In continuing with my home renos, i decided to paint the downstairs half bath. Sounds simple, eh? Well then I decided to pull up the baseboards because they'd be easier to paint. Again... really simple!

THERE WAS MOLD!!!! And my subfloor is friggin rotten!!!!

So I bought a pry bar to take the subfloor up so I can replace it... And in a fit of passion I smashed it (only 6 or 7 times!) into the wall. So I guess I'm going to have to get a new bathroom. Hopefully one with a nice big tub :)

Looking into contractors now...

I probably shouldn't have smashed the drywall off... but maybe it'll save me some money in labour costs when they come and make everything pretty!

Well.. I should probably go back to smashing...

Very theraputic... I'd recomend it.

Lily's getting tubes put in today!

So lots of good vibes this way please!

She's screaming her face off because she's hungry... poor thing. I can't even give her anything to drink!

xx.

Charity

I got a phone call last night from Lily's grandmother, saying she wants to visit in April. Which is fine, I've told her she's always welcome, Lily's her old grandchild, and all that. She's a very nice lady. But she drives me nuts!!!!

Every time we visit, she never puts Lily down, doesn't follow my rules, and generally turns my nice happy baby into a clingy, whiney little brat. As Lily gets older, she hangs onto these bad habits longer. I'm only now just starting to break her of the habit of being whiney that's held over from our Christmas visit!

When she comes to my house, she moves stuff around, changes where I store things in the cupboards, re-arranges not only Lily's clothing, but MY clothing. It takes me months to find everything after she leaves. I can't stand people TOUCHING MY STUFF!!!! I think it comes from living alone for so long. I'm very posessive of my stuff. Yes it's kinda messy, but it's MY mess, and I can find everything in it.

I think she's still of the mind that I'm "too young" to be able to take care of a kid. I just wanna scream "FYI LADY!!! Just because you raised YOUR son to be immature and unable to handle being a full time parent doesn't mean that MY parents did the same thing!"

But she's a nice lady, I swear! I really can't just yell at her. As much as I want to. It's probably not 100% her fault that her son's a jack ass. I just want her to stop spoiling my kid. Yeah yeah I know, it's Grandparent's perogative to get the kid all hyped up on chocolate and pop and send them back to the parents, probably as some sort of punishment for all the things that they did bad as children, but never got caught for (my theory anyway).

How hard is it to follow my f-ing rules?? There really aren't that many as I'm very laid back, (well except for when she's here, then I feel completely on edge).

And the hand and face washing thing! She washes Lily's hands and face in the MIDDLE of a meal! Like one drop of sauce get's on her face, and suddenly a wash cloth appears! It's so ingrained in Lily now that when she's eating, if her hands get dirty she starts saying "Hand, Hand" and won't finish her meal until her hands are clean. And her high chair tray has to be clean. One drop of food on it and she freaks out!

Not that being a clean and tidy person is wrong, but I'm the kind of mom that, if it's bath night, just cleans the messiest parts of the kid, and I deal with the rest in the tub!

Ok, enough rant, I have to save some for when she actually gets here, and I escape to the computer to try and retain my sanity!!

xx.

Charity

SOS!!!!

So I went and had a pap done today. My dr suggested i have it done because, for 1, I've been inexplicably exhausted, and 2, I was due anyway.

So the nurse is doing her thing. And she says "your cercix is bleeding really easily" . She said it was flayed or freyed or something.

Gross eh? but it's also got me crazy worried!

She really didn't want to talk about it further, and I kinda got the impression that something's wrong. She said she'd call me with in a month with the results. Not the usual, "if you hear nothing it's good news" thing they usually say. Why wouldn't she talk to me?? Is something really really wrong with me?

I saw the smear thing, and it was completely bloody. So so gross! I'm not much of a fan of the whole pap smear thing as it is, but I get one every year or so, just to be safe. This has me really worried! Why the hell am I bleeding??? I don't get my period anymore because I have an IUD and haven't got my monthly in 9 months or so.

I'm kinda freaking out now. Tried the whole google search thing, but all I can come up with is a video by papa roach! lol I'm not the best internet person in the world, that's for sure!

Frig

I need hugs please!