Well the boys were back to school yesterday, yippee!!! 

I know thats sounds horrible but they were just starting to get on each other's nerves and mine. So i caught up on a few jobs yesterday and should be doing more today but it's not the weather for it.  Its raining and a bit chilly so i decided a hot drink, laptop and bed would be a good choice until i have to pick the boys up from school. I'm still suffering from effects of the flu so i don't even feel guilty about it. I've been busy this morning making phone calls without being interupted so i've got everything sorted out for now. I've had to cancel my gym membership because i was finding it too hard to get there, i really need to loose weight but the 40mins in the car there and back was just taking up too much time. Eddie has finally orgainised re-finance on the house so hopefully in the next 4 months we'll have the shed and patio finished, then i can get him to build my chook pen and get the gardens ready for planting, i can't wait!!!  First thing though he has to get my pantry and linen cupboards finished or thats it, i'll have to stop looking after him so well until he does, lol!  There is so much to do and because we are going to try and do the majority ourselves it will take time, and lots of it!

The boys were happy to be back at school yesterday, they've missed their friends and even enjoyed schoolwork! Not sure how long that will last....   Billy was really good at getting ready for school yesterday but back to the usual this morning, cranky little boy that he is!! 

I've been trying so hard to accept that Eddie and i won't be having a baby together (his choice not mine) but its a struggle most days, even worse now that i've found out 2 of my neighbours are TTC, how will i cope? I'm so happy for them and excited but feeling very jealous as well. I don't think i've ever felt jealous before so its all new and confusing for me. I love reading about all our Minti Mum's that are expecting, (some sound very close today!), but i don't have to see you all everyday! Now i really sound nasty don't i!  Oh well, i'm hoping that in time i'll get over it and it won't effect me as much. Eddie and i had another talk about it the other night. He hasn't changed his mind, however i did make it clear to him that as much as i love him it will always be there between us. It won't stop me from loving him in any way but i will always wonder about what could've been. Anyways, now that i've bored you to tears i'd best be off.  Take care everyone and i hope we hear about some safe and quick deliveries!!

Maggie  xoxo

I can't believe it, its been over a week and i still feel like (no nice word comes to mind!), i thought i'd be over it by now. I've tried everything you can imagine but i'm not getting any better. The last resort will be the doctors but i want to avoid antibiotics if i can, not only do they make me sick but then this rotten pill that i've gone back on (for Eddie's sake not mine!) will be useless. It's finally stopped raining but now its really cold, the boys are starting to fight, i'm still trying to catch up on washing, all i want to do is sleep and i basically feel rotten about everything!  Eddie came home in a foul mood yesterday and i think he has passed it on to me. He must have  woke up ok and feeling guilty because i got coffee in bed and it isn't the weekend. Oh how i love him when he behaves!!

Went to Kung Fu Panda, was great, funny and worth seeing it at the movies. Not sure if i was laughing at the movie or at Billy who was in hysterics through most of it!

Stuck in the house for another day, don't want to spread my germs and really don't have the energy or inclination to do anything anyway.

Take care everyone

Maggie  xoxox

Well with Eddie working away so much lately i decided to take off with the boys for a few days, i figured it was better than staying at home all holidays. So we packed up and took off last Monday up to my brother's family's place in Calliope, it took just about all day to get up there. With 2 quick pit stops and a stop at a friend's place in Bundaberg for about 2 hours to give the boys something to do after over 5 hours in the car, it was about 7.5 hours driving all up. It was so good to catch up with everyone, we hadn't seen them since last September school holidays. Both my neices are growing up so fast and my nephew is getting so tall. Their place has turned into a real hobby farm, so the boys had a great time getting dirty and playing with goats, chooks, geese, pigs etc, etc. We all had a great time but just when i thought i was over the flu  for this year i've caught something even worse, not sure if it was from my family or the goats, lol!  I had planned to do the same stops on the way home but i felt so sick all i wanted was to click my heels together and get here asap, so we didn't get to visit anyone on the way home (i'm not one to spread my germs anyway!). The trip was ok until we hit Brissy as usual, even though i tried to avoid getting there a peak hour we managed it anyway.

So i've got some catching up to do, reading blogs etc.....   Eddie is working close to home for the next 2 weeks now so that is good, i hope!  Had to do some shopping today and the boys spent the last of their savings on a new game and controllers for their Wii so they are really happy. And we have promised if they behaved really well, which they have been doing much to my amazement, we would take them to see Kung Foo Panda tomorrow night. Even i'm excited, it looks like a great movie. Well i hope you are all doing ok, glad i didn't miss any early births while i was away!!!

Maggie  xoxo

Two more days and the boys are on holidays, it doesn't feel that long since the last lot!!  Or do i  feel like that because there seems to be at least one home sick every week??  It was Billy today, so i'm hoping that after 2 weeks off school they'll be over it all and the kids that keep infecting them will be better too!!  Well Eddie is away AGAIN, this new job was supposed to not have as much travel but it seems to me its more.  Not impressed!  But i guess its $$$ and he really likes what he is doing, its more of a challenge (i thought thats why he had me!! lol). 

I'm a bit of a news buff, and need to watch at least one news show a day or get online to keep up with whats going on in the world.  It's probably me just being naturally nosey!!  But this week i've been actively trying to avoid it.  Why?  Because of all the terrible things that are happening here, so close to home.  I've been in tears so many times since last week over the unnecessary deaths and abuse of children.  Even though i know its not uncommon and it happens on a daily basis in homes all over the world, knowing it can happen in our country is impossible to comprehend.  We all know as parents that not enough is being done for these children to avoid the horrific outcomes and i also know how bad situations have to be before the state will even consider removing a child.  Why is this?  I don't think anybody has an answer for that one.  I know that if i had any incling that a child was at risk i would be straight on the phone to Dept of Families and Police.  I know this doesn't insure an investigation but at least i would know i've done what i can and hopefully other people seeing what is going on will do the same.  I'm sick of seeing and hearing people saying "i wish i would've done something...... "  It's not that hard to make a phone call and if you are wrong then so be it, but if you can save the life of a child then its more than worth it.  And if you do make a call and you can see nothing is being done then keep calling if thats what it takes. 

I've read a certain "Q&A" and i'm dumbfounded at what has been written and supposedly done to a certain member.  I'm also pretty damn mad about it.  If it is a "true situation" then i feel that there is some serious problems in this family for authorities to act the way they have and if it turns out not to be a "true situation" it's a sad way to get attention from well-meaning parents. I'm expecting backlash for these comments and if you feel the need to "report" me go for it!  I just had to vent my opinions and that is what our "blogs" are for.  But if the reason this is happening  to this family is because of the church she is in then she needs to think of her children first and move far away from any of these people she has been in contact with. As great as we all are at giving advice, this parent needs to be off her computer and getting help.  As a parent your children's health and safety must always come first.  If i've ruffled your feathers, good!   Because i've just about pulled all mine out over this one!!

Maggie