It all started on Friday morning I wasn't expecting anything out of the ordinary and a mum came up to me with her daughter and she asked me if I was working today (friday) and I said 'no' and she said her daughter loved it on the days I was there and all she does is talk about me.  I soooo needed that boost to my low self esteem.  Then I went into school for our book reading meeting and we got chatting with the teachers and I mentioned that it was so hard to get a TA job and one of the mum who already had a TA qualification said she was finding it hard to get a job as a TA, too, and one of the teachers who knows I help out in reception said she thinks I would make a lovely TA because I'm always smiling and the children love me. My ego got so big it's a wonder I managed to get out the door, lol.  Then later one of the little boys in my class lost his mum at home time and I helped him find her, and it just took that small incident to remind me who I am.

Then today when I was at work I got asked if I could do a few extra hours on Monday, well that got rid of the paranoia for good.  Funny how a few small things can make such a big difference.  I think we all need to feel needed and for us caring and being cared for is the essential part of being human.  I can find it does me just as much good caring for someone else as it does when someone cares for me.  Does that make sense? 

Only three more days till the school holidays, can't wait, got so much stuff that I want to do just hope I get to do it all.  Have a great 6 weeks off and thank you to everyone that has helped me through these last few days.