I was just thinking today that it would be awesome if there were another 2 "top friend" slots as there seems to be room there for another 2 *hint* *nudge* Don't get me wrong I'm not thinking of it as a competition or anything silly like that but I was thinkin that I have gotten to know 2 more girls really well who are awesome and when I saw the room up there it got me thinking LOL

I've had ENOUGH!! Only a couple of friends of mine would know that my relationship has been on the rocks for quite a while now but I've been too proud to talk about it. I've been trying to hide it and pretending that everything is okay and I'm tired of pretending; everything is NOT okay!

I fell in love with an ambitious army man who was extremely active and motivated and had goals, aspirations and dreams!! Someone who used to tell me he loved me every day, helped around the house without asking and bought flowers just because. Now I'm living with someone who doesn't give a shit about anything and sits on the couch every single day playing games on that stupid gaming console!!!!! I'm tired of cleaning up after his lazy ass and trying to make things work! I can't even sleep in the same room as him anymore! Spare rooms are supposed to be for house guests not to get away from frustrating fiance's!

He has become so lazy, unmotivated and depressing that I feel like jumping off a bloody cliff whenever we try to have a conversation.

He just doesn't care anymore he throws his shit on the floor, puts on the tv or gaming console and neglects our son, whenever I suggest we go to the beach or go to the park so Rai can have some fun he whinges and complains and all he wants to do is sit on his ass and do nothing.

Sorry but I did not accept his marriage proposal to spend the rest of my life with someone who has no dreams!!!!!! All he is doing is holding me back in life at the moment. I can't stand to be around him anymore. He is draining my patience and every ounce of positive energy I have left to give.

I'm tired of talking and trying to make things work. A brick wall gives me more emotion and response. Once I start work in day care, I'm moving out.

I thought this man was my soul mate. And now we aren't even best friends anymore. He has become everything I hate in life.

I highly doubt he'll read this. He's not interested in anything going on in my life at the moment. He's just swimming in his own pool of misery.

I'm off to go for a very long walk, at least one of us has found the strength to get off their big fat butts and do something about it!

I haven't really been doing much so I haven't really had anything to blog about so this will be a bit of a ramble as a personal blog is way past overdue.

Raiden got his needles today. They should have been done 3 weeks ago but there was a lot of stuff around with Brent's work as well as finding a suitable time with the nurse/doctor to get them done.

Our closest married friends Kel & Paul are moving to upper QLD somewhere, her husband got accepted for an apprenticeship in the mines. YAY for them as he could be earning up to 100k a year but they're going to have a lot of trouble moving all of the animals up to the new house. They have about 12 tanks of lizards, 2 cats, 2 dogs and a cockatoo. So I guess we won't be able to see them as often as we used to. We normally see them every Friday or Saturday night to hang out, even if it's just to watch a movie at home together.

The mum I met at Minky's wedding a few weeks back sent me a text message this morning so I finally have her number. I'm about to add her to facebook in a minute and maybe even invite her to minti, her name is Jess. She lives about 20 minutes away from me so we should easily be able to hang out often.

I'm left feeling really confused about when I start work. A few weeks ago she was really fast forwarding things and seemed really keen for me to start ASAP. She hasn't mentioned anything since so I'm going to see her tomorrow and try and get a time frame as I was under the assumption I was ready to start as of this week. She already has me on the pay roll and everything...

I was offered payment for a couple of my readings. I was really proud of my work as I managed to blow the two girls away with the information I had given them. I don't want to enclose any details about it as it may be personal but Lui was one of the girls if you want to know what was said, you'll have to ask her. She is going to help me start a big facebook group to attract more like-minded people to do readings for. She is the sweetest woman ever when you get to know her!! I wanted to do the reading for free but she wouldn't let me because she said it would de-value my talent.

Brent is whizzing through his Diploma of Justice. I took Rai over to see his grandfather for the day and he had finished every, single assignment for 3 subjects as well as read 3 text books. He is so freakin intelligent!!!!!!!!!! And he has been approved for a whole heap of prior learning so he can apply for training with the police force very soon! I am so proud of him! I never wanted him to give up his other jobs to work behind a desk. I am so glad that he is out there chasing his passion again.

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