Well the boys were back to school yesterday, yippee!!! 

I know thats sounds horrible but they were just starting to get on each other's nerves and mine. So i caught up on a few jobs yesterday and should be doing more today but it's not the weather for it.  Its raining and a bit chilly so i decided a hot drink, laptop and bed would be a good choice until i have to pick the boys up from school. I'm still suffering from effects of the flu so i don't even feel guilty about it. I've been busy this morning making phone calls without being interupted so i've got everything sorted out for now. I've had to cancel my gym membership because i was finding it too hard to get there, i really need to loose weight but the 40mins in the car there and back was just taking up too much time. Eddie has finally orgainised re-finance on the house so hopefully in the next 4 months we'll have the shed and patio finished, then i can get him to build my chook pen and get the gardens ready for planting, i can't wait!!!  First thing though he has to get my pantry and linen cupboards finished or thats it, i'll have to stop looking after him so well until he does, lol!  There is so much to do and because we are going to try and do the majority ourselves it will take time, and lots of it!

The boys were happy to be back at school yesterday, they've missed their friends and even enjoyed schoolwork! Not sure how long that will last....   Billy was really good at getting ready for school yesterday but back to the usual this morning, cranky little boy that he is!! 

I've been trying so hard to accept that Eddie and i won't be having a baby together (his choice not mine) but its a struggle most days, even worse now that i've found out 2 of my neighbours are TTC, how will i cope? I'm so happy for them and excited but feeling very jealous as well. I don't think i've ever felt jealous before so its all new and confusing for me. I love reading about all our Minti Mum's that are expecting, (some sound very close today!), but i don't have to see you all everyday! Now i really sound nasty don't i!  Oh well, i'm hoping that in time i'll get over it and it won't effect me as much. Eddie and i had another talk about it the other night. He hasn't changed his mind, however i did make it clear to him that as much as i love him it will always be there between us. It won't stop me from loving him in any way but i will always wonder about what could've been. Anyways, now that i've bored you to tears i'd best be off.  Take care everyone and i hope we hear about some safe and quick deliveries!!

Maggie  xoxo