Here we go i am going to be completley truthful here as i haven't logged on for quite a while and a lot has happened, flippin heck where to start!!!!! firstly Rhys turned 24wks last tuesday i started weaning him late June.
I found this quite difficult, that's not quite true akward maybe, there are so many books out there telling you different things on what you should give at what times etc
the main one i've found is that they expect you to give a bottle aroung 10pm sod that!!!!! Rhys has been in a routine since 2 months he is in bed before 7.15pm and that's that. He is such a joy , at the moment i am waking him up with the lion king cd, so imagine i get everything ready breakfast, milk, water, dummy. Walk in he's staring up at me (thinking is it morning yet?) i put his cd on and the circle of life comes on first , i open his curtains and he's there smiling up at me lifting his legs in the air, oh god i love it, lifting him up saying good morning sweetheart and giving him a big kiss!!!!
for a first time mam weaning is a nightmare as no one really tells you how much to give and how much you reduce the milk by and when etc etc it's hard the last thing i want to do is do the wrong thing, but over worrying is also not good as you should just take your que from your baby and go with the flow. If i give him baby food pots or packets i try and use organic, the same goes for fresh homecooked meals when ever poss i try and buy organic just to give him the best start. (it's just what i've decided to do)
At the moment he is on
7.30am breakfast & 5oz bottle
11.30am Dinner & 5oz bottle
3pm 4oz bottle
5pm tea
6.45 5oz bottle and bed
This is a long blog as i've been away and i'm kind of explaining why,
Things have also been quite stressful with my husband and myself latley, he is in the armed forces as a medic (he doesn't get sent away thank god), but this regiment don't really treat the soldiers and their families with respect for example
We lived on the 16th floor of a tower block and the carpets needed changing from previous tenants and now with a baby i put my foot down, they wouldn't change them so instead moved us to the 29th floor!!! now!! the lifts are constantly breaking down as this building is over 40yrs old and has been badly maintained so 3 times in the last 3weeks i've had to carry Rhys up and down 29 flights of stairs!!! (i am moe angry as i have degenerative discs in my back and wear on my spine, god knows how i've managed to do that but i am now on a concontion of tablets for the rest of my life blah blah) so when i pipe up they take it out on my husband, so he is stressed with everything and comes home in a bad mood and has been snapping at me and blocking me out a lot latley, so that has also been hard.
I have been feeling that i have been plunging myself into being a mammy and trying to do everything and when i ask for help it has been like i have just asked him to cut his leg off.
I love pasha he is a wonderful man and i know this isn't him but untill he talks to someone or me it coontinues to be very srtessful for me oh here we go yes i feel like crying inside but keep a happy smile on the outside as i am now a mammy and i have to.
So there you go haven't had much time to log on and chill out but i'm sure things will get better, that's life isn't it ? shit happens to test you you get through it lots of nice things happen and some shit things but you get through them you have to and hopefully with a smile Don't let the bugars grind you down is what i say!!