Hard to believe a whole year has gone by since I held my newborn daughter in my arms, she would have been just under 3 hours old right now, where has the time gone. A year of firsts for her, first smile, first roll over, first sit up, first crawl, first word, first stand, first step . *brief pause while I gain control of myself .. sniff sniff* . All my love to you my sweet Ayla and to your brother and sister too, I look forward a long and wonderful future with you!!! My birthday wish to you is to always be happy, healthy, and wise! You are my 3 and last baby and will always be my special little surprise bundle, and no matter how old I am or how old you are you will always be my baby!! I love you.

As a special treat I thought I would add this picture, it was taken a few weeks ago, it is Ayla and her grandma, and yes that is how she looks and acts whenever anyone but mommy holds her!

Well what a long week it has been. Visitations, funeral, a wake, all in 3 days, hubby was gone for nearly a week, he gets home and all we have been doing is fighting, I think his mom brain washed him lol, I always have been and always will be "that woman that took my baby away". Oh well.
On a wow note, Ayla walked for the first time yesterday, one step, then two, then three.. but today nothing, tried several times to get her to try, but she doesnt want to haha. I am a bit sad today though, this time last year I was pregnant for the very last time, sniff sniff, Ayla will be 1 tomorrow and so ends the saga of my baby years!!   *Eyes welling with tears for the millionth time today*
I hear the kids fighting over something so I guess I will go, amazing how quiet it is during the day, until Will gets home and Hannah just has to argue and fight with him over the smallest of things!!!

Ok well maybe this is just me ranting about something trivial but I am really annoyed right now!!! I just wrote an article for advice on my son having a christmas cookie decorating party and as soon as I was finished and tried to publish it , it was reported because I used the word knife, which was a very innocent word in the context as it goes along with plastic .. plastic knife that they use to decorate the cookies with .. argh .. I realize that sometimes comments and advice get reported due to abuse etc, but come on, it is getting out of hand, everytime I come on here something has been reported. I think that eventually people will stop writing advice articles because you never know if they will be published or not because you put a certain word or phrase in it! Ok there is my moan for the day, maybe I am alone in my thinking, but as I said I am very annoyed!!!

My sweet little baby learned how to give kisses yesterday, so it was a day of a million wet sloppy goopy kisses, the best feeling in the world!!!
I cant believe that in a matter of days Ayla is going to be 1 years old, I think I cry every day, I almost think I have become slightly depressed over the idea, my very last baby isnt going to be a baby anymore!
Everything else is ok here, all the kids are sick with nasty colds, been going on for weeks now, getting tired of wiping noses!!
Will is doing great in school, has a steady girlfriend from the other grade one class, they plan on getting married haha, tried to explain to Will that there will be alot of girls in his life between now and the time he gets married, after all he is only 6, but he is adament about marrying Makenna! Very cute!
Hannah on the other hand has developed a multiple personality of sorts.. one moment a sweet and loveable little girl, next moment wild temper tantruming, purple faced, hand and teeth clenched , screaming wild child!! I really cant wait for the terrible 2s to be over, I never had this with Will and well I will say it is really playing with my emotions, feel like I could just break into a run for door somedays !!!
Oh well ... hope everyone has a great day, I am done ranting like a crazy woman for the day!