Hello,

Just wanted to let you all know, I just got a call from the Constable at the MPU and it seems like they've found my Dad. She couldn’t tell me his exact whereabouts yet as they haven’t gone to the address to confirm its him, but they will be doing that in the next few days. She pretty much told me he is in WA.

She also can’t tell me where he is if he doesn’t want us to know his whereabouts. I guess I’ll have to respect that wish for now, but hopefully he will want to speak to me in the near future. The whole thing breaks my heart really, but hopefully he will agree to at least let us know himself that he’s doing ok. The constable told me to expect to hear from her within the next 3days to confirm everything. Fingers crossed. :pray:

So I'm praying that this is it and they've found him and he's ok. It will be hard if he doesn't want any further contact with us... Really hard. But I hope he does at least contact me every now and again from now on, just to let us know he's ok. Its been gutrenchingly awful just not knowing up to this point whether he's been alive or not.

Will let you all know as soon as I get the next call from the Constable.

Thanks again for all your messages of support! Hugs to you all, Ky *;-)

Hi everyone,

We could be very close to finding my Dad.

When I was away last week, mail arrived for him. It was from a superannuation company welcoming him as a member. So I instantly realised it possibly meant he’s started a new job somewhere. But it didn’t give any information on his employer or work status though.

I rang the local police yesterday and gave them the information. Then today I decided to ring the Super company myself, realising they couldn’t give me all the info, but hopefully the could at least confirm that this meant he had started a job somewhere.

So I rang and spoke to a friendly woman who confirmed she couldn’t give me all the private info, and I said I understood, I was just wanting to know that this info meant he’d started a new job. She went on and pretty much confirmed what I’d said, while I’m silently breaking down. Then she went on to apologise that she couldn’t give me the info and I just burst into tears and sobbed "That’s ok, its just good to know he’s alive". She was really sorry and apologised again and said she hoped that by giving the info to the police it would help me find him.

So I found the direct number for the constable @ the MPU (Missing Persons Unit) handling Dad’s case and gave her the info too. She said it could mean he’s working in the local area, since he’s given our address to a employer/super company. She also said his name had been spelt incorrectly by the officers taking the initial MP report and it had been spelt incorrectly at Centrelink too, and I realised it was spelt wrong on the super info too. This was why they hadn't concluded following up whether or not he'd used his bank account yet etc. So whether people have taken down his name wrong or Dad’s done it intentionally (the constable called it ‘he could be playing silly bugga’s’).. I don’t know. But I think the latter.

Obviously Dad doesn’t want us to know where he is. Why couldn’t he just ring and tell us he’s ok?! It will break my heart if the constable rings me back on Friday and tells me he’s alive and well and has a job, but doesn’t want to be found. But its a possibility. But then what if he wants to see us again and I realise I’m too hurt and angry to see him?! Why has he done this?! Does he think because I couldn’t financially help him when he needed it, that that’s a good enough reason to cut me off and think I don’t want to see him again?! I knew he was depressed when he stayed with us and he could still be deep in a hole and not thinking straight...

Well I just have to wait til the constable calls me now. Right now going through various emotions, feeling numb, upset, hurt, angry, confused. Will take it day by day until its concluded.

Will let you know how it all ends. Kylie

Hi everyone,

Yesterday was such a stressful day. Isabella was very unsettled, refused her day sleep etc. Mum took out her stress from work on me. Everything was piling on top of me, i.e. my comment in my last blog, lol. What a trajic! ;)

On the positve side, my partner is communicating a lot better to me on the phone since we've been here. As long as these positive steps continue when we're back, we might have a chance of saving our relationship. In the meantime, I'm going to use the next four days as best I can to take more time out for myself, clear my head, so I can return home with the strength and resolve I need. I want to be open to what my partner suggests to me to help improve our relationship too I guess, hopefully we can work together and make it happen.

Hugs to you all, have a good day, Ky *;-)

Hi everyone, I hope your week is going well.

Well... Isabella and I are in Qld. I'm staying with my Mum and her partner. I had to get away from my partner for a week...

Our relationship and family life is in dire need of improving. I'm sick of sitting by and having him not contributing to our relationship and us as a family. He never wants to communicate, all he wants to do is watch TV, go to bed late, sleep-in, never joins us on family outings (visiting Sandra and her family was suppose to be a family outing, Isabella and I went alone), he is never nice to me, always moody and abrupt and treats me with little respect, no affection, he's never open with me about anything, we've never had a real chat since we lost our baby through miscarriage and my Dad has been missing for 2.5mths and all he's said is "we hope for the best and prepare for the worst". Other than that he won't talk to me about it, doesn't want to listen. I have no support from him whatsoever.

He's never responsible for money, we have no savings whatsoever and we are nearly always behind on rent and bills, he's jacked up a credit card debt that was suppose to be a credit card for work...

I could go on. He has another problem which I won't delve into now. He went psycho at me on the phone when I told him he has a problem. Things have just gotten to breakin point for me, I had to get away.

So up here til SUN, and hoping its enough time to make a decision about what we can do to get things on track and hopefully save our relationship.  But he would have to drastically change his ways for this to happen.

I've just typed this all so fast, haven't proof read. Got to go, Isabella is here and promised we'd go over to the beach and park this morning. So I will bid you good-bye for now, I will keep in touch through the week.

Hugs, Ky *;-)

SAT 19.1.08 - Meet-up between Lui (llmunchkin), Sandra (hermy) and I.

Today Sandra and her family were kind enough to welcome us into their home (and a beautiful one it is), hosting a wonderful day! Upon Isabella and I arriving there, Lui sent Sandra a message saying she was only just leaving, SLACK! Haha. That’s fine, I had Sandra all to myself for a couple of hours lol. Isabella partied the house down with Ryan and Ashlei, playing "trains", watching Dora (when they had time to glance at it!) and raiding Ryan and Ashlei’s toybox. Then, just as the sun was setting (haha!), Lui, Scuba Steve and Jaydee arrived. It didn’t take Master Jaydee long to warm to everyone and involve himself in everything going on. The kids had a ball while us ladies had a lovely catch-up. Isabella lead the squealing while Brendan (Sandra’s eldest son) blew bubbles for the kids, before we all tucked into an awesome feast, which I can’t claim any credit for except the devouring part! (You two owe our place a ‘trashing’ when you visit ok). But Sandra and Lui, I’m sure you were more than happy that I left thay "hyper" bag of treats for the kids after I left, hehe. Well I could have given it to them as soon as we got there, then for how long do you think all the squealing would have lasted!? Lol. (Sandra & Lui, I hope you two can help fill in the rest of the day for me, its been a big day and my brain is fuzzed.)

Sandra and Lui, you both have gorgeous families! Nice to meet Scuba Steve, and Sandra your oldest two (plus partners) are just as lovely as your babies. :)

We have some photos to prove how awesome the day was.

Isabella, Ashlei & Ryan waiting for their "snacks!" ("Sacks" as Isabella called it.)

Isabella driving the 'train' for Ryan and Ashlei.

Brendan blowing bubbles for the youngins. They were all squealing the place down while chasing em!

Jaydee, Isabella and Ryan sawing into Scuba Steve! (As you can see by his 'missing fingers'.)

Sexy Sandra, Luscious Lui and Kinky Ky! (Lol, why not.)

Naughty Scuba Steve goes "check-your bra straps!" But as you can see, the smart one of the three of us wasn't fooled. (hehe ;)

Hope you all like the photos! (Hope there's enough here for you Emz! Hugs xo)

Kylie *;-)

Hello everyone,

I hope you all have had a great week and have a noice weekend planned!

Don't mind me, I'm just going through all my advice articles here at the moment and making sure I've replied to everyone's comments! Some were made 8mths ago, lol sorry! Better late than never. :D

Meeting up with the awesome Lui and Sandra again tomorrow, so will be back to post photos for you all!

Kylie *;-)

Hi everyone! I hope you all had an awesome Xmas and New Year! Its good to be back on Minti and catching up with you all again.

On 1st December, I met up with Lui (llmunchkin) and Sandra (hermy). It was awesome finally meeting these two lovely Minti ladies in person! I am long overdue in posting these photos from our meet-up but here they are:

My darlin Isabella and the gorgeous Ashlei (Sandra'sdaughter).

Isabella in between two spunks - Ryan (on the left, Sandra's son) and Jaydee (Lui's son).

We had such a lovely time meeting up at the park, despite the weather! Can't wait to see you guys again.

I have been going ok here. We had a lovely Xmas together, a nice quiet day at home while Isabella played on her new swings and slide set. She got thorougly spoiled and enjoyed her 3rd Xmas. She understood about Santa this year, but refused to go near him for a Santa photo! Next year she'll be ok, I keep saying, lol.

Our New Yrs was good too, we had a nice time with friends. Went out to dinner with them, then back to their place and put the kids 'to bed' (more like Isabella was awake til 1:30am!) while we had a few drinks.

My sad news is... On December 7th I reported my Dad to Missing Persons. He stayed with us in November for a week before embarking on a drive by himself across to WA. He was very depressed when he stayed with us and I said to Michael (my partner) "I have a bad feeling about him going. I don't think he's mentally stable enough to go." Its been nearly 8wks since we've heard from him.  I was trying to be optimistic that if he contacted us he would have done so over Xmas. But sadly, this was my first Xmas without him. My gut feeling says he's not ok... Its just awful not knowing where he is and if this is the case. I'm just hoping the worst hasn't happened, or he's done something to himself. He left his job in Qld due to having dust on his lungs and wanted to get away from everything. I think he still isn't over his and Mum's divorce, a combination of things were getting to him I think. Still he didn't have to just leave. I'm up and down with my emotions about it all the time. Its like I've already lost him...

I hope I've written that all clearly. Its just such an emotional thing for me right now, as I'm close to my Dad, and for him to not be in contact like this isn't right.

Otherwise Isabella, Michael and I well, and hoping 2008 is a good year for us.

We are still trying for another baby. I'm now into my fourth cycle since I miscarried. I really thought I was going to fall pregnant straight away again since I fell preg very quickly with Isabella and fell on the 2nd month of trying with Baby Angel. So not ending the year being pregnant was very hard. Hoping we are blessed with another baby very soon.

Ok before I keep going with this novel, I will sign off here. Hope 2008 is going well for all of you so far!

Huge hugs, catch up again soon, Ky *;-)