what a week, Rylan has decided that he wants to attatch himself to my leg, it has been almost immpossible to get anything done!  Trying to do the house work and he wants to help (hope he still does when he's a teenager ) lol. the only time to do anything is when he's asleep and by then i could not be stuffed, But it has to be done and i'm absolutely knackered.

we've had his Nanny over a couple of times which is just Joy, she always has to quitely put me down, i really dont think she means to, but then again. i really dont think she wants me to be her grandsons mummy, rylan is very much like his daddy and everytime we see nanny she has to remind me of this, i jokingly say he has by temper and she's like no he does'nt he has mine, or she say's he very fair in which i say yeah he get's that from me i was just as fair as a kid and she's like well no i was blonde when i was a child he gets that from me(she has dark red hair so i don't think so)
i so want to like her but she really make's me not sometimes.
 dean and i have been together for 4 years and she's been in qld this whole time so we did'nt really have that much to do with her unless she was down or we were visiting but she always found away to put me down.but now we see her a little to often are all mother-in-laws like this or is it just me?

Dean and i also found some time to have alone this week which we hav'nt had in along time, we went down to a little town in nsw called pottsville, spent the day at the beach it was really nice to have some time together and also with out the worry of having rylan.absolute bliss but i felt as though i had lost something all day lol.

i'm still missing my mum, dad and friends but it is getting easier and we are talking on the ph almost every other day, and i only have 16 days to go until rylan and i are going for a 6 day visit( woo hoo)
but lucky i have deans siter to come back to she will be here for 2 weeks with her 2 kids Loki who is almost 3 and jack who is 4 months so i can't wait to see the boys but it is going to be a pretty hectic fortnight.

anyways thats it for me today, i've had a bit of a rant so feel a little better being able to get it off my chest
until next time jess x

now i'm fustrated!!

i just spent like 1/2 an hr writing my 2nd ever blog. i did not put a subject in which then asked me to add this but in stead i DELETED IT.(so annoying)
so now i'm tired and going to go to bed with out adding my blog.
i will try again tomorrow
untill then jess

Hi to all you fellow mintians, this is my 1st ever blog!!

The same question keeps playing over in my head HAVE I OR HAVE"NT I made the right decision!
3 months ago Dean and i made the decision to move from Sydney to the sunny gold coast, we are living in his mothers house, that bit is OK she is here  only once or twice a week. We don't pay rent and the whole idea is to get some debts paid of and buy a house of our own.
We have been here for almost 4 weeks now Dean has been working for a week on thursday, it was ok before this but i just feel so lonely dont get me wrong Rylan definatley keeps me busy and he is just the most beautiful thing i the world.
But i left all my family and friends behind, i dont know anyone apart from deans family. and to be honest i'm BORED i get maybe 1hr a day with dean to myself- thats after rylans gone to bed and he's just to tired and soon follows, if it was'nt for the computer i dont think i'd have any outside correspondence what so ever.
 
I've never been close to my mum,i moved out of home at 16 and  we did not speak for almost 2 years- i know this is another story but the 1 person i miss most is my MUM!

So have i or have'nt i made the right decision????????

Anyways i feel a little better for getting a little of my probbys out
until next time Jess