how exciting nearly 4 weeks to go! im doing fine and well same as baby! she has grown and just waiting to be born, im getting so big now and looking forward to holding my lil princess xo

as i have said in last blog, i have been really sick for two weeks and couldnt eat etc had  bad fevers,migraines,spewing etc etc. so now i look and feel very weak still and baby is size 29 weeks instead of 32 weeks. not very good. im trying real hard to eat but its really hard to eat at moment! after two weeks of eattin one toast every two days etc has made my tummy grow smaller. i have lost alot of weight as well and have very hard trouble sleeping. so hopefully everything gets better!!!

I have been having trouble sleeping! so much so that im dreading to go to bed and it starts scarring me, i think im starting to get anxiety attacts cause i will fall asleep and then wake up and cant get to sleep and then i start panicking and i cant breath properly, cant stay still, its so fusterating! i will force myself to lie down but as soon as im just about to realax i get real hot all of a sudden and then adrenlion starts pumpin through! im so just wanting a good night sleep!!!!! i have been sick the last two weeks and my family hav been away so it was very challenging as i looked after myself plus dylan. im very glad and happy that my mum is home from her holiday and finally home. just having the security of having them home has made me feel way better! im going to have a glass of milk before bed and try relax and read a book or something tonight and see how it goes. lol dont get me started on what i think of labour! i had a big panic attack last week over labour and didnt sleep at all making the next day me vomitting etc. so not thinking of labour or baby at moment. dylan is growin up so fast and he is so beautiful i love him soooo much