Well it turns out i didn't have the flu at all (my last blog) i was indeed pregnant! It wasn't until the next morning that i thought i could've been, and my early period turned out to not be that at all!! And all this after we have been so careful, but i guess it only takes one of those little swimmers!! Well i went for a blood test on the Sunday, the doctor (not my usual one) said i most definately was but to come back the next day for the result.  Eddie and i had a big talk about things and even though we were both stunned, especially since the miscarriage being not so long ago, we were happy and he was really excited!! Well i went back for my results and had to see another doctor, neither my regular doctor or the one i saw the day before were available. I ended up with a really rude lady doctor  who said that the blood test indicated that i was either only just pregnant or the baby had died inside of me. Well i was so upset and furious i didn't know what to say. Then she told me to come back in a week for another one to work out which it was. I left in tears, rang Eddie who swore really badly and said he should've come with me and given her a piece of his mind! Because i had all the symptoms and feelings(including morning sickness) we decided not to worry too much until the next blood test. Well during last week i had another miscarriage, i went and saw my usual doctor and she confirmed it all. She said that i should let her do a few tests to investigate why i've had the 2 miscarriages this year, but i said not to worry. I didn't tell her that Eddie really didn't want a baby anyway (so he says), even though he seemed more upset this time. Anyways i'm feeling much better this week, still sad and upset but i can accept it better this time i think. Eddie has been great, even though the boys didn't know they seem to have realised something is up with Mum and have been fairly well behaved. Eddie is driving me crazy about the contraception thing though, he knows that the Pill makes me sick and i can't take it and i refuse to get my tubes tied (because i do want another baby), the whole IUD thing is not my cuppa tea and he complains everytime he has to use a condom (lazy bugger!). I've been researching the Mini-Pill today and i think i'll see my doctor about that, i haven't used it before because i was worried about its reliability but i guess its better than nothing. The last thing i want this year is another miscarriage, i just don't think i could handle that again so soon.

Well i'm really looking forward to the weekend, I think the boys are more excited about Mother's Day than i am. They have all got me something from the P&C Mother's Day Stall at school this week and can't wait for me to open the presents. Sunday will be busy visiting my Mum and Eddie's Mum but i'm sure it will be a great day.

To all you Minti Mum's "Happy Mother's Day" !

Maggie