Ooh - its been a while since I wrote my blog!  Hmmm... I better get everyone up to speed.

I saw the ENT (Ear Nose Throat) Specialist at the beginning of December.  He confirmed my GP's diagnosis that I have been suffering from viral labyrinthitis and said that it should take about 6 months to go, and so by the end of January I should be better.  But he said that I've got to take it easy, and look after myself (eat well, exercise, not too much stress).  I do seem to be improving, but I had another turn last weekend, so I'm not jumping up and down yet. 

I have my appointment with the knee surgeon the week after next.  I'm hoping very much that he will be able to find out what on earth I've done to hurt my knees so much and can fix it.  I know the physios are very concerned that there doesn't appear to be a cause for the pain, but I haven't had any scans yet so maybe they'll show something.  Fingers crossed anyway.

All the wedding plans are the biggest focus at the moment.  Had a bit of a time with one of my bridesmaids (won't go into details) and now she's gone back to just attending the wedding, and I've asked another friend to take her place.  In a weird way, I think that is going to work better because the two bridesmaids I have now both know each other quite well, whereas before, the two girls I had didn't really know each other. 

We've booked the car, ordered the rings, bought the bridesmaid dresses, flowergirl dresses and the guys suits.  I just need the flowers, the favours, the guys shirts & ties, my tiara, girls jewellery, order of services and to sort out all the details with the various people (e.g. minister, photographer, MC).  My mum has taken on board organising the afternoon tea after the ceremony and my in-laws are hosting a drinks afternoon the day after so we can catch up with our out-of-town guests.

I still feel like I have so much to do.  My friend who is playing the organ for the service is currently in the UK and I have to wait for him to get back at the end of January before I can discuss music with him, so I don't yet even know what pieces of music I'll be walking in or walking out with. Aarrrgggh!  Stressy, stressy, stressy..... 

Its occurred to me that if money were no object, weddings would be a lot less stressful.  It is so much easier to walk in and say "I like that one" and just order it.  But when you think "I like that one" and then you have to think "But I can't afford it.  What can I do instead that is something like that", it becomes a lot more stressful.  

One thing I've definitely decided is that I want to make sure I have more than enough money to pay for my kids' weddings.  I don't want them to worry about where the money's coming from, or whether they can afford things.  I just want them to be able to go ahead and have their own fairy tale day without being stressed about cost. 

I still have my make up on from my make up trial today.  I've got to say, I'm feeling really excited about the wedding right now.  I keep singing "I feel pretty" (from West Side Story)!    I'm really looking forward to the hair trial I have booked on Friday night.  I think it will seem really real when I know completely how I'm going to look on the day.  I really will feel so much better when all the details are sorted out and all I have to do is turn up on the day.