We are home. Things went well.

For the long story check out Jedd's caringbridge site.

He was in the OR for about3 hours. They closed the fistula and he came out of sedatin fine but in alot of pain. It took about 30-45 mins to get it completely under control. I had to fight for morphine for him. I mean, really, he just has his penis cut on, get the boy some morphine!!!! LOL After a good dose he did great. He mostly just wanted to get HOME!!!!

They gave him some Versed (anxiety med) to help him be OK with leaving us and going away to the O.R. This was a good plan as he really had a difficult time just oign back to triage and getting vitals.

The worse part of the day really was waiting an extra 2 hours because they were running way behind schedule to day.

But, he's in bed sound asleep. I gave him some Motrin and will wake him here in a bit for some Tylenol. I want to keep that pain away for good.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers everyone!!!

We will arrive at the surgery center on the 3rd floor of the children's hosp. at 9:00 for check in.

They will take Jedd back at 11:00 for his repair. Thanks for your thoughts.

I updated his Caring Bridge site tonight as well. The link is on my homepage.

Jedd will be going back to the O.R. this Tuuesday, Aug. 18. I do not know the time yet, as I have to call tomorrow morning.

He is having his hypospadias done again. A surgery that was to take one repair is now on it's third. :-( I'm worried.

For those of you who don't know, he had a malformed urethra at birth. This is what a hypospadias is. Since the last repair, he has another fistula "hole" that is dripping urine. He is also bending pretty good to one side when he pees in the potty.

Please pray he won't have alot of post op swelling this time. I think that may be the root of the issue of the repairs failing, he swells and breaks the stitches.

Just pray that all things go well.

If you haven't noticed I haven't been around much lately.

About 5 weeks ago I found out I was expecting. It was a one time deal. We didin't use protection once and BAM I am knocked up!!! LMAO But seriously our life got turned upside down. I have NO Health Insurance. So this was NOT a good thing.

After a week we settled into the idea that we would have to go along with the curve ball life had thrown at us.

The bleeding started about that point. I was in a panic as I CAN'T go see a DR. I have NO coverage. I scrambled and call every type of clinic I could think of. NOONE would see me period. If you don't have insurance and can't pay out of pocket they won't even schedule you for a visit. GREAT isn't it.

I started the massive red tape that is government insurance.  I fought with them to get the right papers sent away and the right forms filled out.  All the while, I am still bleeding. Not only that, I have a history of Tubal Pregnancies so I really really needed to get seen to rule that out so I would not DIE!!! Literally.

After 4 weeks of this I'd had enough and went to the local ER to get seen. It shoudl get covered since the paper work I sent off was dated prior to that visit. HOEPFULLY. If not we are out a few thousand dollars.

My HCG levels were only at 58 at the time they drew them then. So basically unless some type of miracle comes through we have lost this baby.

This is my 3rd one and it hurts worse than any of the others. Maybe because we have Jedd now, I don't know. I just know it hurts. ALOT. Period.

I am now in the acceptance phase of this grieving BTW. There was a time when I went through all the whys. I actually asked God why. I mean why did it take 6.5 years to concieve Jedd only to get pregnant on the first try only to miscarry. Life seemed so unfair.

I already got a letter in the mail from the government program saying we are accepted as long as we can prove we are US citizens.

Life has been rough, but with all we have been through with Jedd and now this, well, we will survive some  how.

Thanks for all your thoughts. I know Pia has put in a prayer request for me one of the groups and for that I am grateful. ((HUGS))