man its wonderful being a mum to my two very beautiful and precious children! arianna came into my world on the fith in a rush! a one and half hour labour, very fast and lovely best labour! had nothing to help as the time i walked into hospital i was pushing, it was so amzing giving birth to her! and felt so great afterwards that i got up and walked about textin and eatting lollies, had some nasty afterpains tho. but im back to my pre pregnancy size and gettin my abbs back already absolutly amazing and happy about! but she sleeping through night and dylan is doing very well with her, gives her hugs and holds. im very blessed and lucky :)

well today im due and still the same just braxtn hicks all the time but not turnin into anything!! i been readin danni blogs and i know how she is feelin except not in the pain area yet.. but in the wantin baby to come lol!! i so want to know what she looks like, hold her etc..

i bought dylan a thomas tank engine scooter from ariana wen she is born and also some thomas tank engine toys from her so he can feel spoilt :)

i been takin evening primrose oil tablets< birth mix and raspberry leaf tea. i love that tea!!! i ran out and felt quite desperate for it! so mum has gone out and bought some for me :) it would be interestin to see how taking all this stuff has affected my labour to make it faster or what..

so whu knows wen baby is goin to be born! wiv dylan i was 4 days overdue.  so whu knows

better go

laurenxo

well found out that one of my rabbits were strangled to death and thier might not be a dog but all human> some sick person hu did this strangled my rabbit and tore apart the other.

well today i went to see natalie, natels1 which was great had a good walk and bought a pineapple which have eatten half! and its made my tounge go funny lol. i got back aches from the walk and soon a tummy ache from all that pineapple lol im really tired been addicted to greys antomany season one and two and yay! natels has got the next season so im happy :) ill go around wiv baby and dylan and watch while she holds baby lol well better go me tired and got only one and a half dvds left of the season!

im excited yet nervous for babys arrival every kick and movement hurts my tummy, its scary cause my life will change wen baby comes so its the unknown but i know i will love what life will be>>

laurenxo

well yesterday our family went swimming at the local pools, we came back to find one of our rabbits dead in front yard! we have two and both wonderful pets, my son esp loved pettin them and feedin them. well we were all shocked to see one of the dead rabbits their that my two younger brother and sister ran out to where the hatch was to see if the other rabbit was thier. what they found was the most wrenchin and saddest sights! the other rabbit was torn to pieces it was gutted and torned apart!!! it was the most horrible thing!!! the most horrible thing of all was that our hatch is dog proof< had two big pots on the top and a rope tied down so no dogs can get in the hatch, that means that a person who had been watching us leave came unto our section had opened up our hatch, picked up our rabbits and feed them to their dog in our yard!!!!!! how disgusting this person is sick!!!!!!!! we called the cops and they came over and see that it was def a person whu did it and that they had picked purposly took our rabbits out to be torn apart by their dog!!!!!!!!

you wouldnt believe how sick and angry it makes me feel that a sicko has done this!!! last night i couldnt sleep all i could see was our dead rabbits, and how cruel someone culd be to do that!!!

im soo angry!! they were inocent pets that my son and brothers and sister liked playin and lookin after and some cruel sick person has done this!!!  its heartwrenching!

last night i stayed up and watch greys antamony to make me feel better and ate chocolate but i have gone off all meat at moment cause all i can see is the rabbit that was torned apart.

im still pregnant nearly 40 weeks! getti alot of bhicks but nothin too majoir sadily but soon baby will be born :)  better go and see where my rascal has gone with a pen lol found a wall today graced with his lovely drawings lol cute but naughty..

well baby is engaged and all ready for birth, i am still only 36-37 weeks along. but feeling the braxton hicks alot, i been taking primrose oil tablets started the raspberry tea today and walked on the curb for my walk. i still havent made the cot or finished her room yet, so im quickly tryin to finish it lol. bit nervous about labour lol

how exciting nearly 4 weeks to go! im doing fine and well same as baby! she has grown and just waiting to be born, im getting so big now and looking forward to holding my lil princess xo

as i have said in last blog, i have been really sick for two weeks and couldnt eat etc had  bad fevers,migraines,spewing etc etc. so now i look and feel very weak still and baby is size 29 weeks instead of 32 weeks. not very good. im trying real hard to eat but its really hard to eat at moment! after two weeks of eattin one toast every two days etc has made my tummy grow smaller. i have lost alot of weight as well and have very hard trouble sleeping. so hopefully everything gets better!!!

I have been having trouble sleeping! so much so that im dreading to go to bed and it starts scarring me, i think im starting to get anxiety attacts cause i will fall asleep and then wake up and cant get to sleep and then i start panicking and i cant breath properly, cant stay still, its so fusterating! i will force myself to lie down but as soon as im just about to realax i get real hot all of a sudden and then adrenlion starts pumpin through! im so just wanting a good night sleep!!!!! i have been sick the last two weeks and my family hav been away so it was very challenging as i looked after myself plus dylan. im very glad and happy that my mum is home from her holiday and finally home. just having the security of having them home has made me feel way better! im going to have a glass of milk before bed and try relax and read a book or something tonight and see how it goes. lol dont get me started on what i think of labour! i had a big panic attack last week over labour and didnt sleep at all making the next day me vomitting etc. so not thinking of labour or baby at moment. dylan is growin up so fast and he is so beautiful i love him soooo much

i know i shouldnt be acting like this but i cant stand being this big.. i think its down to my ex who is in my life still, he hangs around so many skinny chicks and then heres me wiv a huge belly.. all i look forward to is to just get my body back so i feel hot again lol. i guesse i feel treated big and it sucks... maybe its my hormones goin off, i only got 11 weeks to go so maybe its that, hope no one is offended by me feelin depressed and fat.. but i do.. 

Lol this pregnancy is certinally harder than when i was pregnant to dylan! im much bigger and its alot harder and sorer this time round! but right now I have got funny habbits, like I cant stand not eatting at the table without it being set and knowing that all food is prepared and finished with plates ready! im also got into decorating my room so now im cutting out stars and flowers from paper, placing glitter on them and hopefully hangin them on the roof. but man, im soo exhausted everyday now just my body is getting exhausted and I cant handle things like visitors around at night as it iratates me even if they are not my friends but my families.. lol. with dylan at 6 months I just started showing but now i am the size of when i was 8 months pregnant! I cant walk as much as well, as it hurts and im always getting braxton hicks!! they are so uncomfortable!

dylan is beautiful and a lil sick wiv a cold but other than that i love him to pieces! i bought him a big easter egg today hehehe i love spoiling him and im kinda afraid that when baby comes i wont be their as much as I am now im so worried! i really want him to know that he is the sunshine in my life and nothing and no one will replace that, i just hope this baby wont take what me and my son have...

anyways im tired as! and goin to hop into bed and cut out stars lol hope everyone has a good night and day! oh and happy easter everyone!

xo