Writing the advice I did recently has really helped my head work things out, it was the best bit of self therapy I have done well other than the depression advice.   Never thought Minti would help me sort my head out better than a councillor could.  Councillors used to always ask me questions and then ask me why I felt the way I did, well I really didn't know why at the time, I thought they were supposed to provide me with answers.  It's really weird but this all started with someone asking a question just didn't realise it would provoke such strong emotions.  I am all written out now and hubby is not happy with me so think I'll be having a tea break until next time, lol.   Take care all my nearest and dearest friends I love ya xxxx

With all that's been going on recently on Minti haven't been able to blog because didn't think anyone would have the time to take any notice. 

Anyway kids are back at school today thought I would be over the moon but feeling a bit lost and just can't get myself back to a routine. 

I had my mum and dad over this sunday and it broke my heart to see my dad looking so old he could barely walk and could barely hear me, I know we all grow old eventually but to see it happen to someone I knew had so much energy and had worked all his life even beyond retirement age he looked so lost and helpless.  He hasn't been able to venture out of the house since November 2007 (due to osteoarthritis and siatica) so he been stuck indoors because he can't walk very well and being a proud man he won't ask anyone for help,  I knew how much he enjoyed going shopping so I offered to take him to the shops in my car and it made me feel good doing something for him that made him happy.  

Have been busy ebaying a load of stuff I'm sure I'm addicted to ebay I never seem to run out of things to sell I'll soon be selling the clothes on my back, lol.  I hope this site settles down and goes back to the way things were before all this fighting and arguing because it will be a shame for me to lose my only support network that I have to keep me sane.

Take care all love ya xxxx

Who has ever heard of a man wanting to clean?? My one has driven me insane today he keeps nagging me to help him clean, ahhhhh I just want to play on Minti.   He's gone out now thank goodness I can relax we have spent most of the day changing the bedding and cleaning the kitchen, now my hands and arms and back hurts. Yes I know I should  be grateful that I have a man that helps around the house but he wears me out.  I am losing track of the days already keep thinking everyday is Sunday with everyone being at home.  What has everyone else been doing????

What a day, went to dentist luckily Alex didn't need fillings but his teeth did need a good clean think I had forgotten what colour they were supposed to be, lol.   Then dentist did nag him about cleaning them properly it was great finally someone else nagging him about his teeth other than me.  Then we went out for lunch we have a great chinese here which has a buffet and for a fiver you can go and help yourselves as many times as you want, I was such a pig I was fit to bursting.  Then I had to take him to get his eyes checked and more expense cause he needed new lenses.  Why do school holidays always seem so expensive.  Haven't had much of a chance to come on here and now that I am on here it's time for my beauty sleep, not that is has ever done me any good, lol.  So goodnight my dear friends I'll try and catch up with most of you tomorrow sorry if I have missed anyone out today.  Love ya

Got to stop going on Minti

Not getting anything done

Keep wanting to chat to everyone

Help!!!!!!!!

Must go now need a shower and do stuff..............see ya later, lol.

I am sooo relieved at long last we got the results and they were clear.  I have been able to smile and be myself again.  Daniel is still recovering and his throat is still sore but that is normal after this kind of op and the lymph node that has come up where the other one was removed is also normal and should go away.  If I have learnt anything from this experience is that if you are planning an op like this prepare yourself for the recovery process some children recover quite quickly but some don't.  I feel like I know sooo much about this now I could do an advice page, lol.  Thanks to everyone that supported me through this horrible time I love you all loads and I hope I can be there for you all when you need me too. xxxxxxx

Daniel had op but recovery was not good he was very ill after op and they had to put him on a drip and give him antibiotics and painkiller intravenously, and he vomited blood up three times, anyway after loads of painkillers he eventually managed to eat and drink small amounts about 2pm yesterday and they decided to discharge him. We are home now it was a bit of a struggle this morning to get him to take his medication and painkillers because he refused it cause his throat hurt but we got there in the end. I feel drained, tired and very emotional at the moment and I've got to take him back to hospital on the 13th for check up and results of biopsy, not looking forward to that because Daniel will not want to go there again.   Well there is something I have learned from this and that is bribery and blackmail doesn't work on a very sick child, lol.  Hope you are all well, love Maria x

This was suggested by Janice and I do like getting to know people better so this is a little about me. 

I love food and being able to cook a variety of dishes, cooking something I really enjoy and my family enjoy eating gives me soooo much personal satisfaction.  I believe anyone can cook and I have taught myself over the years with the help of a lot of cookbooks.

I also love talking once I start I find it hard to stop, lol.

I love spending time with children especially when I volunteer at my local Infant school (ages 4-6) children are so unique even at such a young age and they have such a zest for life that it makes me feel young again.  I love teaching them and giving them encouragement and watching their little faces light up when you say something nice.  Hopefully once Daniel is better I'll try for another school job. 

Afraid that's it, can't think of anything else..........other than love spending time reading my friends comments and replying on Minti, ooops

Really feeling nervous now, went to hospital today for Daniel's pre op check up and they were happy with his health, just need to get through Wednesday and then it all starts.  Won't be able to go on minti thur and fri cause I'll be in hospital with him hopefully should be able to update everyone on Saturday.  Take care all and thanks for your support.

Got phone call from hospital today hopefully op is scheduled for 7th Feb and Daniel has got his pre op check up on the 5th Feb just hope he is well enough for it, because today he has not been feeling well complaining of feeling sick and he has diarohhea.  Just had enough of everything, think I've been holding it in for too long, finally losing my marbles.