My littlest is not very well.  I should be at work but I called in "sick" yesterday so I could look after Imogen.  Not really sure exactly whats wrong, her symptoms don't point to anything specific.  So I took her to the GP yesterday and got the usual "its a virus, let it run its course".  which I was expecting anyway, but I like to make sure there is nothing going on that needs to be treated (bacterial) and I like to have those things assesed that I dont have the equipment at home for doing so ie- ears checked.  If only I had an auriscope and an oximeter, I would never have to go the doctor again, LOL.  She has a fever, a little bit of vomiting, a little bit of diarhoea, a little bit of a cough, very sleepy, irritable, and her breath smells sick.....so, nothing specific that i can pinpoint a diagnosis.

Today she is just feeding, cuddling and sleeping, on her 2nd nap for the morning currently and its only 10am.

So, YAY, a bit extra minti time.......and BOOO, a bit more housework time.  On the positive, the sun's out after days of rain so I can catch up on some washing.  What an exciting life i lead!

I think I have reached a point in the separation of acceptance.  He is no longer my problem any more.  Tonight he was on the x box as usual, and there was a sink full of dishes, and one of the kids was refusing to go to bed- while i was working on the getting child to bed thing, i reminded him that there was still dishes to be done.  He said "i'll do them tomorrow".  but since i will be at work tomorrow, i know there will be other stuff for him to do (not to mention he still has to sort out what he needs for moving out).  So i ended up doing the dishes.  normally, i would be feeling very passive agressive about this kind of situation. 

but not any more.  i felt calm, and at peace with the world.  Soon I would not have him lying around my house, disrespecting my hard work, sabotaging the kids discipline and routine.  The more I think about my decision, the more i realise i have made the right decision.  The more i talk to friends about my decision, the more i realise that i was treated like crap.  As hard as it was to make at the time.....i am feeling really positive now.  a weight has been lifted.....and i am seeing for the first time through non-clouded vision the extent of his problems, and accepting that I cannot fix them.

I am looking forward to the future.  I do not feel sorry for myself in the slightest.  I was smiling to myself whilst folding the washing just thinking about it.  You know what- i think my frown lines might actually disappear soon, LOL.

I deserve better.  who knows how long I will have to wait- but I am in no hurry.  For now, I will be acclimatising to single mum of 3, and being happy about it.

Bring on the rest of my life............I am ready for it!

Its all over the media- Swine flu has hit our shores.  Schools and colleges are closing down.  WHY? because the public has seen the story on the media and has to see a massive protective response from the appropriate authorities to feel safe.

Well now its hit my workplace as well- i turned up to work this morning to find my usual entrance locked up- i thought either the hospital security guard had forgotton to unlock the gates, or they were at a security incident, or the hospital was in lockdown.  option no.3.  I had to go through a quarantine area just to get to work.

The hospital management staff were there (on a weekend!!) and anyone with the sniffles was quarantined with masks on.

RIDICULOUS response to media propoganda.  The swine flu is the same as any other flu, but we don't close down schools and quaratine hospital emergency departments for that.  I understand that it is a new virus to the country and they are trying to inhibit its spread- but it all seems a bit over the top to me.  So far there are 3 cases in our entire state.

i'll have to remember to use the other entrance tomorrow morning.