So we've found out that we're around 6 weeks pregnant! I feel so many different things. I feel so different to when I was pregnant with Tao it's strange. Am I really ready? ( I know it was planned ), why do I feel not as happy?, ( maybe because I'm not showing etc yet & I'm so tired.) I am so tired I feel guilty for not being able to give 100% to Tao at the moment as I'm quite sick all day with nausea. Now I could say that's bad but I started bleeding nearly a week ago now, it's more like a brown spotting now, not like the first day of redness. So if I feel sick I think it's a good sign. I'm pretty scared actually. I've had cramps also but I had bad cramps all through the 1st trimester with Tao as well. I remember thinking I had something wrong but it was all fine.  I've got a ultrasound on Monday to see if everything is going ok. I felt pretty sad for a few nights but now I'm trying to be positive & I know in my heart of hearts that I can't stop what is meant to be, whatever that is. Is that why I feel so unattached? Maybe. Tao was such a textbook pregnancy, this has thrown me out. This all sounds pretty negative but I'm really not being so negative I don't think. 

Anyways, Tao makes me laugh everyday, life is grand. 

Love & Light