My baby boy playing with his toy...

OK, so I'm going to be all about me, me, me, me...I have not been feeling well for some time now.  Very tired and run down.  My son has me up about every hours or so at night, except last night, I got up 3 times...I am having restricted breathing, with a deep burning sensation when I take deep breaths, or laydown.  I feel like I have the flu, and my back starts to hurt.  I've had a horrible headache, makes me dizzy and wanna vomit.  I laid down the other day, and could not stand it.  I came out to be with hubby and told him I don't feel good, I started to cry.  He hugged me, but did not know I was crying.  He asked me if I was, and when I said yes, he went into full on comfort mode.  It was so nice.  My girl woke up from her nap and he told her I was not feeling well, and I was crying.  He let me hide in his arms, I don't like to let her see me cry when I'm sick.  He told our girl to rub my back with him to make me feel better.  It was really nice.  He knows that when I cry cause I don't feel good, he knows it's serious. 

This morning he called me worried cause I did not call him yet, nor answer the first call.  I told him I was being lazy cause of not feeling well, and he said that he would ask one of his SIL to watch our girl so I can rest.  He knows how important it is for me to sleep when I get like this.  Even though I complain about not feeling well, I go on doing what I need to for the day, but when I cry from it, he knows, it's time for me to do nothing....

ok, well, back to laying down...bye!

I ordered my cloth diapers today for my baby boy.  I'm so excited.  They are supposed to get here, hopefully by monday.  I can't wait.  So I'll let you know....

Well, I finally got around to doing the laundry.  After a week of trying to get it done...Though I'm only about 2/3 the way done.  The rest will have to wait, I got tired, and my girl wanted a nap...We did nothing else, though I got to see a few of my neices and SIL...which was nice. 

So cloth diaper update.  I think I have found the brand that I want to use.  Called Bum genius.  They look really nice, have great reviews, and best of all, they come in a universal size.  So they can grow with my baby....And for 12 of them it's about $200 USD, which will be about 1/8 the price of what I would spend on regular diapers....And I can use them for our next baby as well.....My mom used cloth with my brother, though 15 years ago they did not have these many choices....Glad times have changed.   I can't wait to get them, I warned hubby how much it's going to cost now, but told him how much we will save.  Plus I'm already used to washing my girls undies everyday, so this is no biggie...He's all like, if it's what you want..lol, gotta love him.  He can't stand changing our sons diaper, has not done it yet!  lol...oh well.   He came home early today and just let with our baby girl, she'll come back nice and tired I hope.  Though she did great falling alseep on her own in the her bed for nap, which was great!  Well, that's all...And I'll keep you posted about the diapers!

Well, ok, it's not that big of a move, but it took me all day....I got my hubby to agree to let me move the rooms.  I switched my girls room with our room.  I've wanted to do this for a long time, and he finally said ok...I like it better as it gives her more room to play, her own bathroom, in the room and it's quieter, and not as cold.  I took her room, which is smaller, but I lke the coziness it has as well as the fact that I can do so much more in that room with our furniture....But today I'm so tired...so I'm resting for now, and doing my Minit thing...Tomorrow I have to move her clothing and all that to finish the move...Yea!!!!

Kristen has a wonderful contest, why we love minti, called MintiLove. So this is why I love Minti:

I'm to shy to make friends easily, in person.  Here I can say hello, drop a line and I have meet so many wonderful people now.  I love being able to share thoughts, ideas and what has worked with other parents who have gone thru the same thing as me.  It's become a way to release stress, talk about my life and know that all I'm going to get is support and love.  I think I have meet some very special people here, that I other wise would never have known, and that is a true treasure for me.  I am encouraged to speak about my illness, and what I've gone thru to hopefully help others.  Minti has opened the door to the whole parenting world for me, and shown me that I am not alone.  I think the best thing Minti has done is shown me that there are still people who don't judge, who don't care how much money you have, or where you come from, who don't mind that you can't speak, or spell well, lol, they just love you for who you are! And they will stand behind you.  And I hope that I can support others the way that they support me...This is a very good addiction! lol.

I got to see the pictures of my 2 neices, who got to meet Miley Cyrus, yesterday.  I was really cool, they got to meet stars from all the Disney shows.  They had a private meeting with the start at her hotel here, and then they went to the red carpet for her movie premier.  They were the only ones on the carpet, and they got to go back stage, and my one neice got to go into her dressing room.  I wish I could put up pictures, but because of the posibility of people stealing them and selling them, I can't.  It was great, as this was from the Make a Wish Foundation that made this all possible.  I know my neice will never forget it.  And it was really cool to see the pictures of my neices with all those stars...Even Donny Osmond! lol

RANDOMLY ASKED QUESTIONS?

• 1. What do people usually call you?    Leticia, Letti, TC.
• 2. Do you have freckles?   No
• 3. Have you ever been to another country?   Yes Germany (born there), Mexico
• 4. Do you feel comfortable dancing in public?   Not anymore.
• 5. Have you ever kissed a mirror? Yes
• 6. Do you still talk to your bestfriend from when you were 14? No
• 7. Can you skateboard? Kinda, from a long time ago 
• 8. Do you own an iPod?   No, my phone does all that for me, lol
• 9. What was your favorite tv show as a kid?   Hmm, Care Bears, Punky Brewster
• 10. Do you still have feelings for an ex?   No
• 11. Would you rather bungee jump or sky dive?   Bungee Jump
• 12. Who is the hottest celebrity?  Orlando Bloom
• 13. Who was the last person to call you?  My hubby
• 14. Do you like to text message?   OMG, I do it everyday, I'd rather text then talk on the phone, lol 
• 15. What kind of music do you listen to?   Disney Radio...I can thank my girl for that!
• 16. Did the movie Titanic make you cry?   Yeah, big time 
• 17. Have you ever punched someone?   Yes
• 18. Has anyone ever punched you?   No
• 19. Have you ever been dumped?   Yes
• 20. Big dogs, small dogs, or cats?   All three, except the little yippers
• 21. How many cars have you owned? I think 5
• 22. Do you call your bestfriend everyday? Yes
• 23. What do you live in? An Appartment, though we are talking about going to my hubby's house
• 24. Have you ever gotten drunk? Yeah, those were the dumb days
• 25. Have you ever stolen anything? Yes
• 26. Who do you think about the most? My hubby
• 27. What is your most prized possesion? My babies
• 28. Do you like to watch tv? Love it!, it's on all day, lol
• 29. When is the last time you went to the movies? I can't remember
• 30. Do you wear glasses or contacts? Contacts, when I remember
• 31. What country would you most like to visit? Australia, England, Italy, Guatemala
• 32. Do you think anyone could ever really be satisfied? Yes
• 33. Are you religious? Yes, Christian 
• 34. Do you live with your parents? No
• 35. Would you like to live to be 110 years old? Yeah, I would like to see how my great, great, great grand kids looked like
• 36. Have you ever approached someone of the oppisite sex? No, to shy
• 37. Do you kiss on the first date? Not that I remember, lol
• 38. What hair color do you like most on the oppisite sex? Dark
• 39. When is the last time you took a shower or bath? Yesterday
• 40. Have you ever been to a concert? No
• 41. Do you talk to your parents?    My mom, almost every day
• 42. How many siblings do you have?    lots, 5 half and 1 step
• 43. Do you like to have your picture taken?   Yes, though I'm usually taking them
• 44. Do you have more girl friends or guy friends? Girls
• 45. Have you ever played in the rain?   Yes, those were the good days, lol
• 46. Ever seen a tornado? Yes, and a hurricane too
• 47. How many meals do you eat a day?  No meals, just snacks
• 48. Who do you most resemble in your family? My daughter
• 49. What kind of accent do you have? Southern US
• 50. How long have you known your bestfriend? 4 years

You have been tagged by  ph419always

Here are the rules for this tag.

1. Link to the person that tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5. Let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

Ok, so here it goes

1.  I'm addicted to soda!  I know it's bad, but true.  I hate coffee, so this is how I get my caffeine.

2.  I helped raise a tiger for 2 years at a local petting zoo.  It was really cool and the baby tiger was so sweet, though sharp claws, lol

3. I am my moms' best friend.  She raised me for about 6 years by herself, we did everything together.

4. I'm very shy, but very loyal to my friends and family.

5. I'm co-owner of a bakery/cafe.  I had to help set up the register system 4 days after giving birth!

6. I love to scrapbook.  If I could get paid to do it, I would make it a career...

Ok, so now I tag.... Dannii17 , Mvgrey , winja , simba1 , Monyq83 and jenaya04

I hope I did this right....

I have been tagged, though I'm a little slow when it comes to doing the links...Does not always work out for me, lol.  I'll get it up hopefully by tomorrow morning!!!!  Love ya all!

What a morning it's been!  Let me start from the begining...

At about 1:30 this morning my little girl decided to wake up and come into my room.  I told her that it was bed time and she needed to go back to bed.  She started to cry and said that she wanted to lay down with daddy.  Hubby said ok, then she kept on crying cause she needed to go potty.  So I took her and changed her, as she wet herself.  Then she cried about laying down with daddy and I told her go lay down, but go to sleep.   She kept getting up and talking to daddy, keeping him from sleeping.  I had to come out about 10 min later to tell her to go to bed, or she was going back into her bed.  I fell back to sleep. 

Well at about 5:30 I woke up with hubby leaving and he told me that she had not gone to sleep.  Yep, she was still up watching T.V.  I heard him say bye to her and left, I fell back to sleep. 

At about 7:45 I woke up again, with her coming into the room saying she was thirst, or was it she was hungry?  I forget, anyway, she had not slept mind you sine 1:30 am.  I got up, popped on here to check some things, and got ready to go to the store and do laundry.  She was doing well, got her into the car and off we went.

We got to the store and I went to get the stuff for the laundry, then we headed up stairs to pay.  I wanted to stop at the baby clothes to see what they had for her and her brother.  She was up and down in the cart and almost falling while I was pushing it.  I kept telling her to sit, but she kept standing.  Well, we go to her section, and I pull some pants and show them to her.  I asked her if she liked them and she said yeah.  I put them back and said ok, lets look at some other cloths.  Then it started, the crying and screaming!  I brought her a dress and asked, you like it?  She screamed no, I want the other one.  So for about 5 min, while I was looking at the clothing she screamed she did not want any of it.  I told her then we were leaving, and she started to scream she wanted the dress. 

I told her that we would get it next time and she was crying she did not want it.  The whole time all the check-out ladies and other customers were staring right at us.  How embarassing!!!  I was not yelling, more just trying to ignore her.  Well, as we were walking out she kept standing and saying she wanted the dress.  I told her to sit down and then BAM!  I was stopped by something.  She had climbed out of the back of the cart and fell, where I hit her foot.  I had my boy in the front, so I could not see her do that...I grabbed her, told her never to do that again and contiued out the door.  I could see the security guard looking at us...How embarassing!!  

So now we are out of the store, and this nice old lady asks do I need help.  I had my daughter by the hand, but she was not walking, so I had to pick her up and hold her like a football.  UGH!!!!  We get to the car, the whole time she is wiggling her way out of my arms.  I unlock the door and try to put her in her carseat!!!  OMG!  She was twisting and turning and being so naughty!!!  Struggling with her to get the seatbelt on, I had to shut the door and put my boy in the car as he was getting cold.  While I was doing this she was climbing all over the car and trying to get out the front passanger side.  I left it open incase she tried to lock the car.  I got him in, grabed her and put her back into her car seat...After almost sitting on her to get the belt on she proceded to take her arms out of the straps.  3 times I had to get out of the car and put her back into the straps, this before we left the parking lot!!!  She did it again, and all the way home.  I had to pull over 3 times to get out and put her back into the carseat the right way...now mind you I had it very tight, but she managed to get out!  She was screaming the whole time, I want my pepe (pacifier) I want the dress, etc...I told her that I was not going to talk to her any more while she acted like that...I was so upset, and embarassed!!

Finally we get home, my baby boy actually fell asleep thru all this, and I took him to bed.  She stayed in the car, screaming she wanted to go to grandmas!!!  UGH, I had to get her out, then she did not want to walk.  I said fine and went back to the house.  She cried that she wanted me to hold her hand up the stairs...and was still crying about getting her pepe...I told her that I would give it to her when she got into bed. 

Think it ended there? I wish, lol.  I had to put her in the bed, take off her shoes and hold her.  For like 20 min I held her full on while she continued to cry and scream she was going to be good.  Finally she fell asleep....AHHHH peace, right?  Nope, as I wrote some of this she decided to scream again!!!   I just checked on her and she is fast asleep...

On another, not so embarassing, note: Her medialert bracelet came today.  It's very nice and alot sturdier then I thought it would be....I'll post a pic of her with it soon...I hope she sleeps alot right now, I don't want another episode like that!!! Though I was laughing alot at her cause she was screaming so much!  It was just so funny at the time, though very upsetting too.....

TATA!

My girl is doing better today, though she has had a fever off and on....I wanted her to go to her aunts house, but decided not to since she had the fever...We're going to stay home for a while, then head off to do laundry.  It's soooooooooo much, but I rather her stay at home, since it's cold, with daddy and I go with baby to do it real quick....She is keeping busy with her Care Bear movies and taking everything out of her room...Time to clean out the toys!!

I love football, both soccer and american...Yesterday I started to watch one of the playoff games.  Packers vs Giants.  Packers started of strong and were looking good...Well I ended up going to my hubbys cousins house to hang out.  We ended up eating carne asada and having a great time.  I did not get to see the rest of the game.  When I came home I found out that my team lost in OT.  WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!  It's not often I do get to watch a game, and it was sad for me to see them lose...Oh well, maybe next season.  We did have a great time with the cousins.  Kathy got to play alot and was so ready for bed when we left.  She is still struggling with her coughing and last night she had a hard time sleeping at first cause of taking her medicine....Today it's laundry day, I have so much to do!  Will it ever end?  Then there is cleaning the room, kitchen and bathrooms....Oh well, maybe I'll take a break later and take the babies for a walk...

We just got back from the doctors....She is doing better, though her sats are a little low, they started at 84, then went to 91 and leveled at 96, she is wheezing, with about 20% of her lungs filled, and an ear infection....ARGH!!!  I'm just glad that I took her as the ear infection would only get worse.  They put her on an intibiotic and a steriod/anti-inflamitory for 10 days along with what she is already taking...My poor baby is going to be so zonked out.  But at least she is going to get better.  He allergies are still there, but hopefully she will have been completely clear in about 2 days...So there you go, there is the update.  Hope all of you have a great weekend...

Well, right now I'm feeling a little better.  I talked to my mom and hubby about K.  She is sleeping at the moment, I gave her the benadryl.  She is broken out all over her face, and her cheecks are red and dry looking.  She worried me so much when we got home.  She ate her lunch and part way thru eating she curled up on the couch and told me she was very cold.  I told her to go lay down and I would cover her up with the blanket.  She is never cold, that latin blood of hers.  I went to check on her and she is responsive (worried about breathing issues, and going unconsious), and still under the blanket.  Normally she will kick it off or she will be sweating under it.  But nope, she has not done either! I'm very worried because her reactions get worse and worse, and need less and less of the food to cause them. 

I'm waiting for the doc to call back, and hopefully I can take her today or tomorrow.  I want her checked out for possible pnemonia now as she is wheezing with a terrible cough for over 2 weeks....She commonly get pnemonia when she has a cold, and she is allergic to 2 of the 3 kinds of antibiotics....So it's hard to treat her for infections....

I just feel so over whelmed right now!

Well, this is not about me or my girl, but about my neice!  I'm so excited for her as she gets to meet Miley Cyrus, yep Hanna Montana herself.  In person and one on one!  She is getting picked up in a limo, taked to the studio and get to watch her tape a show!  This was not even supposed to happed until about July, but Miley herself picked my neice out of like 1000 kids to visit!  My neice is so excited, and so is her mom.  It's so nice, as it is a wish that she made to Make A Wish Foundation. 

My neice has a genetic disorder in which her body does not make enough cells to make energy.  This can cause her to be tired, get sick often, and have heart problems.  She has been in the hospital twice for a failing heart.  She was in the hosp for about a month both times...This past time was in july/august and the doctor said her heart could fail as it was working to hard.  So she has to be very careful and any time she gets sick she has to see the doc.  Not to mention she has to take medicine every 4 hours to help her heart and to give her energy.  Plus she misses school alot, and she feels like she cant be a normal child.  I breaks my heart to see her so ill at times, but she is very strong....

So this visit with Hanana Montana is going to be a great thing for her!!!  And I can't wait to see the pics and such!

I want to get out of here, and just play!!!!  It's cloudy, and getting cooler so I'm hoping to take my girl to the mall where they have the indoor playground.  She loves it and is doing so well with it....though, after posting a question about allergies, I feel like I'm going overboard with it as you just don't know what the kids have eaten and what's on the toys.  I will wash her hands, and I do have benadryl with me....but does it have to be this bad or is it just me?

Ok, to continue this soap on my babies allergies....I have been suspecting that she is sensitive to polyester as she is itchy often when I dress her in certain clothing, come to find out it contains polyester...I phoned the nurse and she said that it certainly sounds like it, and to get her into the allergest to see what they say as far as doing a test to confirm, but to remove all polyester clothing....And guess what!  I just bought her a comforter with a cotton/polyester blend.  It wont be to bad as I plan on just having it for show and remove it for bed.  She hates wearing blankets anyway, but her sheets are 100% cotton....So with that being said, I am on the hunt for stores that have nice clothing, cotton or mixed but without polyester, where the clothes are not like $25 for a shirt alone.  But if I must, then I must as I will do anything to keep my baby from suffering as much as possible....And that being said, she also had an outbreak last night just from her cousin touching her after eating salad with ranch dressing on it....This is what happened:

Meri was eating a salad with ranch dressing.

She made some ham for Kathy to eat. Well, Denise wanted some salad, so she game some to Denise. Denise used her hands to push it in and then touched a piece of meat in kathy's plate. She also was touching the table. I told SIL M that Denise had to have her hands washed as she put them in her mouth while she was eating the salad, and touched kathy's plate. Well, about 10min later Kathy started to break out around her mouth. I showed Merari and she was shocked. I told her that it's because denise either touched/kissed kathy, or when she touched Kathy's plate. Then about another 10min later the rash was showing up on her neck. SIL M was shocked that even such a minute amount caused it. I told her that anyone who eats or touches things with eggs or nuts can't touch kathy without first washing their hands and face(if they've eaten it). I told Hubby about it too, he's seen it before where he kissed her after he ate some ice cream. He told me to write it down so we can tell the family how important it is. I'm feeling better about everyone understanding, but I'm still nervous when we go out or to other houses. I just have to speak up and say that they can't do anything with Kathy until they wash really well. Can you tell I'm frustrated by this?

I am going to make sure that I provide the food and again, she is not allowed anywhere without me, as I'm the only one who knows just how severe her allergies are. Hubby is learning, but since he does not see it all the time when it happens, he does not know the scope of it yet.....

My daughter is doing do well with going potty in the potty again.  However, in the am she is terribly lazy and wont go, thus she goes in her undies!  It would be better if I was up before her, but there are time she gets up early or I go to bed late and am very tired in the am.  She is doing well like I said, but also she will go into the potty and stand next to the toilet and pee.  Of course its not like she has to go really bad, she just stands there and lets loose!  I'm like, Kathy lift the lid and climb up...She just says I went pee on the floor....Duh, I know that!  I notice she does this when I don't go with her, or the lid is down....What to do...I'm just glad that she tells me now and try to go in the potty.  It is a nice thing since the baby has been born, that she is doing this again, going potty that it :)

Since I have had this awful cold, I got a respite last night!  My SIL, she just got back from out of the country, came and picked up my baby girl last yesterday.  My girl ended up spending the night there, which was great as hubby and I got to have a sort of date.  We had our boy, but he was pretty quiet.  I got to rest the whole day, though I did my girls room some, and then went out with hubby and we just snuggled after that!  I went to bed early and slept really well.  My boy only woke me up twice to eat.  My girl should be coming home soon and then we are off to shop and let her run around....

Arghhh, ok so my daughter decided that she was very tired yesterday and took her sleepy medicine...On her own!  Well, she passed out and slept from about 4 yesterday until about 6 this morining.  And she was up ready to go at 6!  She woke my hubby and I up, again, and came into my room every few mins...I could not go back to sleep, and I have a terrible resp infection, laryngitis, sinus headache and all.  Finally I put her down for a nap, this would be 3 days in a row...She is doing great with them, though I am finding that she needs to really burn off energy at night to go to bed at a decent time.  Hubby has been working open to close at the bakery, thought he brought me some money to spend on me and the babies..We are doing really well there.  He said that it looks like from this month on they can pull in $8000 in profit, (that's after all the bills, paychecks, and taxes)  I'm so glad as they have been working really hard and for being just a baby, only open for about 4m now...I'm so glad, as now we have plans to buy a lot and have a house built in about 2 yrs, and if you know anything about Los Angeles, you know that it's not cheap....We have finally begun to get back ahead of things, and are now able to breath better.  If only I could get back into the cooking thing.  I used to all the time, but since the baby it's been alot of broken meals, or take out.  It's bad cause I could spend that money on stuff for me, the babies, or just save it.  Though right now I'm focusing on making my daughter's room into a tru princess palace.  New toys, all princess, dress up stuff, bedding etc.  She is becoming such a big girl, and this is what she asked me to do for her...As for my boy, he needs  more clothes, though I want to wait some as it's going to get warm fast and I want to get springier stuff for him, just waiting for it to go on sale!  Anyway, hubby said he would come home for a bit today, but he has to close too.  I think he has next weekend off, and that would be great!  Disneyland here I come! 

Well, my daughter decided to get up before the roosters to play.  Of course she woke up her daddy and myself.  And I have laryngitis, so now I can't even talk....ARGHHHHH!!!! I have energy which is great, so I plan on tackling her room some and going thru her toys....Anyone need some toys???  I have to go thru her old clothes as well, she has finally hit the 36" mark and is growing out of alot of her clothing...Yeah!!  was so worried about her growing as she did not grow for 6m and now she shot up almost 2in in just 3m!!!  It's great.  I'm also getting ready to decorate her room Disney princess style.  I'm still looking for that perfect disney bedding set to go with the acessories....She loves the princesses, so I thought it's time to really do her room nice....Just hope her brother does not mind when he moves in there at the end of this year....

I know that I have been given something very special with some of my dreams and intuition.  I won't say I'm a prohet or a physkic (?) in anyway, but I feel that God has given me something to use with my dreams. 

First off, I have had many dreams that seemed to come true, but then who hasn't right?  I had a dream way back when I was first preggy about a cousin of my hubbies.  My dream was that his wife was preggy, that she was preggy in Dec and that they got married cause of that.  Then I believe a few nights later I dreamt that they moved to a one room apt.  I told my hubby about the dreams right away.  Well come to find out about 2 m later that his cousin was preggy and in Dec!!!  How precise was that, and that they were moving into a 1 room apt....I had the dreams way before anyone said anything.  Then about a month later I had 2 dreams that one of my SIL was preggy, one wiht one SIL another with another SIL.  I dreamt that my SIL was preggy when I was about 4m along.  Guess what, my SIL, hubbys bros' wife is preggy and she got preggy when I was 4m along!!!  And my dream was about her.  Then the other night I had a dream that my other SIL was preggy, with a boy, and at her 7th m mark she was having pain....hmm, I told her about it the next day and she told me that the night before they her and her hubby were talking about trying again for another baby, but really wanted a boy....for certain reasons.  So I'm waiting to see how that goes, on top of that in my dream the SIL that is preggy now, whom I don't get along with came to pick me up and we were best friends.  We were getting ready for a party with my other SIL K....

Ok and not only that my sis dad, my step dad fell ill over the x-mas time.  He had surgery, now has a colostomy bag, and his health is not well.  I told my mom when I first found out that I had been thinking about him and him passing soon.  Cruel I know, but he is very unhealthy, eats bad, smokes and is an alcoholic.  Anyway, I told her that I felt this was the begining of the end for him...come to find out today that he now has problems with his lungs, what I'm not sure.  I pray that he is able to use this to change his life, be a better person, stop drinking and just all alround change....

Anyway, we'll see.  But with the dreams and gut feelings I have had in the past few years, they have always been true.  I'm a strong believer in God and feel that he tells me things in those dreams...I know dreams are just dreams, but these are messages.....I like it, it's neat to see what it's store.....

I'm so glad as today 2 of my SIL came from out of country.  One was gone for 3 weeks, the other 4weeks.  I'm so glad they are here as I have no family of my own where I live and they are my family.  We waited for one of them to come to my MIL house, but we had to leave as my baby girl is still very stick.  She fought me tonight with her medicine, but I kept at it and threw the fight she took it.  My son is doing well.  After going to the docs on Mon I have been feeding him at least every 2 hours during the day and on demand at night.  I was doing some research on line and found out that babies who are breastfeed are grow in a different pattern then those who are formula feed.  One site said that babies who are formula feed grow slow in the first 3m then quicker form 3m to 12m.  For breastfeed babies it's the other way around.  It made me feel better as my girl was formula feed and my son is breastfeed.  They also said that babies can me low in weight, but still healthy.  I'm just hoping that the extra feedings will help to put on more weight for my son as he drop from the 20% down to the 5% which seems to be alot.  I'm not worried as I know he is eatting well since I often feed him and he pulls away when he's full, even when the milk is coming out! I'm trying not to worry, but as still feeling like a new mom I can't help it. 

I want a to give a special thank you to all of you who have read my blogs and left your support, wisdom and love.  Thank you!!

My baby boy had his check up yesterday.  Got his shots and did pretty well.  He was doing everything like a 4 month old, though he was born 5 weeks early.  He has grown alot! up to 24.5in, but did not gain alot.  He is only 12lb 5oz.  He should be alot chunkier, esp for being so tall. The doc told me to feed him more and to make sure I'm eating and rest right to help my milk.  Other then that he's great.  I can't start him on food yet as she wants his weight to be higher and steadier then it is now.  That's fine with me, I like BFing him.  Well, the bad part came when I told his dad.  It seems like everytime something is not right with them it's my fault.  I told him that he grew alot, but did not gain as much weight and the doc wants me to nurse every 1-2 hours.  He said, see I knew you were not feeding him enough, going up to 3 hours sometimes,making him starve to much.  I was so hurt!!  I told him that I feed him alot, when he seems hungry and it can be 2-4 hours inbetween depending on how much he eats.  Even his mother has told me it's good to let them very hungry sometimes...I don't know what to say.  It's not my fault that the baby grew more then he gained weight, and I let him eat as much as he wants all the time.  I just can't believe he has to do that, he is hardly ever home anyway, so he almost never can see me feed him....

Anyway, I hate it when he does that as it's like cause the babies are not this idea of perfection then it's all my fault.  With my girl it's she eats to much and weights to much now...I told him before she needed to eat less, and he said your starving her, poor baby. and then the doc said she is overweight, then he goes: see your feeding her to much!!.  I just can't win...It makes me so mad as I try so hard to care for them and raise them in the best way.  Well, hello, I'm not the one who was buying her McDonalds all the time. ( this was when I was in the hosp for my 2nd) and when I got home and took her to the doc she had to have a modified diet.  She had gained like 1 lb in less then a week and it was so horrible as all she wanted was mcdonalds and junk food.  She was never like that before. 

Now I have gotten in to that as I have been so tired to do anything, lack of sleep and being ill.  IWe have food at the house, but getting back into the grove of cooking is hard.  And then there is the cleaning.  I told my hubby yesterday that I need help.  I can't do this all right now as I have not slept and I'm not feeling well.  2 more days and my SIL comes home, and I'm going to ask her to help me clean up the house nice again so I can get a handle on it and keep it up.  What a crazy new year it's been so far!!!

But now some happy news!!  I get to see my mommy in April for my B-Day with my babies!  I'm so excited.  Hubby can't go as he has to run the bakery, but he will go with us to Wisconsin in July.  I'm so excited as I miss my mommy and my girl misses her too.  It's going to be really nice.  I can't wait!!! 

Well I think this is the longest blog I have written.  Though I have more to say, my hands are tired from typing....Thank you for listening to my rant.....

Well yesterday was really nice.  I got to drop off my baby girl at one of her aunts house for the day.  I then took my youngest SIL, who seems like my real sis to the doc.  Poor thing, she has been so ill for years, and her sis thinks it's what her girl has, which runs in the family in the women...A genetic defect in which carnitine is not made in the body, causeing heart failure, low energy, vomiting, stomach pain, etc.  I hope they can find out what is wrong with my SIL as I know she hates to be feeling so ill.  Well, after that we went back to the house and waited for my other SIL to bring my daughter....Long story short, she didn't, and it made me upset as my hubby had to go get her.  It seems to happen everytime she goes over there.  Even my hubby told me that his sis is lazy and does not like to bring the baby back.  I'm not letting that happen again.  It was raining so hard last night, and my SIL said that she woudl bring her back way earlier, but nothing, I had to call her to find out what was going on....I'm not happy....That's when she told me that she did not want to go cause her girl just took a shower....though come to find out she gave my baby one too, and knew that she would have to go out.  On top of that her daughter is really sick, and she seems to think it's ok, that my girl won't get sick.  Well now my baby is coughing so bad, and I know she got it from her girl as they have been together in the past week, and she always shares her food and stuff with my baby....Now my little one is on meds and I may have to put her on another as her coughing has gotten worse.  I just hope that she does not get a fever as this can mean pnemonia.  She is very supceptable to it, it seems every cold she gets, it turns into pnemonia.  And she is allergic to like all the anti-biotics, sulfers and penicillin ones....anyway, next time my SIL wants to have my baby come over, she has to come get her and she has to drop her off to make up for this.....lol

I'm so excited as my hubby bought me a new car yesterday.  It does not have all the bells n whistles as it could, but it has pretty much everything I want, just need a cargo cover for the back.  I'm so happy as this is the first new car in almost 5 years for me, and it's perfect for me and the babies.  My daughter wanted to drive in it last night when my hubby brought it home, she was so excited too!!  He is thrilled cause he wanted me to have something new and nice for me and the babies and he was more then tickled pink when he saw the truck...It certainly is starting out a wonderful new year!!  Full of blessings, I can tell already!