It's Sunday and I woke up in a great mood until my mom called. She was crying her eyes out. She said she hadn't slept all night and felt awful. I tried to be encouraging but it is hard for me too. I don't want to spend the day crying thinking about what could have been and did my dad go through unnecessary procedures. I just can't hindsight everything. It makes me too sad and almost angry about some things. My dad had 2 surgeries the week he passed and none of them fixed the problem they were trying to correct. My dad had nonhodgkins lymphoma, a very aggressive cancer, which caused a heart attack in April of 07. He had multiple rounds of chemo and numerous surgeries, many of which had nothing to do with the cancer, but with other complications, such as a completely nonfunctional gall bladder. We felt like the more we did to try to make him better, the worse he would get. I know he is at peace now, but I miss him. Tuesday will be exactly one month and that will be a tough day.
I have encouraged my mom to attend a grief counselor and I hope it works for her. Maybe I need to go to.
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