well a little heads up on whats been happening here, rhyleagh is completely toilet trained and has been for a couple of months now, 4 days before xmas i kicked hubby out of the house, i'd had enough of the crap, he is back now i thank god everyday i took my stand because he is a better man for it yay, i was disowned by my aunty she is so money hungry i swear, my other aunty had her son on the 15th of november, he is so cute, we almost bought a house but stranger things have happened and it just wasn't meant to be i guess, i'm going to be a god mother woo hoo, tennessee started to pull herself up on furniture two days ago and hasnt stopped since lol, she has two teeth now, one down the bottom and one of her eye teeth ouch, those idiots down the road from us that were tormenting everyone moved out and my neighbours son is now buying the house THANK GOD!!!!

there is probably more but i cant think this late at night lol

i just wanted to let you all know i'm so very sorry for not coming on here unless i'm complaining about something.

i just don't want you all to think i've done a runner lol. i have surgery on tuesday for a not so nice thing but i just can't bring myself to say it lol, but i'm also having this procedure done which i have no clue to what it is and the dr's haven't told me they just sent me a letter saying be here at this time to have this done....well ok???

i've written about it in Q & A because i'm hoping someone can shed some light on what it is i'm supposed to have done, it's called flexi-sigmoidoscopy o if any of you know what it is i'd love to know too lol

i'm a little scared but hey i have had 4 drug free natural deliveries so it can't be as bad as those, can it???

i got to see my cousin being born yay go me, it was this past sunday and he is so cute and big too for a first time mum she did really well he weighed in at 8lbs 7oz he was 54cm long and he has the biggest lips he is so cute and she wants to make me his godmother i'm so stoked even though i feel so crook right now i still have some happyness apart from my hubby and kids ofcourse lol

he was delivered in just under 6 hrs and she did it all natural with a minute apart contractions from the get go ...no kidding i was there for everything i taped it for her so she has something to look back on apart from memories and she was so happy when he was born she is truly a natural

she was so relieved to get it over with she was 6 days overdue and he had been engaged in her pelvis for 3 weeks with no room to move his shoulders were even engaged as the midwife said on several occasions i'm just so proud of her and i'm so honoured to be apart of his birth, his life and to be his future godmother too

well come on guys i had all girls lol

well when i last went to hospital they said it was gastro but i really didn't believe it, and it turns out i was right!

i have seen dr's and they have all said it could possibly be my pancrease or an obstruction of the bowel, my stomach is so bloated i've gone up three sizes in clothes and i'm in constant pain with it, to be honest it feels like contractions but believe me there is no baby!

i have so much wind it's unbelievable and when i burp it gives me reflux and the smell is repulsive, it sounds funny yes but believe me it's not, i'm really worried it could be something bad and i have a scan booked for 4:15pm tomorrow and i have to fast for 6 hours that includes fluids, it's an upper abdomanal scan and the dr wants to send me for another scan in the lower region of my abdoman another time as because i have to fast with food and water if i was to have a lower scan i would have to drink and i'm not aloud

it's quite scary, my stomach is huge i look like i'm 6 mths pergnant no joke!!!!!!

i can sleep for 16 hrs a day and then go back down again for a day sleep for another 4-5 hrs this isn't normal for me to be sleeping this much i'm really scared something is really wrong and as there is family hystory of my nan and mum having bowel preoblems it's even more worrying, my nan had an obstruction of the bowel a year before she died and it put her in a coma and she almost died, then my mum was born with a twisted bowel and she has had problems ever since too, oh and there is also my aunt she was very close to getting bowel cancer if they didn't catch the problems when they did she wouldn't be here now so you can understand my worry right?

it's driving me crazy i just need to know i can talk to someone

nick xx