Soz for being so long winded!

I sneaked a preg test from work n yes it was negative =( Mick said we shouldn't try till i get to my 'healthy' weight which is 47kg...the thing is iv NEVER been over 43kg and that was only when i lived with my nan and had 2 poached eggs on toast for breaky, lunch and a baked dinner every day! oh and there was always dessert YUM! Mick says the baby wont have anything to feed on (makes the baby sound like a parasite!)

Im going to go to Dr Molloy to talk to her before we even start to try for baby but she's not in till Monday and i need advice nowish =) and since i work in a dr's surgery 5 days a week il always be close if i need help or have any questions so if im with my dr all the time maybe me being underweight wont matter so much?? I want to travel, and get my house first because when you have a dependant as the banks put it i say cute baby you can borrow less money so i want to get the house before i at least start to show, i can be sneaky lol but 50,000 is a long way off! but really how important is having my own home as long as we have a roof over our heads and we can survive and if Mick and i live together we can have more rent money il just be paying someone else's morgatge boo!

I dont know how many ppl on Minti know where bouts i live so il try n explain im at Warners Bay near Newy... but houses are really expensive,  but my work is in Warners Bay so id save on petrol im thinking of buying in Bonnells Bay 1/2 hr away but is cheaper and my dad and sis are here- mum's here too but we don't talk and she's not being involved in our life and Mick's family are here (im still deciding wether thats a good thing or not...) Maria (my old next door neighbour/adopted Nanna) is here too-but id need to buy a car...which i want to anyways Proton Savvy (spraypainted purple- oh yeeah!) but id be driving an hour (total) to and from work and thats alot of petrol money i dont know which would work out to be the best investment in the long run....and i want my bub to go to daycare at warners bay so he/she is close to me but i need to ask around at the prices and i work long hours 9-6 M,T-F 8-5 Tues, 8-1 Wed but i dont have to work wed but the extra $50 is nice and its making it easier at the surgery so i dont know how many can work in with my hours

Im sure his parents would let me move in and the extra help would be great but it gets a bit crazy in this house mabye we can get the granny flat hmm?

haha Mick just came in and read this n i snorted ah how embarrasing!

Im nervous but im so close to tossing out the bc but i dont want to regret it well not so much regret it but i dont want to make it harder for us then im sure its going to be...lol im sure everyone on here is so sick of me and just thinking get preggers already! sorry!

and poor Ollie has been missing since since last Wednesday i printed off flyers to hand out friday but hope is fading i miss him so much and cry at stupid things i found one of his hairs in my jacket and burst into tears =(