Called Gracie's dad first thing in the morning. I had actually forgotten that he takes bad news really well (sometimes concerningly so) but he usually goes downhill after. He wasn't at all critical of me - thank goodness. I think his concern really was focused all on Gracie. He came with me to the school to talk to them.

The head of the school and her boss were very concerned and apologetic and concerned for us and Gracie. They got onto stuff immediately and are doing their own investigation to work out how it could have happened and how to make sure it never does again. I also went and spoke to the After School Care people. Spoke to the coordinator in person, and then to the head of our school's after school care program on the phone. I get along with her reasonably well and it was really good to talk to her about it. Feel like all I've done all day is deal with this.  

I bought some lunch and went home and then did my uni homework for a couple of hours. That was actually pretty therapeutic cause all I needed to do were drawings and they essentially turn off the thinking area of your brain which was what I needed. Thankfully I got through everything but one drawing, which I'll do once the kids are settled in bed tonight.  Should be right to hand in all my assessment tomorrow.  

I noticed the police leaving the school as I picked the kids up so they've made contact with the school now. 

Gracie's been absolutely fine today. Very smiley and happy. Me - on the other hand - I've been a wreck. Didn't go to work (except very briefly to let them know I wouldn't be in today. LOL!) and have just been feeling overwhelmed by it all. Got a call from these Supportlink people tonight. Apparently they're just a referral service and have told me to call some woman at the Child at Risk Health Unit. I just feel like I don't want to have to keep repeating the same story over and over! I was getting a bit narky with them cause I just don't feel like calling another person and getting another lot of tasks to do and having to go through everything one more time. I don't know what this other lady is meant to be offering, but I just feel like letting things go now. 

I was planning to go to work tomorrow, but I'm feeling a wreck again. If all I had to do were deal with numbers I could probably handle it, but I know if I go that people are going to want me to solve business problems and advise them on various things and I just don't think I can handle that. I have uni at 2:30pm anyway. That way I can call this woman in the morning. 

I kind of feeling like I'm going into an emotional shutdown right now. I want to be empathetic towards the people - especially on Minti - who are also going through hard times right now, but I just have nothing left. It's not that I don't care, I just feel like I can't express it right now. 

I've gotta to say that I have been so overwhelmed by the amount of support I've had from everyone on Minti.  Honestly, you guys are awesome.  Thank you all so much.  When I get my head together I want to thank you all individually, but until then I hope you'll all accept this in lieu.