We lost our baby. It's been really hard, but as everyone keeps telling me there was something wrong with the conception so it's better to happen now than later.

I had a horrible week. On Tuesday there was a tiny bit of blood, not worth worrying about. By Wednesday it was getting heavier so off to the Dr. He sent me for an ultrasound, I was crying so much they did me straight away and I found out I had an incomplete abortion.

Then I started bleeding really bad, there was blood everywhere. Thank goodness for black pants.

I was then sent to the hospital to have a curette. I stupidly thought it would be done ASAP and I'd be home that night. I ended up being in hospital for three days waiting and starving, in the maternity ward.

I thought I had come to terms with it all until this morning I made my breakfast and then went to the cupboard to get my pregnancy suppliments, so I cried. I then went on the computer to check my email and there was a pregnancy update to tell me what my baby would be up to this week, so I cried. But the worst was an email from my cousin-in-law, who didn't know we were having another baby, asking me to join a facebook group to get rid of another group called 'Dead Babies Make Me Laugh'. Very bad timing. I can't believe anyone would create a group like that.

Anyway I've stopped crying now, so I should do something like clean up the house.