Hi there,

Well I have done soooo much since I last posted on here. Mainly errands etc.

Today I went to Lysterfield Park and met Bel. Absolutely lovely attractive person! It is rare that someone online turns out to be as nice offline.

I went with my partner David and son Daniel. I met up with a friend and her father as well. I took some family pictures. I am hoping that Bel can arrange future picnics. I suggested the next one be at Jells Park. It has lush green grass areas. Large BBQ areas, bike tracks, large group covered eating areas plus even its own cafe. I find I enjoy the lake there and the stroll alone is definetely worth it for all those that might have to travel a fair way to get there. So a great idea Bel!  Five stars! *****

I got the job! Yep I am returning to work. I am nervous and excited and happy and sad all at once! I know I will worry about Daniel. I know it will be hardest on me being away from him. Frankly the idea causes me to hurt but I had no choice. I need an income to provide for my family.

I also know that Daniel being in day care a few days each week will in the long term be better for him in some ways. He will meet other children on those days and have an extended play time with them. He will have the same carer on these days. His carer has experience dating back till 1979 plus has raised two children of her own. She has all the required first aid skills and has a teaching background. She has sooo many age appropriate toys and educational equipment that I was pleasantly stunned! She has a lovely thoughtful manner and English is her first lanuage, non smoker with no pets in her house. All this helped ease my worry.

So I do know deep down that Daniel will have so much and gain so much from being in day care! Plus he will have friends around his age and he really does enjoy watching and playing with young children.

Yet I still hurt a bit. I know I'll worry and I'll miss him. I know it will take time for the carer to "know" Daniel and for him to "know" her.

Yet at 10 months of age, I have been reasurred that is is a great time for him to go and get some day care as it should be an easier transition than at 21/2 years old etc.

I guess I can see the special time of being mainly "alone" with Daniel as coming to an end and I grieve that. I have enjoyed the experience and I do thank God that I had the opportunity to become a Mum and had that "alone" time. That time was precious.

Until I write again,

Lady Lavenda