I haven't been with Hannah's dad since i feel pregnant this was a mutual decision between the both of us but he was still there if i need him.  He requested to be at the birth so who am i to stay no as he has just as much wright as i do.  He has been a part of hannah's life since she was born so we do still see a lot of each other he now wants to re unit and try again as im a bit unsure what i wont i dont no do i do this for hannah i also have Luke to think of as well but there is no problem there as they always got on really well.

I'm a little bit scared as i do still love him and he will always be apart of our lives he is a good daddy and i cant take that away from him.  But the question is will it work or not and i no i just cant do it for hannah as i need to do this for me as well

Well have been very busy lately working heaps haven't really had a lot of time to myself but that's life.  My son got his p last fFriday so yeeeeeeeeeeeeeep he now has his license Ism not that over joyed about it all but again thats life and I have to except my son is ggrowing up.

Have had hHannah unwell aagain with asthma and bad ear infection, she has been very sooky but as we all now we know how we feel when we are unwell but for poor littles they cant tell you what is wrong.

Looking forward to the weekend as I have it of going t go up to the snow on mt.wellington and play in the snow. Then tommorow night have a girlfriend going in the road to tam worth compition at the casino  so realy looking foward to that it has been a while since I have been out.

well of to bed now

Finaly I have been on the computer all week trying to work out how to get pic on here

well finaly I have worked it out so Im not that dumb after all what a releif it is .  Still one problem dont know how to down load on to my lounge or blog can any one help .

pleasssssssssssssse

Haven't  blogged  for a while so here goes.........................................................Well took Hannah to the doctor and she has bad case of eczema and I'm now using qv oil for bath, and cream that has to be rubbed on her three times a day all over her body, so it wasn't measles.

She is doing really well now but as for Luke well he is about to get his licences which really scares me he has money in trust for him that was left from his dad and now he is looking to buy a car so this is really scared, I'm starting to no how my mum was feeling with me growing up.

But i just have to face the fact that Luke is becoming independent now and is not a little boy any more.

For myself have been to the doctor about what i thought might of been depression and yes i was right it is he wonted to put me on anti-depression tablets but i have decided to try counseling first as im not a big believer in taking tablets but who no i might have to in the end.  I have been really busy working so this keeps my mind of things.

Hannah is of to day care Friday for three hours for the first time don't no how she will go but im hoping she will like it as i feel she needs to mix with children her own age so its going to be very interesting to see how she goes.  They like you to just drop her of but i have told them that i would like to stay a little while to see how she goes before i decide to leave.