Im an idiot.The thing about my boyfreind keeping his distance and not giving me some "quality time".well the guy is sorry we talked hes buggered,working with little sleep and not much dinner either. So i will need to shut up and wait till we both have some time to be with each other without the stress.Sorry for being a sooky sooky lala girl.

Im upset,hurt ,feelng rejected and amazed.in that order.I got my implanon out on the 22nd of august and since then my boyfriend has hardly been near me,yes i mean in the way you are thinking.I thought that we were planning a baby and if i haven't forgotten it takes a bit more than looking at me.We haven't had any "love making" hardly kissing,hugging nothing.Is he afraid that i will get pregnant,what does he expect thats what we planned. Im really feeling down it wasnt meant to be like this,doesnt matter im just venting. normally i would have put this in Q & A but im open enough to blog it ,its happening to all of us maybe not at the same time but others must feel what im saying. Then its the conversations that start like "you know how things are at the moment with money" oh here we go,that debate to do with money and expense ,whats more important a new car or a baby. Maybe ill just shut up.thanks for listening anyway.

I am in hopefully i get this right...1.TYBERIUS...think 2.Patrick Swayze What is the name of fergies daughter. what band was known for the song "rhiannon" what would you be eating if you had a"golden delight"

.Hi there people,well im new at this just thought id give it a go before saying i can't. I went to a familt planning clinic yesterday to have my implant out. To start that magical ride we all have been through getting ready to concieve a child that you expect will be better thn anything in the world(really its pooey nappies,late nights,early mornings,vomit and gas) and most of that is me.I had a cystic fibrosis test as my nephew has it and had he not came along we would never had realised it.It has been a big thing to my sister and mother but never to me as i did not expect to have another child . knowing before that my children form the first marriage were ok put my mindat ease. Then my husband and i split up. So now im starting a new life with my boyfriend and wonderful partner Paul.We discussed children at the beginning of our relationship but it was all just thoughts, now its happening.I have had the implanon out,awaiting test results of the cf test,going on iron supplements and taking it easy.I was in hospital monday with dizzy spells and shakes,nausea.im thinking im pregnant but turns out i could have a heart problem,i hope it doesnt effect me getting pregnant,i mean carrying a baby is a strain on you isnt it. Next on our agenda is trying to eat well and discussing all the pros and cons of water birth. which i so want?? Paul has never had children and is really keen to have anything happen as its all going to be wonderful.updates later.......mel 27/8/06 HEY IS THERE AN UPDATE ON PROUD MUMMY YET.......shes due soon or now i havent heard much. Also i have an update on my medical condition.all of the symtoms i have had for years are now gone completely since i had my implanon out.(no disrepect to implanon using people,but im glad its out). i have never felt more energetic and alive.