Just an update on whats happening cos I haven't blogged for ages AGAIN!!!.

Firstly, my driving lessons are going really well.I must admit though from last week when I had my first one to today-my second, it has caused my loss of sleep!! I go to bad knackered and bang I'm wide awake! I go through stages of insomnia and I can't stand it.He lays there snoring his head off and I'm totally switched on.Bought some nytol yesterday so will use them for a couple of nights.

Darrens job in jeopardy again.His boss told him yesterday that theres not much work so don't know if he'll be out of work shortly.His boss pisses me off he said this a few months back,the company went into liquidation,started again and now its happening again.The economy is affecting everybody so badly at the moment,now could be the worst time for it to happen-but is there ever a good time?

Went shopping last night and spent £115 and got hardly anything.The price of food ,cleaning products and everything is huge.When is it going to end it'll be like war time soon and 'make do and mend'.As we were shopping last night, we were in the supermarket for about 10 mins when all of a sudden staff were going manic bringing towels off the shelves.It turns out someone was stabbed just after we had gone in.It's on the news today that someone has been charged with attempted murder.

This country is getting worse.Knives and weapons are becoming too commonplace in our society and they only bring sorrow and grief to families.I think there has been 17 young people stabbed to death in this country this year.I think it appalling and so sad.I feel desperately sorry for the people who have died this way and for the family and friends left behind.It's about time the government woke up and turned this country around-but to be honest it's probably too late.

On a lighter note emailing my old friend off Friends Reunited regularly.It's so nice to be in touch with such an old friend.We grew up together from being 4 and lost touch after school.

DON'T SAY NOWT-IT'S SUNNY HURRAY!!!!

Yet more problems with our Child Support Agency.My partner has been paying his ex since July last year every Friday by standing order an amount agreed at court towards paying for his two girls.This is back pay that she is owed and it was investigated by the court to see if we could make 'current' payments, they decided we couldn't afford it.So, we have paid the back pay owed for nearly a year and we have bank statements to prove it.But, they have only passed a small amount of money on to her due to further investigation-whatever that means.

Anyhow because she isn't receiving any money from them,she is threatening to dump the girls on our doorstep again-she did this nearly 2 years ago and they lived with us for 6 months before wanting to go back with their mum.

I am absolutely worried sick incase she does this again.I cannot go through it all again for the sake of my boys and myself.It turned all our lives on its head and there were lots of problems.My boys accepted the girls living with us but why should I do it again?

I love my partner totally and so do my kids-especially Luke.I am so worried, the doctor Luke saw 2 weeks ago said he should be fine as long as he is kept emotionally stable.I have told my partner that I am not willing to have them here again ,but what if it happens? What do I do? Do I stick to my guns and lose my soulmate and my kids lose the best dad they have ever known,or do I do it again just to keep him? I really think that if push came to shove he would have to chose, and I think he would chose his kids.

His ex said 2 weeks ago that she would dump them here again and he took the day off work expecting them to come anytime-they never.He said he has hardly any feelings for his girls because he has hardly ever seen them and loves James and Luke like his own.So, I really don't know what he would do.My stomach is in knots -she has us over a barrel.

Had a really peaceful weekend really.The boys were really good yesterday even though they couldn't play out because we had rain again all day.My other half went fishing yesterday and came back with really bad eyes again.He suffers with hayfever and does have asthma and is allergic to the usual stuff but he's also allargic to horses!

Yesterday at fishing to which he did for 13 hours!!!!.He said there was a horse in the field behind the fishing pond-yet he still sat there for thirteen hours because it was 'fantastic' fishing.What a div.

His eyes, especially the left one are a mess.The left side of his face is swollen so much it is level with the bridge of his nose . His eyeball is bloodshot and has burst blood vessels and he has yellow gunk coming out of his eye.He looks like he has gone 10 rounds with Mike Tyson!.

I begged him to go to hospital but he wouldn't. I bought him some eye drops last week and he won't even put them in because he doesn't like them-he's a right baby.So, I rang the emergency doctor number who rang him back and they said he had to go this afternoon.Anyway that's where he is now.

I'm so mad at him.My nan lost the sight in her eye simply because she wouldn't go get it seen to.She started with a headache and a feeling of a net curtain being over her eye.She ignored it and because of this her retina split and they couldn't repair it.She was told if she had gone earlier they could have saved it.My nan died 2 years ago but she always said about how precious our eyes are and to take care of them.

I hope when he comes back it is nothing serious-men are such babies.

I have written an advice article today and it was reported immediately for possible 'offensive' words.MMM...I don't think the words I used are offensive so would appreciate members views who have access to voting etc...Thanks,Lisa