Ok, well it has been awhile since my last blog (confession? Oh dear, i have been watching way to much TV!) But we are having internet problems blah blah blah.

Well alot has been happening in the life of Nikki. First thing is that my bestest favourite friend lost a baby. She went for a dating scan and was told that she had had a miscarrage. Alot of sadness and grief. She had a blood test which must have shown elevated hormone levels so she was booked into another scan a week later. She had given up hope, but I was so absolutely convinced that everything will be ok, that I started to convince her, she went back to taking the vitamins, only to find out later that it was all over and had to have it removed at the hospital the next day. Obviously being pregnant myself, a good friend and a mother myself I grieved with her. I feel so awful for getting her hopes up, but I was so very sure it would turn out to be just like it was with me. My scan was out by about 2 weeks to the date the doctor estimated and everything turned out fine for me, the embryo just took ages to implant itself or something. I got her hopes up, and another friend at mothers group who she told had a similar thing with her baby. I feel so guilty, I dont know what I was thinking, I didnt want her to give up hope, but really, a doctor does have the medical qualifications to back them up. So it was a long and difficult 2 weeks for her and her family. She is actually doing very well now though. Taking solice in her beautiful son and they are planning to try again at the end of the year.

Back to me, I had a random growth cut of my back which turned out to be rather bad. Malignant cancer. It actually started out as a sweat glad, how gross is that! When I was pregnant with Caitlin I had a pimple looking thing which grew and grew and was removed after I had her and turned out to be cancerous, but not bad. So when this random lump thing I have had on the back of my neck started to multiply I showed the doc who had never seen anything like it, luckily she removed it becuase of the last one so there is nothing to worry about now, jsut have to keep my eye on the scar to ensure that nothing grows out of it basically. Has anyone heard of that before? Pregnancy causing cancerous things to grow so quickly?

Caitlin is doing great. She is getting to be such a big girl, teething again the poor darling, she is such a bad teether, she is in so much pain and it is so hard to watch, and put up with her! Honestly, she is a little terror sometimes! But so beautiful she usually gets away with it! Cheeky pants she is too, she doesnt have many words but boy does she understand alot! Not that she does what she is told most of the time mind you, but she understands none-the-less!

Guppy is growing pretty quickly too! I am definately pregnant now, I hardly showed till about 6 months with Caitlin so it is scary being that big already, hopefully I dont have a 10 tonne tessa! I am going for my 20 week scan at the start of March, cant wait, fingers crossed we find out what it is!  I will post some pics of Caitlin and my growing belly when I can be bothered to wait 600 years for them to upload.

Anyways, this is a massively long blog for me. So it should tide you over for a little while! LOL! I cant wait till we sort out the computer and I am back on track with Minti, I am missing even more than I usually miss! LOL!