Okay so now much better. Went swimming after nearly not going as Danny was in the worst mood ever and had 3 time outs in a row!! Once we got in the car he was in a good mood though.

All went smoothly and we had a whale of a time swimming, going down slides and jumping in the waves. he even managed the jacuzzi today!! Normally the jets put him off too much! He has his arm bands only 1/2 inflated and manages well but I don't know how to move him on to the next step of no armbands. He is confident in the water and now enjoys the freedom of not clinging to me (and so do I !!!). I need to do some research to find out what to do next.

He fell asleep in the car and is nicely passed out in his bed with no arguments today for a change!! I'm off to get some food. Swimming always makes me hungry x

Just a quick entry. Sorry need somewhere to vent as I am massively grumpy, for no obvious reason this morning. I need to regain my patience as I'm due to take Danny swimming in a mo and I don't want to lose my rag with him!! Breathe Katie!! 

Ok. I'll go and get ready and calm down. Lets go and have some fun!!!

xx

Well after such a lovely day yesterday today has been nothing but dismal rain. Don't get me wrong I know it is important for the garden, but really all day?!

Yesterday we sat in the garden for lunch with our neighbour and Danny's girlfriend. It was hot and sunny and the kids were jumping in and out of the paddling pool having a great time. Totally relaxing and fun.

Today has been ok, but I miss the sunshine (i get cold so easily!!). We went to the hairdressers on the train, which Danny loved! He gets so excited and looks for all the things he can out of the window.

We tried to go to the park, but it began to rain too heavily so we just headed for our appointment.

On the way back Danny fell asleep in Imi's arms all the way to the station and through the train ride aww!!

The rain did not bother him a bit at this point!! The rest of the afternoon has passed lazily and now I have spent nearly 1 & 1/2 hours up here on Mini instead of downstairs, but hey I wouldn't if it wasn't good stuff right?

Well after my whiney blog yesterday I am very happy to report that I am much happier today!

I forced Imi to give me a lie-in and I feel so much better for it I can't tell you!! (but unfortunately for you I'm gonna try!)

I can smile, I am motivated and even though its grey and raining I feel like its sunny!! Don't get me wrong I could still go back to sleep at any given moment, but at least I don't feel like shutting myself away in a box and crying all day!!

Got loads of work to do, so I'll catch you later. Have a good one!! xx

Well long time no blog!! Not for want of trying, just for want of time and space!!

Very busy w/e with my brother and a friend up. I got no sleep with late nights and early mornings so massively self inflicted!! Danny was very very happy to have another w/e with his favourite aunt & uncle!! They played well and he ca now engage my brother in deep conversations and games, even though Paul still doesn't always understand what he says!!

Imi did next to no caring for Danny over the w/e and that seems to have continued this week too! I have given him 2 lie-ins and looked after Danny day and night for the last 4 days. I know that this is nothing for some Mums. I am lucky to have a hubby who shares care. But that's just it there is no sharing!! 

I deal with nights and get up stupidly early for breakfast whilst he sleeps and sleeps. To say that I am a touch resentful tonight is an understatement!! He hasn't bathed Danny, fed Danny or put him to bed in days!!

Exhaustion is just taking its toll. Sorry to be so whiney!! Hopefully more cheery tomorrow xx

 Well that was a rubbish night's sleep. Between Imi coughing & snoring, Danny waking and me being completely unable to sleep I think I got a maximum of 3 hours broken sleep last night. I've decided I must be an insomniac. Last night I couldn't keep my eyes open, but every time I dropped off my legs would twitch. Its happened for the last few nights in a row and its driving me mad! I had it when I was pregnant and since then occasionally. my family call it the "fidgets", but I think the technical term is restless leg syndrome. However it effects my arms sometimes too.

I've tried relaxation, a bath before bed, early nights. Nothing seems to help at the mo. That means that even if Danny has a rare good night I still don't sleep. Speaking of Danny and sleeping... how do I sort him out? He will go to sleep with a minor battle, but then wakes at least once or twice a night for his cover, or mostly when he has a wee in his nappy, which makes him very upset!! I am losing the will to get up in the morning, which is very unlike me as I am normally one of those annoying morning people!!

Oh well. I just keep telling myself it is a phase he'll grow out of. I need to rouse myself and go and do some cleaning. My brother and our friend Clair are coming this w/e and the house is a pigsty. Catch you later. Have a good day xx

 Well Imi and I had a fab time yesterday ditching work. We saw a fab film and got to be grown ups without a child for the first time in months. Despite that I saw some gorgeous babies and we spent time discussing trying for another. I have suddenly become excessively broody. We've decided to wait a couple of months to see if I can get a bit fitter and lose some weight as well as see if Danny will finally learn to sleep through the night!!!

When we went to pick Danny up we were told that he had had an accident when he woke up after lunch. Fine I said. It happens right? They then went on to say that there were no clothes for him so they had to put him in dressing up clothes and a nappy and he was extremely upset for a while. I always send him with a bag full of clothes cos I know he has occasional accidents. no bag was to be found! However when Imi went round the corner it had been put on another hook. 

Now I am irrational I admit and I was very angry cos Danny had been upset for no real reason. Some other parent had taken it upon themselves to assume that the bag was their son's and moved it!! I'm not sure I who I am cross at. i'm just cross I guess. 

Anyway, that was yesterday and I am much calmer now - honest!!! Today has been very quite, which is a good job as Danny kicked of so severely last nite at bedtime and the woke up every hour till midnight. A nice early morning 6am call helps things along!!

Gotta go need to take Danny of Imi's hands so he can cook tea! (how lucky am I?) xx

 Well its been ages (5 days!!) since I was last able to visit minti!! Aggh, I've had no access to my computer. We went away to see family in the south of England. It was fab, but routine went completely out of the window! Danny now won't sleep before 9 pm. I feel a week of early nights coming on for him to put him back into routine.

Got to see my Grandma and had a good day out in the sunshine on Sunday. Had a good time with my bro too. Danny adores his uncle and I know its reciprocated ten times over!! 

Today should be good. Danny is in nursery and Imi & I are going on a date to Manchester. We never get to go out together alone, so we are ditching work and having a date. Can't wait. In fact I'd best get ready, or else we'll miss the train xx

 Well its been a work day for me today. Not that I am terribly motivated even though I am the only one bringing money in. Its not that I don't like my job. i get to work with children, which I love. I get to help families - another bonus. I just don't want to be working at all I think. I went back to work 6 weeks after having Danny, which I still resent (Going back to work I mean!!). It took a long time for Danny and I to bond properly and I blame working for that. Imi got to stay at home and he and Danny bonded exceptionally well. I know that is a good thing, but at the time I was very jealous.

I am so lucky in so many ways. Imi can look after Danny when I work and we share child care. I just never expected to be the one who was working when I had Danny. I want another child, but I'm worried the same thing will happen again. 

Sorry for moaning. On the bright side we are going down to see my brother tomorrow, near Oxford. For the first time in over a year we are going to attempt an evening journey to see if Danny will sleep on the way down and we will transfer him to my brother's house when we get there. The last we tried this was well over a year ago and the result was a crying child who threw up in the car seat. Not pretty. But he was ill!!

Fingers crossed it all goes well cos it gives us extra time down there for Imi to see his mum and family. 

 I know I don't blog every day. I sometimes wonder what to say so I say nothing. I do however visit the site at least once a day. I look at questions and advice and my freinds blogs and follow leads wherever they take me. I have learnt so much in a short time and I am so grateful for the advice and people who invest their precious time to write things to help us all. 

My hubby has decided I am an addict and threatens (jokingly I think!!) to cut me off from Minti by blocking the site. I try to tell him that I come away more humble and patient with both him and Danny, but I'm not sure he's interested. 

To sum up. Thank you all. You make me smile and take time each day x