Well last night still no changes with hannah she seems to enjoy the bottle of water but il keep doing the for a rew more days,  Im starting to wonder if im might be giving her to much water.

She is just being naught its like just as i get into bed she know's mummy is going so il just wake up lol but i still love her and adore her &(luke).  They are my life , As for luke I have sat and had a talk with him about the smoking issue and I look at it this way if I ask him not to smoke he will still do it behind my back.  So I have told him he can smoke at home (out) side and if I catch him smoking when with friends like in town or up the bike track , school uniform as he is at private collage (grandparents pay for schooling).  There will be some sort of punishment,   you wont to be treated as an adult you need to also act like one. 

So lets see how it goes he is normaly pretty good but we all no what teenages can be like.  now about me,  I have met a lovely man we have been friends for a little while only talk now and then but since my partner died (8years ago) 

I took a step right back until I met hannah"s dad but that was very short wont say a mistake as I have my gorgouse little girl.  Well he rang me tonight and wonts to take me out I said I would think    about it and let him no saturday.

But deep down my heart is pounding and I would realy love to but Im to scared  to but as my gf said its only a night out have a meal and maybe go to the pics.  Oh well maybe some of you could tell me what you think I should do.

Would it be wrong or right of me its a hude decision or am I over reacting ????????????

Nite to all xx