Just wonna say thanks to all as I rang  and spoke to her husband first and she got on the phone and said she would love me to visit.

Got there it was very hard didnt no what to say but I just went with the flow and she just burst into tears and I put my arms around her then I started crying.  We sat down and she just told me every thing and whats happens now as I said to her IM hear for you and your husband for any thing .  She couldnt thank me enough.

Thanks a gain to all that helped you no who u are cheers lisam xxx

Well Hannah has been better this week she is still waking but I just put her dummie in and she nods back to sleep.  She doesnt seem to wont her bot any more so hope it stays this way and she will adventurely  sleep threw.

We got bad news my mums sister died today the one I have mentioned in other blogs it a blessing...............................

Nite nite all

Well I went of on the date and it was fun but I wont be doing it again all he done was talk about himself  a real I am and Ive got, but the food was good I didnt get to the pic as I had my gf on call I told her I would tex her for her to ring me and say it was work if I wasnt having fun and she did just that but u never no some thing else might come up.

I havent been able to get on my computer I think some one has sent me a virus and I excepted it my page keeps going white so, my new computer I have proberly stuffed. Im gonna get some one to come and have a look in the moring as I dont no enough about computers.  I have had a lovely weekend to hannah to the park today as it was a beautiful sunny day then come home cooked t Im about to go to bed so night night all .

Well last night still no changes with hannah she seems to enjoy the bottle of water but il keep doing the for a rew more days,  Im starting to wonder if im might be giving her to much water.

She is just being naught its like just as i get into bed she know's mummy is going so il just wake up lol but i still love her and adore her &(luke).  They are my life , As for luke I have sat and had a talk with him about the smoking issue and I look at it this way if I ask him not to smoke he will still do it behind my back.  So I have told him he can smoke at home (out) side and if I catch him smoking when with friends like in town or up the bike track , school uniform as he is at private collage (grandparents pay for schooling).  There will be some sort of punishment,   you wont to be treated as an adult you need to also act like one. 

So lets see how it goes he is normaly pretty good but we all no what teenages can be like.  now about me,  I have met a lovely man we have been friends for a little while only talk now and then but since my partner died (8years ago) 

I took a step right back until I met hannah"s dad but that was very short wont say a mistake as I have my gorgouse little girl.  Well he rang me tonight and wonts to take me out I said I would think    about it and let him no saturday.

But deep down my heart is pounding and I would realy love to but Im to scared  to but as my gf said its only a night out have a meal and maybe go to the pics.  Oh well maybe some of you could tell me what you think I should do.

Would it be wrong or right of me its a hude decision or am I over reacting ????????????

Nite to all xx

Well hannah still woke last night but i only gave her water instead of milk she had three of these im going to persist with this and hopefully before long she will sleep threw.  Been very busy today went out paid bills and done my grocery shop as I had little time because I had to head of to work at 3pm.

Got to work and felt like a real fool i was at work on the wrong day any way didnt feel like working.  So came home and put some t on for all of us having roast pork.

My mum went to the lawyer today about my aunty the one that is being taken for a ride and got some realy good news she can be out up for fraud its all going to be investergated and she is going to get what she deserves.

As for my aunty we are  still waiting to her a placement in a nursing home if she makes it.

II have been thinking all day about my son as to what he told me last night the he smokes and im realy unsure how to handle it yet in one way i would prefer him to smoke in front of me at home than behind my back but i realy dont no how i would cope with that my mum said its best in front of you than behind your back so im still trying to think what im going to do.   

Well by for now cheers lisam

worked last night didnt finish to 11pm, had a realy busy night we had two die  come home my son (16)  luke was still up so we had  a little chat then he said mum I need to tell you some thing.  We have a close relationship,  but I do worry when he says he needs to tell me something.

He is in year 11, I couldnt beleive what he came out with mum I smoke and my reply was smoke what????????????????????????? ??????????????

Cigerettes he said I wasnt shocked as I smoke ( not in the house or the car) and had noticed I was either smoking to much or maybe they were going so I had a faint idea.  Any way went to bed wondering how to handle it and guess who woke yes little hannah gave her a bottle and back to sleep she went.  She woke four times and as I was so tired I just gave her a bottle and back to sleep now im wondering maybe im giving her to much milk.  Im going to see the clinic sister friday.

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Hi every-one it has been several days since I have been on .  My computer stuffed up so I went out and brought a new one yesterday.  How exciting iits 2007 my old one was very very very old.  So im now learning all over again.

Have had a realy busy week working and hannah is still not sleeping of a night but i just have to move on.  

Well IL chat soon cheers lisa 

   tHIS NICE WEATHER IS TO GOOD.  Of to pick the car up then do a little shopping as hannah has grown out of her cloths she is now in a size two.  

Well I have just rang and the car wont be reagy until 4pm oh well another day home.  Well head out for another walk

Hope you all have a great day

Cheers lis xx

Thank you for the lovely picture it made my day.

Cheers Lisa xx

Im feeling very lost today as I had to put my car in yesterday to get fixed by the body works, a man ran into me at a friends wedding the other week.  So hannah and I have been up very early done the house work and went of for a walk down to nanys.

As it is a beautiful day I might even get in the garden you can only do so much house work and im just going over it all over again, so I have poped hannah into bed and thought I would have five min on computer well its been an hour now naughty me.     

I have just read my mail and one of the mails I got is telling me I have been reported can any one tell me  me why what have I done wrong Im am freaking out what does this mean??????????????????

Im a good person I wouldnt do any thing wrong on purpes this is realy stressing me please help.

Thank lisa 

I dont no what is wrong with me i have had a realy bad day today feeling very down, loney and sad I cant stop crying for nothing and I dont no y .

I have been like this since I have had hannah and it seems to be getting worse.  I can have my good days and I can have my bad days.

Oh weel il get over it soon I hope.

Night Night Lisa

Hi every one it has been a realy busy weekend, I have had to re-sighn up today as I couldnt get into my old user name.  As you all new me before as lisameir its now lisam nice and short.

Hannah has settled heaps over the weekend so I dont think I will take her to the doctor.  I have been out today and brought a camera for my computer and head phones my brother is leaving for duhbi today and the hole family has just down loaded skype so we can talk to him and see him as we will all realy miss him.

skype is a fantastic thing and it dosesnt cost when we ring him threw the computer, and the bonus is we can still c him and c how he is doing.  His wife will be going in three weeks he leaves today.  He has a realy good job and they will bw on lots of money they r coming back in 5years. 

cheers lisa