Yet more problems with our Child Support Agency.My partner has been paying his ex since July last year every Friday by standing order an amount agreed at court towards paying for his two girls.This is back pay that she is owed and it was investigated by the court to see if we could make 'current' payments, they decided we couldn't afford it.So, we have paid the back pay owed for nearly a year and we have bank statements to prove it.But, they have only passed a small amount of money on to her due to further investigation-whatever that means.

Anyhow because she isn't receiving any money from them,she is threatening to dump the girls on our doorstep again-she did this nearly 2 years ago and they lived with us for 6 months before wanting to go back with their mum.

I am absolutely worried sick incase she does this again.I cannot go through it all again for the sake of my boys and myself.It turned all our lives on its head and there were lots of problems.My boys accepted the girls living with us but why should I do it again?

I love my partner totally and so do my kids-especially Luke.I am so worried, the doctor Luke saw 2 weeks ago said he should be fine as long as he is kept emotionally stable.I have told my partner that I am not willing to have them here again ,but what if it happens? What do I do? Do I stick to my guns and lose my soulmate and my kids lose the best dad they have ever known,or do I do it again just to keep him? I really think that if push came to shove he would have to chose, and I think he would chose his kids.

His ex said 2 weeks ago that she would dump them here again and he took the day off work expecting them to come anytime-they never.He said he has hardly any feelings for his girls because he has hardly ever seen them and loves James and Luke like his own.So, I really don't know what he would do.My stomach is in knots -she has us over a barrel.

Had a really peaceful weekend really.The boys were really good yesterday even though they couldn't play out because we had rain again all day.My other half went fishing yesterday and came back with really bad eyes again.He suffers with hayfever and does have asthma and is allergic to the usual stuff but he's also allargic to horses!

Yesterday at fishing to which he did for 13 hours!!!!.He said there was a horse in the field behind the fishing pond-yet he still sat there for thirteen hours because it was 'fantastic' fishing.What a div.

His eyes, especially the left one are a mess.The left side of his face is swollen so much it is level with the bridge of his nose . His eyeball is bloodshot and has burst blood vessels and he has yellow gunk coming out of his eye.He looks like he has gone 10 rounds with Mike Tyson!.

I begged him to go to hospital but he wouldn't. I bought him some eye drops last week and he won't even put them in because he doesn't like them-he's a right baby.So, I rang the emergency doctor number who rang him back and they said he had to go this afternoon.Anyway that's where he is now.

I'm so mad at him.My nan lost the sight in her eye simply because she wouldn't go get it seen to.She started with a headache and a feeling of a net curtain being over her eye.She ignored it and because of this her retina split and they couldn't repair it.She was told if she had gone earlier they could have saved it.My nan died 2 years ago but she always said about how precious our eyes are and to take care of them.

I hope when he comes back it is nothing serious-men are such babies.

I have written an advice article today and it was reported immediately for possible 'offensive' words.MMM...I don't think the words I used are offensive so would appreciate members views who have access to voting etc...Thanks,Lisa

I cannot wait for July and the kids to leave that bitches class.I complained AGAIN to the head master as regards her treatment and attitude to Luke.She is constantly putting him down and belittling him and I could smack her!

On Tuesday she gave 3 children, including Luke ONE worksheet to share! Luke couldn't see it properly so when he tried to pull it closer, he ripped the corner-she sent him to the head! At lunchbreak Luke was playing with a boy in a corner of the playground quietly( I know this is true because I asked the dinnerladies).A boy in Lukes class-who is a right twat, threw a small plastic ball at Lukes face-to which he has a mark.Luke threw it back,and got caught.And guess what?? Luke was in trouble and not the other boy because no one saw him do it.

At the same lunchtime 5 boys ,4 of which are in his class and never get told off,circled Luke and were pushing him.So, Luke pushed them back and all the other boys told on Luke and he got into trouble again.As Luke was getting told off AGAIN, another boy laughed at him and Luke saw red and pushed him over bruising his back and his face.So, Luke got sent to the head again.

So, after another meeting with the head and put forward that my son is a victim of teacher bullying,to which he replied,'I think thats over the top Lisa'.He then went on to say he thinks we should have an 'emergency' meeting with the teacher and my boys.I told him no way.She is a horrible cow.She talks to me like I am 5 years old and the last time I tried to talk to her she said that maybe I should brush up on my parenting skills!! I told the head this and he said I'm sure she didn't mean it!!

The thing is both the head and 'the bitch' retire in July and I don't believe it would be in my boys best interest to go above their heads now.She is also the head of the governers and generally well respected, so I don't think I would stand a chance-plus she could make my sons school life even more difficult.So, as of yesterday I am bringing them home for lunch and have told the head that if her vendetta continues I will take Luke out of school until September.

So the ball is in their court now.I have never ever said that I hate anyone but I do her.I feel like I'm inbetween a rock and a hard place and so mad about it I could scream.

Soz its such a long blog and about Lukes woes again,bet you're bored hearing about it. 

Gonna go now.Daz has come in from work and keeps trying to talk to me and I keep saying, 'yeah in a minute just on minti'.So night night everyone.

I am sssoooo chuffed tonight!! I'm a member of a site-Friends Reunited, and have been for a while. I don't bother with it much it's a bit boring really.Anyhow, I came home this evening and opened my emails and I got sent a 'buzz' message from one of my best ever friends!

We were best friends from starting nursey school at 4 years old and she used to live on the same block as my nan and grandad , just round the corner from me.We went through nursey,primary,junior and senior school together.We were best buddies and I loved her to bits. Then 'life' happened.We lost touch, she moved blah blah.

The last time I saw her was about 15 years ago and it was only a brief hiya cos I was at work. I only thought about her the other day because the house she lived in has recently been refurbished and I walked past it, thinking how things change and out of the blue-a buzz. I am so pleased.I emailed her back with a brief message and I must admit I didn't know what to say-I could go on and on because so much has happened as it will have happened to her.

It might sound daft but I'm so excited.We grew up together and it would be really nice if we were to catch up properly so we'll see.

I have decided that at the grand old age of.........37 OMG. I am going to try to learn to drive.I sent for my provisional licence yesterday and am already shitting myself.I haven't a clue where to start, I don't even know what pedal is for what-duh.I never really wanted to learn, I always thought there were enough idiots on the road without there being another one!! But, after my other half nagging me( he uses his van for work and so our car is sat doing nothing) I have decided to give it a go.

I bought a copy of the highway code and the theory tests yesterday and there is ssoooo much to learn.  

My best friend is taking lessons and has a really nice instructor so I think I'm going to go with her.I really can't tell you how nervous I am. So any advice would be much appreciated.LOL.

Last week at my slimming class I got my next award.  I am so chuffed with myself. I've now lost 2 and a half stone-don't know what that is in kilos.I still want to lose about another half a stone though.I feel so much better about myself.I only really lost weight because of my kids.After Xmas they said I was 'really fat' and my bum was the size of the moon-real nice kids you know.I did feel uncomfortable myself though so decided to do something about it.

So, anybody out there thinking about going to a slimming club and needs encouragement-you go girl.I've met some lovely people and have such a laugh at the class.The hardest part is walking through that door.

Hope I haven't bored you all silly with my two blogs today,feel really 'gabalot' today.

At last over my bout of dodgy tummy-yay!!

Let me think whats been happening mmmm... First, kids have been much better behaved recently.Luke had his appointment last week at the child psychologist and he said that because Luke doesn't see his bio dad, that it MAY effect him.Luke said he doesn't miss him at all-his bio dad physically hurt Luke on quite a few occasions and this amongst other things led him to having no PR or contact.The psycologist basically said that some children just can't cope with a seperation and move on and Luke is one of them. He doesn't believe he will have longterm behaviour probs and just thinks that is the way he is.He is however referring us to an interlink agency to help cope with his behavior, so don'y know how long that will take to come through.

Decided today to update my online image-love Betty Boop and collect the figurines-sad!!

Sorry, couldn't resist!!!

As some of you may know, I have been going to a slimming club now since January.I went to turn up for our meeting yesterday and the venue was closed because of a leaking roof(yep we've had more rain).So, because I didn't have a 'weigh in' yesterday I thought I would treat myself to a chicken kebab for my tea-which I haven't had all year.I used to eat loads of them but haven't had any since my diet.OMG did I feel ill!! After half an hour I was so ill with an upset stomach.I thought it would be better today but it isn't.The sickness has gone but I'm left with really bad stomach cramps and feeling sick.Will not be having a kebab again .Hope it goes soon,I hate feeling sicky.

Hope everyone has a great weekend with. lots of warm sunshine(here's hoping).  

At last-THE RAIN HAS STOPPED!!!!!!!

Thank God it has stopped raining.It's not exactly bright sunshine but it's definately a massive improvement on the torrential rain we've had.Rain makes you feel down in the dumps when it goes on for too long-although love it when it's a muggy,warm day! Can't win with us Brits,our lives seem to revolve around the weather.

Well, I grounded L yesterday for misbehaving at school and hurting a girl with his pencil.Both of them were as bad but L is such hard work.Yesterday morning his behaviour was really bad.Bearing in mind he is nearly 10,he sometimes displays behaviour that he should have shown when he was a toddler.

Before school yesterday and ha was a nightmare! He crouched down onto the floor making baby noises and saying ga ga .When you try to talk to him he just asks like a baby making daft noises and grunts,yet when he's 'good' he's lovely and a pleasure to be with.I really don't know what comes over him when he acts like this .It's so annoying and frustrating.

L goes to see a child community doctor next Tuesday about his longterm behaviour problems, so I'm hoping to get a few answers.

I had a fit yesterday and a bit of a screaming session.I was out in my garden-love my plants!! when I saw something move out of the corner of my eye-a bloody rat,aarrggh!!.They are totally disgusting.When I first moved here 5 years ago,I heard scratching  noises in the extension roof.Because there were a lot of birds about I presumed it was them.

How wrong I was.The house next door to me had a crack in their drain underneath the concrete(apparently there used to be a toilet there and it hadn't been blocked off properly).Anyhow,nine months later and twice weekly visits from enviromental health,they decided to dig out my bathroom and the yard next door.The rats were living in my cavity wall and my extension roof!!

Even though they never gained access to my house,knowing that they were in my wall and bathroom roof, was really bad.At the time I had them,I went away for a week and when we came back,my house smelled like you wouldn't believe.When the health services came,two of the rats had died in the roof and decomposing!!!Never smelt anything like it.

Anyhow,haven't heard a thing for 5 years thank Heavens.So yesterday when I saw one I rand the health dept straight away.They said they would contact me in 2 days-don't rush will you?? There is a lot of building work and renovation going on in this area at the moment and I do think when we have a lot of rain they tend to come out of the sewer more.Hope that's the last of the matter.

Hope I haven't made anyone too squeamish.

AaveARRGGHHH!!! I have placed an entry on a forum which I also comment on sometimes.Today, I wrote about a celeb that has advertised a slimming product and claimed to have lost 4 stone due to eating healthy and exercise.She looks amazing and as a presenter she is my fave.But,I have real concerns that people in the public eye pontificate to the public about how to acheive their 'perfect' weight.I have seen young women with anorexia and bulimia being interviewed by her and I'm quite miffed that this woman has pulled the wool over vulnerable womens eyes.

There are women out there with major weight related health issues who need encouragement and genuine advice on how to lose weight.The media places enormous strain on society to look slim and perfect.This makes me so mad!!

I wrote this as my blog today because some twit on the forum I go on said I was jealous.AARRGGHH> It's not that at all.I have lost weight recently going to a slimming club and it's been bloody hard work and I have been successful in doing so.It's not about a weight issue at all-it's about honesty,decency and the ability to admit our faults and failings.

The media has a lot to answer for as regards body image and obesity levels rising.Could go on and on about this, I am so mad.

  Back to school today after a good half term,and it was back to school with a 'bang'.I went to school a bit earlier today to ask the head for a letter to take with me to L's assessment next week and when I got there,L was stood in the foyer in his PE kit.When I asked him why he said a girl in his class called him 'stinky' so he called her it back and he got sent out of the lesson.I went to see his teacher(who is the most obnoxious,arrogant and domineering woman I know).She said he had a fantastic morning but at lunch time he 'got into a situation' as she put it and had to be sent to the head.She said he hadn't met good enough standards this year and his work wasn't very good but she couldn't praise his twin enough saying he was a fantastic student that had come on in leaps and bounds.She said he was really good on the school council and that he'd met councillors and MP's and was highly intelligent.I told her she was wrong to compare my children-just because they are twins,they are individuals.She said that if I didn't 'buckle down' and nip his behaviour in the bud by the time he reached senior school,he would be there two days and then get expelled.

I told her she was wrong to compare my boys and she had no right to say what would happen to him at senior school.No one can see the future like that.She said he was disruptive in class and when I asked in what way she couldn't give me a direct answer.So I said it-YOU DON'T LIKE MY SON DO YOU? She just said 'well he's difficult to teach'.!!!

I offered to bring him home at lunch time to keep him out of trouble and she said yes.I then said why should I have to do that.Then the cheeky cow said,Well,even mothers who work don't have to take their children home for lunch'.I could have hit her,I don't work because I don't have childcare for my boys and we manage with just my partner working at the moment.She is such a condescending old bag and I really don't like her.I was really looking forward to them going into her class this year and we have had nothing but hassle.

The thing is L knows she doesn't like him so I don't think there is any respect there,because she basically has it in for him.I was in this situation when I was small so I know how he feels.The teacher concerned makes me feel inferior never mind my little boy.Can't wait for this term to end.