i'm on about it again...

yes the shoulder....

it was much much better, but i couldn't resist playing with my three year old, picking her up swinging her round dancing about... big mistake!!!!

and now.. the pain is well and truely back!!!!!

also had a cr*p weekend, spent saturday at the hospital as my nan was found early on saturday morning collapsed in her flat.

she had had a massive stroke and sadly passed away at around 3pm on saturday afternoon, i was there with her....

i'm ok it's very sad and caitlin keeps asking me about 'old nana' as she called her!

i told her that her head was poorly and the drs couldn't make her better so she's died and gone away where we won't see her anymore, but she's not poorly any more...  so it's sad that we won't see her but good that she's not poorly any more...

i think that she's ok with that but what do you tell an inquizitive three year old????!!

i just worry about my dad now...  she was his mum and although he seems to be coping well i'm not sure that he is really.  every now and then he gets upset but has also been making light by saying things like 'my dad's in for some ear ache now!!!'

i suppose the thought of them being together is good and i'm sure that whereever our loved ones may be after they've left here they're all looking upon us and watching over us...

i know that my nan could hear me talking to her before she passed as her responses picked up just before she left us and the thought that she heard our voices and knew that we were with her is a great comfort...

i just hope that she and my mother in law look after my baby for me and don't get in to too many arguements about who's turn it is to do what!!!!!

i hope that this blog has not offended anyone in anyway, it's my thoughts and the way that me and my family are coping right now, i hope that everyone understands... sorry if this is depressing i'm trying to make light and have happy positive thoughts about the situation...

lol to you all and your families xxxx.

twice in one day!!!

i just can't keep away...  i'm moaning again...  it's two weeks on sunday since i started with pain in my neck and shoulder, surely by now it should be settling down????

i'm still in quite a lot of pain!!!  i'm not going to admit how long this blog took to write!!!!

any how, i think it's a trip to the drs next week if i still feel like this!!

moaning over...  for now!!!!

lol xxxx.

i'm glad that i'm still getting friends here on minti, i appreciate the opportunity to chat and exchange thoughts....

lol to everyone who visits me here!!!

and THANKYOU all, xxxx.

shoulder still hurts, though not as bad...

i've got two more weeks working before i have two and a half weeks off!!!!!

i know i've only just started back, but mum and dad are going away and i have to be the one to take time off as craig's self employed, so no work for him means no money for us!!!

i've only done thirty seven and a half hours this month and i've not paid tax or national insurance, surely that's not right??!!!!  i'm not complaining though!!

any how it's nice to see money again, being on unpaid leave was starting to take it's toll on us financially... so now i'm sure that we'll get back on track very soon.

hello to all and hope the weather is as good where you are as it is here... 

lol m2gs.xxxx

very short blog today... mainly cause i feel like i want to chop my right arm off!!! i don't know what i've done but that side of my neck and shoulder are really painful!!!

i hope i've just slept awkwardly cause i've only just started back at work, so i can't go off sick now!!!

anyway lol to all, be happy,

m2g's xxxx.

i survived my first day back at work!!!!

i'm quite proud of myself... had a slight breast problem (leaking!!!) mid morning, but no major issues!!!

the girls were fine, they stayed with my mum, i'm so pleased that they made it through the day too... they didn't get too stressed out, although i can't say the same for my mum!!!

bless her, she's a star...

anyway just thought i'd make a quick note of my survival, just dreading sunday now, craig's looking after both the girls for the first time by himself!!!!

i wonder if the house will still be standing by the time i finish work on sunday afternoon??!!!

thanks for reading!!

lol xxxx.

i don't want to!!!!!!!

 i'm going to have a tantrum tomorrow, i'm going back to work and i really don't want to...

any ideas for survival????

 i've done it before but this time i think it's going to be harder...

financially i've got to do it but emotionally i really don't want to!!!

i know the girls don't want me to go back especially caitlin, but they don't understand the full implication of not going back...

i'll have to just grin and bare it!!

i'm sure i'll survive....  i think!!!!

lol to all xxxx.

back to work next week, i don't know if me or the girls are dreading it more!!!

caitlin definately isn't happy about it...

emily won't take a bottle!! after three weeks of trying!!

o the joy of juggling work and motherhood!! it will be an interesting return, i'm sure!!