it though was I told hubby that the minute I find out she is having sex, with or with out his permission I am going to ask her if she is on the pill, then if she says no take her....   He said he had no problems with that.. Because I know it would be easier to get her on the pill then it would be to say stop having sex....  Of course I am really hoping her mother will cover that too...  I really don't want to step on toes, but my hubby keeps insisting that I have these conversations with her.  I had to talk to her a little while ago on why her father is a little hard on her with her choice of some clothing...  You know the whole your to young to wear that, but he wanted me to make sure I told her about older boys, and what they might do or think when looking at someone dressed kinda sexy... Talk about hard on me, but thankfully she listened to that conversation. 

Anyway sorry again for the ramble.. I just needed to get that out of the system..

And you thought it was all about blocked toilets..> LOL

I don't care what anyone says, flip flops no matter how much pretty stuff they stick on them they are still thongs... :)

I caved in and brought a pair the other day, and still say "I don't like them".  So why did I buy a pair?????

Because I am mourning my pair of sandals that were the most comfortable things that I had ever worn and just a little bit to expensive to rush out and buy another pair, they died while on our trip to Jamaica, and I needed a quick fix so that I could wear something more for the hot weather besides my jeans.  So I splashed out and brought a two 7$ pair of flip flops (Thongs)... If I say thongs here, my family here thinks I am wearing a g-string on my feet.... 

Now I am not like most women I know when it comes to foot ware...  I have.....

2 pair of heeled sandals, one black and one white.... (for dressing up)

1 pair of runners

1 pair of snow boots (for playing in the snow... )

1 pair of dressy snow boots... (one to wear with my dress pants to go out for dinner).

And alas now I own two pair of thongs... :)  One to go with my bathers, and one just to slip on if I have to the store... Which for me is almost as bad as wearing my slippers(SP) outside.. :)

I hate flip flops.. they are for me uncomfortable.  And I don't care as stated above what anyones says, no matter how much you dress them up they are still thongs...  I can't believe you can get flip flops (thongs) as after 5pm ware as well...

Oh how I want my other sandals back... So comfortable, go with everything, and look good if I have to go out...  Although you could dress them up I would not have worn them to a flashy restaurant but still oh how wonderful they were... Oh how I miss them...  :)

anyway that is just my rant or rave or just some babble...

I think I'll go clean something now..

Well they made it safe and sound....

Francis is having a wonderful time with his sister this morning...   I must say that after spending 1/2 hour waiting at the airport for them I am sooooo glad I did not go with them...  Francis just would not stop moving.. It was so hard to keep Francis still, and I could not watch the doors and Francis at the same time so I had to move to a spot where hubby would see us instead of us seeing him.  Hubby actually said that he thought would be waiting for right at the gates for him to come though... I told him we tried but little one was just annoying the crap out of me and I could not watch him and the doors at the same time...

Also a lady actually told me I was amazing.. :) Francis had spilled some chips on the floor at the airport and I cleaned them up... The lady said "wow your amazing, my mother would never have done that... "  I did not know what to say other then thanks... 

Hubby brought me back a big mug with "We all love Minnie" on the mug, so my one mug coffee cup has been replaced by one that almost has two cups.. :) No need to go  back for seconds, and he also got me a thing for Zoppini charm for my bracelet.

They had a wonderful time...

And I had a wonderful time on Wednesday night I went and stayed at the in-laws lake house with Francis and it was just fantastic to watch him with his papi, while I sat back and relaxed with Mami...  It was just wonderful. It was the first time I had gone there and stayed over and with out the hubby.   Francis danced the night away which was so amusing as we were just sitting there playing with the music going through what they had on their stereo and they were testing me to see how much i knew of the old songs they had...  And they were impressed.. LOL and Francis just danced and danced and danced..

Anyway I have to get back to the kids, as papa got up for an hour this morning and then came back and said he could not take it and needed to go back to bed so asked if I could take over.. :) ANd he is still there.. LOL It is almost lunch time...

Chat later xxxx

Ok why put your hands together.. If you have been reading about my toilet training tryouts, it has nothing to do with that.. LOL

Today for the first time in months possibly a year my son has fallen to sleep before 8.30pm.   Yipppeeeeee.

We had a minor toilet break though this afternoon no peeing but he was excited to sit on his Thomas the tank engine toilet seat. That was after a few hours of him screaming because he did not want his pull ups. He kept calling them undies and did not believe me when I told him they were diapers, so after I started pulling my hair out I put a diaper on, and realized I could have saved myself all the trouble and just put them on him in the first place... He was more then happy to try his Thomas seat after he had his other nappies on... LOL   Anyway so now when I say lets sit on Thomas, he counts the trains around the outside of the toilet seat, tells me that it is for a big boy and he sits on it....  And I even gave him a big boy magazine to read just like papa.... (MOTOR BIKES)

After that I immediately stopped pulling my hair out and smiled at my big boy...

Hubby rang today, said they did the Eppicot (SP?) center at Disney not as exciting as most things.. But he said it was still good...  He said he misses me, and I said I miss him, and there are only three more sleeps until he comes home... LOL He was sitting by the a swimming pool at the time he called watching Camille.  He really does not like to swim in pools because kids pee in there... LOL

Anyway thats it for now.. Night. xxxx

Ok well time to reupholster (SP)? one of the kitchen chairs...  Good thing we were going to do it anyway... 

So we started the morning off in a diaper and went to feed the ducks at about 8am as i had tons of left over bread and Francis was ready to just do something.. Ants in his pants.. We came back and he wanted to play in the little pool, so I told him to take his clothes off and he asked for his underwear like a big boy...  So I jumped at the chance...

Anyway changed those into a dry pair after a dip in the pool and while he was sitting there on the chair eating an apple he decided to watch himself pee, at first I thought he spilt his drink... I said "NOOOOO We pee in the toilet!"  So off he went. Took off his big kid undies and he peed the rest in the toilet.  After he got off we all jumped around high fives and lets get a cadoux.. (Present)....  As he did pee in the toilet too.. And he remembered mum said a few days ago if he pees in the toilet I was going to buy him a fish....  So off we went....  But  as we were looking at the fish he peed again... So off we went to find the guy with a mop..  Opppssss sorry MR.....   Thankfully I was smart enough to take some more clothes with me... We went and changed his clothes and by choice he made an effort to sit on the toilet at Walmart and pushed what little pee he could, he jumped up and wanted high fives again... So we did, but I told him we would wait for the fish.

Anyway I figure it is a start.. We brought some lollies for the next time he pees on the toilet...  So heres looking forward to the next time... :) We also got some night time pull ups with Buzz Lightyear which he was most excited about and I figured I'd get some other pull ups with cars on them as we are going out to the in-laws on wednesday and trust me when I say there is no way I'd be able to afford to reupholster their chairs... :)

Heres hoping to more pee on the toilets... :)

I tried lets take the diaper off...  Lets just say I gave in after an hour of complaining from Francis that his penis was hanging out... LOL

Poor kid did not like the feel...  But later in the afternoon I managed to get a pair of jocks on him while we played outside, but the minute we came back inside he wanted his diaper back on... GRRRRRRR

My Question is and I would love answers although I am going to go looking through toilet training advice,  what do you do when the kid complains non stop to put his diaper back on?????? And refuses to even go sit on the toilet????? GRRRRR his underwear had Pirates on it which was a big seller in the first place, but he wanted his diaper back.. GRRRRRR.. Ok maybe I will have better luck tomorrow.. :)

Remember how yesterday I said it rained on the hubby and Camille in Disneyland while on a ride???? Well husband reported in today that the camera no longer works.. It got wet.. AHHHHHHHH OH well... 

Francis is asleep, so far we have been averaging on 9pm sleep time for him only an hour after he goes to bed.. I can tell you why too, because daddy is not here to talk to him.. Daddy can't stand the screaming or the mummy calls, so daddy talks to him... I keep telling him if you ignore it he will sleep... :) But no daddy does not listen to mummy.. So I must admit I have enjoyed that...

In fact, Francis has been a great little kid the last few days, no complaints what so ever, might also be because I don't have a book I'd like a few minutes to sit down and read.. Even the dog is being great.. LOL 

Might have to send the hubby away more often..

But I must say, I miss the man. Who wouldn't... LOL  Any I decided to fill up my week so we are out every night next week until Thursday when I go pick them up...

anyway that is all i have for now..

Chat later. .xxxx

Yesterday as the title said, it rained and rained and then rained some more.. In fact we are expecting more this week...

Hubby and Cam checked in around 11pm last night... Told me they got totally soaked by rain on one of the rides, had to go and get changed... LOL  Hubby also mentioned his photo with Cinderella.  Operantly she asked him out but he said no..

Yesterday I cleaned house.. And did a good job too.. Today well I am bored.. I am doing exactly what I normally do only well, I did not realize how boring it really is...  With out any of the back ground noise... :)  Francis and I how ever did a bit of cranking up the stereo and danced around a bit, with the vacuum.. :)

Now I am just quietly waiting for my friend David to ring as he said he was coming over, he is one of those guys who if you need will be there in a pinch, if he is not  halfway across the world..  He actually introduced me and the hubby together, and when don't tell him but later we are going to ask him to be godfather of our baby.

Speaking of Baby, have stopped bleeding yippee...

All is going well here just find the quiet boring.. Although I have lovely sparkling clean toilets,  and a lovely smelling house.. But thats about it.. :)

Oh and for the last two nights, I went to bed early.. I was actually asleep when the hubby checked in..

I don't believe how quiet the house is...

Hubby's not home so I can't hear the telly, or him playing games, and Francis is actually asleep.  Oh so quiet. I am even thinking about going to bed. 

Today was a lovely day.

I have met a lady a while back that I see regularly now thanks to our dogs, and she is a cross between Marg and Janice.  My son has attached himself to her and she just adores him.  She has invited us to her house this week and Francis got really excited thinking we were going this afternoon as we left the park, he was a little upset.. But got over it quick enough.

Dropped hubby and Camille off at the airport today, Francis was most upset that he could not stay with them. Because they were going to the states they were not allowed to sit around and wait for the plane with us, they had to go straight though to check out... They arrived safe, and I was told it was early to bed for them... I am assuming Camille will have them up early ready and eager to go.. I almost wonder if I should give the hubby a wake up call due to the fact that he has issues with early mornings....

Tomorrow I am going to rest it up, then next week busy busy busy finding things for us to do while daddy is away. Francis spent part of the evening asking me where dad and Camille were, I explained they were on a plane and he was happy with that.. At least for a little bit, I had to keep repeating it.. LOL

Anyway that is my news for now..

Night xxxx

Husbands up stairs ready to take a shower...

Dog is in his cage because he is annoying the crap out of the kids.

The kids are watching cartoons...

The kids this morning woke up at 5.30am.. Why??? Francis I have no idea as to why he woke up that early. But Camille well she is off with Hubby to Disneyland today. So I know her excuse...

For some reason I was wide awake at 5.30am this morning.. But I am starting to crash now and it is only 20 to 9am.  I think I am a little low on the iron, so I best be eating a few steaks this week...  Need to ask the doctor about that.

Still bleeding a little, still not to worried although it would be nice to stop, it is even making me reconsider mowing the lawn.  It has stopped this morning but it is an on and off again thing... I think I will wait until my next doc appointment before I start doing anything as exciting as mowing lawns...

Day care is closed for two weeks, so I have to look after my own child. I mean what is up with that. :) Actually I am really looking forward to doing a few things with him this week, a little friend of Francis and the friends mother are going to come over and we might go and find some interesting activities to do. We want to go to Park Safari, but Hubby says I am not allowed to take my car through the animals. Which is understandable, but I am not going to tell the other kids mum that we can't go because of my car. She just got a second hand car herself so maybe she'll be excited and want to drive.  Reasons for not taking my car is because we have to go through the animals and they come up to the window and such and Hubby is afraid I might get some animal damage. Bummer.  I don't want to put the other ladies car through that either so I have managed to find another place full of animals we can walk around.. I don't really like the Gramby Zoo here,  I think I have been spoiled by seeing how fantastic the enclosures are at the Melbourne Zoo. 

It will be interesting to see how things go this week with just Francis and I at the house, actually I am kind of excited about it because well, when Francis goes to sleep I have things that I want to get done, not only that they won't become undone because of to many people in the house, for example, all washing will make its way into the wash basket, and not on the floor.  And the dishes will be in the dishwasher and not beside the sink. Simple things, but it will be nice to have a clean house for a week.. LOL

Anyway thats my news for now.

So excited, I just got an e-mail from a friend of mine whom I have not seen since 2003.  She is going to come and see me in April next year...   She is booking her tickets this week...  So excited...

I have an Aunt who will be here this November, and of course renovations, and baby and other family members coming to visit when baby is born.... WOW this is going to be fun... :)

I have to get the basement sorted out this week so that when hubby comes back from Disney we can start moving stuff to start the renovations for our new bedroom....

Hubby and Cam  leave tomorrow for Disney. On Wednesday next week the dog is going away for the night so Francis and I can go stay at my in-laws lake house.. It would be nice if I could send Francis away too.. LOL  I do love it at the Lake house, I just have to watch Francis very very carefully....  As it is a down hill run to the lake.. And there are many things of interest for him his eyes to catch a look at and go running for, so I will while enjoying the lake be busy watching him.. But it will be nice doing it some where then here....

Anyway way I guess I better go do stuff.. xxxxx

While sitting on the loo this morning, I was thinking back to my pregnancy with Francis...

Other then one month of sore boobs, and one small and did not last long faint feeling, I had no complaints what so ever...

But this one leads me to believe I am having a girl because the baby is giving me what ever it feels is necessary to let me know she is there...  Ok we won't find out until September exactly what what sex bubs is but the way it is going I think girl...

I say to much information because as thinking this I was on the loo with bloody pains that well the kind that want to make you faint.. I hear that a lot of people suffer from constipation while pregnant, not me...  Once or twice a day, the pains come I want to kill someone then have to run to the loo quick as possible and hope the kid and dog don't follow for a conversation which is usually the case....  I can't remember the last time I had a regular bowl movement...  See I told you to much information....  You are allowed to laugh if you feel it necessary, I laugh myself thinking I can't believe I am sharing this information with anyone who wants to read it.. But hey we are all mothers here, or about to be mothers and so on, and a few dads, who could probably appreciate the fact that at one time or another during pregnancy they  feared for their life from their pregnant wives...  :)

And now that I am three months along I thought morning sickness was supposed to be stop, who said that anyway???? I don't know if it really is morning sickness or me just  giving myself a reason to eat Vegemite on toast at all hours of the night.   But it helps.. THANK YOU JANICE AND STEVE. One jar down and three to go.. I am trying not to over do it as my next supply won't be until someone comes to visit me... OH I just remembered I have an aunt who is coming in November... Oh I hope she brings me some.. :)

All of this I am sure is coming to me because for some reason I was a little upset I missed all the pregnant feelings with Francis.. I found out I was five months pregnant and then the whole thing seemed to be over in a flash...  Not this time... :) I have always heard that you should be careful what you wish for. While I have not actually been over ill, I hate the feelings it gives me. And for some reason now I actually cry in sad parts of movies...  I don't like movies that make me cry and normally that does not happen.. OH Well knock it up to hormones... :)

Francis is taking a nap, I hope he wakes up at 2.30pm because we have to go and visit Murray's friend at the dog park... :)  Speaking of the dog, he is still more then happy to get into the car, although he seems to be a little more careful when looking out the window... :)

Bye for now xxxx

How I miss the rain on a tin roof... :)

But all I have to do is sit in the basement and listen to it through my sons monitor... :) Sounds almost the same.. LOL

of my moving car...

I have electrical windows..  The dog likes to put his head out the window... I have a lock to lock the back windows, but not the front.. Dog puts foot on button window goes down, I turn corner and out goes the dog... OH MY GOD.. I am soooooo lucky he is not hurt, and no one was behind me at the time... 

I was shown how to tie the dog in the car so he does not go jumping all over me while driving.. But in doing this the leash was long enough for him to be dragged a little.  Not long I stopped almost immediately.  I would have stopped sooner but I would have been in the middle of the intersection,  as it was where I stopped was not the safest at all, but hell my dog just fell out the window, and I'd have liked to see anyone try and stop me from stopping... Because he was tied, I believe he will have a bit of a sore neck tomorrow... But he seemed a unharmed, just a little shaken, to the point of peeing in my car... Yes he got back in and peed on the leather seats, but for those of you who know what i drive, I really did not care at all...  I took off my jumper and put it on the seat, had to mop it up, and sure I hope it does not smell tomorrow, but my dog is alive and that is what matters most. I can't believe he fell out the bloody window...  

Some may laugh, and I guess in a way it was a little funny looking over to see the dogs ass slip, and yet at the same time realizing what was happening, I felt so bad, but was very happy that I was not going over 20km.. As I had just stopped at a stop sign and was turning I was not going fast at all...  I got out of the car to find my dog shaken and sitting calmly beside the car, had I have been going any faster it would have taken longer to stop and he would have been dragged, his butt did not touch the ground exactly and the poor dog had a choker chain on...

But to end this story, he is alive, and looks fine, i will just keep an eye on him to make sure nothing develops... But hey he swallowed a zipper and is still kicking so I think he'll be just fine, but i think he should ride in the back now where I have control over the windows...

I should have seen this as a sign the other day when he put his foot on the button and he got his head caught...  Lucky I have buttons for his window on my side...  Wish I had of seen it before he fell out.. xxxx

Well they are writing it off as a thing that happens...   I am told if i was further along they would have been more worried, but after a blood test, and ultrasound, and a most annoying wait at the hospital (which by the way was made better when I started to look panicky and upset that I was not going to be able to pick my son up from day care on time), I got the results all is well....

The doc said, and I quote "You can work as much as you want."  Not bad for someone unemployed... LOL

I asked "Does this mean I can continue to mow the lawn???"  He looked at me, looked at my husband laughed and said "YES"....  LOL

Bubs is looking well like a baby... IT is amazing that this little baby in my belly is soooo tiny, yet to see so developed..   And I must say it really looked like bubs was bouncing off the walls.. Moving as if I was playing disco music. In fact if I was to describe the movement I'd say it was like watching an old arcade game ping pong, you know the little ball that hits the sticks on either side of the screen.. Baby was the ball....

Thank you to all that left messages, it was wonderful to see you all thinking of me...

All is well here, still bleeding a little, but I am told that is ok...  FOR NOW.. :)

Happy maman here... xxxxx

Monday night, I went to the loo. And next thing I know I am loosing blood. I did not strangely panic, I just said "oh F##k."

Hubby says whats up, as he was talking to Francis in his room. I said "I think I am loosing the baby." He came into the bathroom got what I asked for, then I took myself off to the hospital at 11.30pm. Hubby was going to come with me but I told him to stay home with Francis. We could have got my sister in-law who lives next door, but for some reason I said I'd be ok... And I was, just for some reason I wanted him with me and I did not at the same time. In a way it was good because I could cry with out having him watch me, as he gets really upset when he sees me cry.

I went in at 11.30pm and the first sign of me seeing a doctor was at 8am. It was strange, I arrived there crying my eyes out saw the triage lady who did a check up told me she put me on high priority, but there were many before me and only one doctor... I know the story I have been to triage before. I knew it was going to take a long time. I did not how ever think I would not be home in time to take my son to day care.

I had no pain, nothing, just the bleeding.. By the time I got to the hospital the bleeding had slowed a lot. I cried a ton, then by 5am I felt like I was over it, come on just let me see a doc so I can go home. Then I started up crying again.. Not sure if it was due to the fact that I may have lost my baby or I could not believe I still had not seen a doctor.

8am rolls around, I see the doc, blood tests ordered, and he did a little exam asked if I had any pain when he touched here or there. Answer was no.. He checked and he said my cervix was still closed which was an excellent sign.

Anyway cut a long story short, I still have bubs, will have an ultrasound tomorrow and another blood test to be sure to be sure. I am to have lots of rest for the next couple of days. I am still bleeding but very slightly, not enough to go running to the hospital about.

I must say though, now that I have been told that I am to do nothing for two days, all I want to do is clean... You know if I was told that I am not allowed to clean my house every day I think my house would be spotless... I wish this kind of thing worked on the kids... No don't I repeat don't clean your room... And off they go to clean their room.. Oh how lovely that would be... I want to do stuff now because I have been told I can't for a couple of days..

Ho hum...

Anyway that was my yesterday.. I will feel better after the ultrasound but am just drained. I got out of the hospital 12 hours after I went in... At least we don't have to pay for the doc...

PS: Just wanted to say thanks to Yummymummyof3, Marg and Janice, for their messages and phone calls..  Felt great to know you guys were there thinking of me..   Janice we have to get that skype up and running, or just send me you  phone number.. :) Much love and thanks to you all xxxx

Many of you have heard me complain about my weeds...  Well yesterday i think was the last straw...

As I was looking out into the back yard, I said " I am sick of looking at the crap in the back yard, I am going to close the blinds and bloody forget about it. I am sick of asking your bloody sister for her bloody Lawn mower.... "

Two hours later I had myself a brand new lawn mower...

I took Francis to day care this morning, got out the instruction manual and put it together, gassed it, oiled it and off I went... WOW this thing is pregnant lady safe....   All I did was walk with it and it was a dream.. No hard pushing...   Don't get me wrong flowers would have been nice, but I love my  new mower...

I said to my hubby.. "Thank you for my new mower!" He said "It ain't yours." I said then go mow the lawn. He said "if you want anything you can have the washer and the dryer...". I said I thought they were already mine..   We both know I mow the lawn more then he does, and I don't believe he has even touched the washer and dryer... Oh maybe that one time in 2003 when I went to Australia for a month on my own...  LOL

Anyway back yard is mowed.. Front yard is mowed and now I want to garden. But oh my it is 30+ degrees outside so I think I might just nip over for a swim in the sister in-laws pool... 

Does anyone have a pick axe??? I need to plant a tree in the back yard, and it is like rock....

Bye for now...

No where to send a thank you, so I'll say it here. Thank you for the Muggies...

I have to ask.. Does anyone actually wear their ugg boots outside the house????  In public???

My husband has a pair of Moccies... In fact we both do as my mother keeps us in warm feet during the winter, We have been through a pair each so far...  Hubby loves them so warm... At first he thought they looked funny... But he soon warmed to my Aussie ways...

It is pissing down with rain here, a lovely day to sit with a cup of hot soup and think of all the things one should be doing.. Francis is at day care today. I toyed with the Idea of keeping him home to play with me, but I figured he could go because he saw that Nat's(the lady who owns the day care) mother car was out the front of her house and got all excited and would not shush until I told him that he can go and see Maggie..    But I am sure he will want to stay home tomorrow when he comes home to see his sister is here.   I will see how he is tomorrow because I might just take the time out to have a day with just Camille and I. I don't know maybe we'll head to the 2$ shop and do some arts and crafts while she is still young enough to think it is cool to do that stuff with me...  She is slowly slipping away from us in that respect. I don't think it will be to much longer before she rings us up and says she wants to stay at her friends house for the weekend instead of ours...

She starts high school in September, which is a scary thing for me..  I have not really voiced how I feel about the whole thing, being that I am the step mum, but I let a few things slip to the hubby every now and then...  You see not only is she going to high school, but she is moving from the country to the big smoke...   Which is a little scary for me as she will be taking Public transport on her own, blah blah blah all that stuff...  And well I am afraid that her mum will think it is ok to leave her at home by herself now that she is 12...   Ok I am sure there are some mothers out there who do that already and that is fine, just that well I know Cam and I am just not ready for that yet...  She has been here with Francis once while we went out for dinner, but she and I both knew that my sister in-law was right next door and I did ask the SIL to ring to see if she was doing ok...

Maybe I am just being one of those mothers that is a little over protective... But as a step mum I don't have much power in the say of it all.  But I did tell her mum that anytime she needs any help or someone to look after Cam not to hesitate in calling me I'd be more then happy to come and get her or sit with her... I also slipped in it would be great for Francis to see her...  As Francis misses her very very much...  Thankfully her mum and I get along well enough for her to know that when I said that I was not trying to step on her toes... It was a bit rocky when I first came onto the scene but we seem to have worked out the kinks...  There are a few humps every now and then but they work out pretty quick.

Hubby's  motor bike went off for Plastic surgery yesterday. Should be back in two weeks.. A lot of people ask me if I am worried when hubby goes out on the bike.  And you know no I am not... I guess it has something to do with the fact that my father has always had a motor bike of some kind, (He is a traffic cop). And has numerous amounts of accidents, both bike and car.  But he also travels at the speed of light when needed.   But  hey if you can walk away from an accident it is a good one.. Or so he says.  But my dad when he first went out riding with my hubby he said to me "If Pat ever has an accident it would not be his fault."  So I am confident in that.   And as I keep telling every one else, they could have an accident in their car just the same... And I don't care if people tell me a car is safer then a bike, because a truck can do the same to a car and person a car can do to a bike...  Not only that, the motor bike is the best stress relief for my husband. And I could not live with out it when he has a rough day at work.. Trust me winter is hell when he can't ride it.. LOL

Thats all for now.. xxxx

Just in case I can't make it down to blog tonight I have just come down for a minute as I have to go and pick up Francis and then take Murray to visit his friends at the dog park...

Well the doctors visit went well... I am 10 weeks pregnant as I suspected... And only one heart beat as I suspected.. SO THERE YOU GO YUMMYMUMMYOF3 , The twins ain't mine... :)

Ok I must say we only heard one heart beat as faint as it was but gee it was great... I am now officially excited... Hearing a heart beat made it all the more real... Rang hubby told him only one heart beat.. He tried to be there but the doctor was late so he had to go. He was upset about that, but what can you do.. He'll be there for the next listening..

On a sad note, I still have another 9 weeks before my ultrasound..> GRRRRR but at least then I'll be able to find out the sex too...

We had two choices, if it was one heartbeat we were going to renovate, two heartbeats sell the house... But it is only one heart beat... So we just renovate. It will still be a bit squashy but I am going to get this place sorted out how it should be and try and kick myself into perfect house wife mode if there is such a thing....

Yes I am totally more excited then I was this morning or have been for the past two months... Weird, but like I said the heart beat confirmed it all for me and made it all the more real... Yippeeeeeeeee....

Um nothing more to report.. Oh house is a mess, blah blah blah, still have cold but who cares, I am pregnant...

Oh yeah and the due date is 30th of January, which I must say a little disappointed about..  Ok I know that sounds strange... LOL But I was kind of hoping for a little later then that... :)  There are so many birthdays in the month of January that every one is broke...   I think between my family and the hubby, January will be all booked up.... :)

I can't believe I forgot to blog about this...

The other day I took Francis for his second haircut.. As traumatic as it was for Francis I believe the hairdresser had a harder time of it...

While Francis was screaming and I trying to hold his head straight, a kid came to the door with his mum, I think the kid was a little younger then Francis... I had to apologize to the mother because the kid refused to come inside I believe due to Francis...   But that ain't the worst of it..

Francis kicked the hairdresser in the ummmmmmmm nether regions... I paid 20$ for a 10$ hair cut, that was not exactly straight.. LOL   My sister in-law straightened it up a bit...

I won't be taking him back there again.. I felt so bad for the guy.... 

Today I wished we liked instant coffee.. Why because there was no power to crush the coffee beans or run the coffee pot...   Now if I had instant coffee I would have been able to use it.

But thankfully I had teabags... Yep I got the BBQ turned on and boiled my billy.. Mum sent me one a while back when I used to go camping....  So I was able to boil the water for my tea...  But I would have preferred coffee.  Oh well beggers can't be choosers.

I am happy though because the instant Francis asked for toast the power came back on.. Yippeeee...  We have had a few power shortages this week due to storms...  That is one reason why I have not been on.

The other reason is that my son so kindly shared his cold with me and every night around dinner time, my nose starts to block, and I start hacking up a lung or two...  And can't be bothered to do anything.. So I cook dinner and wait until it is time for Francis to go to bed then I slip off to bed myself...  Ahhh I hate being ill..
On the bright side, morning sickness or what ever you call it has not been to bad...  Just I am so god dam hungry it is stupid... I eat, then I have to eat some more and if I don't eat I feel really really really ill.   But the weird thing of it is that I seem to be loosing weight.. Now I don't really want to be doing that.. But my pants are starting to fall off me.. I am going to the doctors tomorrow for my first appointment so i will let you all know how it goes...

Chat then.. If I am not on tonight (to those who are missing me on MSN), I'll be in bed with either a good book or sleeping trying to relax.. I figured I'd better come down today  at least once to let you all know I am still alive.. Just trying to stay that way... :)

Talk soon xxxxx