Had a good chat to my doc today and he's put my mind at ease somewhat! He firstly said a big congratulations as it was thought that I may not be able to conceive again. So this makes bun that little bit extra special! He checked my blood test results and all seems to be normal. I just have to be careful on two fronts. I'm a negative blood group and if bun is positive then the risk of miscarriage greatly increases. G is a positive blood type and I had no problems with her so fingers crossed with this one. The other thing I have to be careful of is my health. As I have been sick for so long and have lost so much weight, the pregnancy may take more out of me than normal. He's restricted me (or trying to restrict me) to no more than two days of work a week!! He might want to explain that to the people I work with although I really don't think they would give a dam. He has also given me a perscription for Maxolon and folic acid. Bless him, he knows I have trouble keeping food down at the best of times and we are now waiting to see if morning sickness hits! I asked him about nothing showing up on the scan and he thinks that it's just to early. They did a really thorough scan on me and he said if there was no sign of the baby in the tubes than there is really a tiny chance that it maybe. I have another scan booked on the 16th May so fingers tightly crossed that bun makes it's first apperance! So for the next little while I have to take it easy as much as I can, nanna nap when I can and the rest is all in the lap of the gods.

Jd is really excited about the whole thing and when I speak to him I can hear it in his voice how much he wants to come home. I am now missing him terribly, think it's the hormones working there magic. He's no longer in phone range so I have to wait for him to be able to plug his phone into the skippers airel! I hate being apart from him especially now. He is my best friend and the one that can make everything seem right with just a hug. I miss those hugs. I know it's not that long till he's home again. He's estimating about the 1st or 2nd of June. It just feels like forever. I know he's trying to hard to provide for us all and for that I am eternally grateful. He's working his butt off to try and get as much money as possible before he comes home and before bun is fully baked! I know that he will be a brilliant Dad and I have a sneaking suspicion that he's going to be one big softie when it comes to bun. I watch him with G and the effort he puts in there and know that he is going to go above and beyond the call of duty when it comes to bun. I know that bun has already given him so much joy. It's now my greatest wish that everything goes smoothly from here on in.

Thanks to all for the support. I know I've been more than a little paranoid in the last little bit but mostly that was me letting people's off handed comments get to me. So now it's fingers crossed for the next scan on the 16th. I'm still a little worried that nothing will be there again but am putting most of my faith in bun being healthy and VISIBLE!!!

Much love,

fi, miss g, jd and bun xoxo