My name is Carol and i'm 34. i have 6 wonderful children. Porter is 14, Maggie is 11, Jean is 8, the twins Keagen and Milo are 3, and Arthur would be 2. My first husband John was very nice but never there. Right after we got married he disappeared for almost a year. i was desperate for love and took him back. after Porter was born he left for another 2 years and when he came back i was angry and tried to get a divorce, but before i knew it i was pregnant with Maggie. After Maggie was born he became abusive towards me. i tried to runaway but i had no where to go. When i became pregnant with Jean i finally left him, but he found me and made me come back. When i was 6 months pregnant John died, he committed suicide. I was happy to have out of my life but angry i was alone.  5 years later i married Wayne. I got pregnant so we immediately got married. After the twins, Keagen and Milo were born i was finally happy.  Wayne ended up getting a job where he was rarely home. when the twins were 1 i became pregnant again. With a little boy. we had decided to name him Arthur and we couldn't have been more excited. but when the baby was born 2 months early he was too small to live. his lungs finally gave out when he was only 15 days old. Since then Wayne and i have grown far apart and were finally getting a divorce. the divorce will be final in about a month. I have full custody of the twins along with all of my other kids. I currently have a wonderful boyfriend and i want to marry him. He has 2 kids who are 5 and 6, December is 5 and Ross is 6. After my divorce is final we want to get married but our families don't think we should, mostly because i just got divorced. We are currently trying to have a baby so we do have a reason to get married. i know it sounds bad but it really isn't. we haven't had any luck in getting pregnant but hopefully something will happen.