It is so sad when someone you thought of as a friend, Someone who said that no matter what it was they believed it could be talked out, decides that when they are told something that they do not like to hear they can turn so quickly from that so called friend into someone who lies and exagerates what was originally said. Someone who can be nasty to another person but can not handle it when told one simple truth, that addmittedly would have hurt this persons feelings.
I believe in telling my friends how I feel. How else can they know what is wrong in a friendship if they are not told. I know I don't always word things in the best way but I do know that I say what I feel.
I also defend my friends and am there for them as much as I can be. Lately I have been unable to be there for my friends as I have really needed to heal myself . The first day that I really felt strong enought to come back and be on here(more than a shadow) and on msn I am bombarded by one so called friend accusing another friend of something so petty it made me angry . Not voting on a high ranking memebers articles to me is not that important. So many lower ranking members and new members need that attention so much more to make them feel welcome here on minti and to encourage them to come back more
Before I backed away from msn and minti I was constantly bombarded with
" can you vote on this article?"
" can you vote this article out? "
" what do you think of this article?"
The articles are very good there is no denying that. To have things that you want to say pushed aside for articles is not what I would call being a friend. So many times I defended this person, So many times I was there to listen to this person but now none of that matters because I said how I feel. The one problem I had this so called friend was there for me and I really do appreciate that, This person helped me when I needed advice. I will not however sit by and listen to another friend being bitched about and not say anything.
I have always said how I feel and I always will. I have said one hurtful thing to one person and now someone that she has bitched to me about before is defending her and attacking me. I feel this so called friend has sucked alot of people in and is using alot of people. It makes me sad that some very lovely people are being used as I was.
I am hoping that one day this can all be worked out but I don't hold out much hope as obviously I have been lied to.
there that is my vent thank you for reading MWAH
Lexi xxx
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